So this is a fluffy story, lots of Romance and it takes place in the future, this is just a little introduction, I hope you enjoy, thank you in advance for reading and review if you feel like it, thanks again! :).
She has been standing in front of this white, fancy door for almost 30 minutes, she's bouncing on her own feet, her hands are shaking badly and her mouth is as dry as the desert, her heart jumps inside her chest when she hears the door open.
"Quinn?" asks Rachel with a frown on her face, Quinn can't answer, she wants to of course but she can't so she just nods furiously.
"What are you doing in here?" she asks again and Quinn is struggling to swallow the knot at the back of her throat it wasn't there a few minutes ago but it appeared as soon as she laid eyes on the beauty in front of her, she opens and closes her mouth but no sound comes out, she dries her hands on her jeans as she looks up and begs whoever is up there to help her.
"I-I Rach, I... fuck" she shakes her head to try and control her mind "I... I just, I need to talk to you, if... you know... if that's ok" she curses herself internally, grow a fucking pair Fabray she keeps reapeating on her mind, Rachel frowns and a few moments later she nods.
"Yeah, yeah ok just let me leave the garbage in there" she walks toward the dumpster and throws the big, black bag, she smiles at Quinn and motions with her hand for her to enter the house, Quinn does.
"So, what do you want to talk about?" Rachel asks still smiling, Quinn doesn't know where to look at, the pictures on the wall... no, bad idea, the ceiling, definetly no, the couch... mmm yeah the couch will do, she nods and takes a deep breath.
"The wedding... I know I've said a lot of things earlier but I'd like to explain myself if..." she swallows the almost inexistent saliva on her mouth and looks at Rachel "If that's ok with you".
"Ugh... Quinn, look I don't mean to be rude or anything but you made it pretty clear, you disagree and I understand, you think we're young and you think that we're making the wrong decision but I'm sure and I'll marry him even if it's not ok with you, or with the world really, I love him Quinn and I'm sure that I want to spend the rest of my life with him" those words hurt Quinn more than she could explain, she could basically feel her heart break on her chest, she tries to blink the tears away but it doesn't work and she's crying now.
"Look... This... fuck, this was a huge mistake and... I think that I should go... I should've never come here in the first place" she walks toward the door whe she feels Rachel's warm hand on her arm.
"I'm so sorry Quinn... I'm sorry... Why are you crying?" she asks as soon as she can see Quinn's face.
"I-I'm crying because I'm an idiot... Be happy Rach" she says as she walks out the door, Rachel is on her toes.
"Quinn I'm so sorry, please tell me whatever you wanted to say, I'm such a fool, just please, please wait" she grabs Quinn's arm again, the blonde shakes her head and takes a deep breath, this couldn't be happening.
"Quinn please... Please talk to me, I know we're not the best friends in the world, but we've been trhough a lot and... I'm so sorry... I really want to form that bond with you, I've wanted that since I can remember" Rachel keeps talking but Quinn stops listening, she cleans her face with her right arm as she takes a deep breath, she gathers all the strenght she has as she looks up to the sky, she can feel her tears falling down her cheeks but it's now or never.
"Rach... Rach... Rachel!" it takes three attempts and a scream to get her to stop talking, Quinn turns around she can't do this looking into her eyes she just can't.
"Yeah?" she says, Quinn takes a deep breath as a shiver wanders her body.
"Look I'm going to tell you something and I want you... I want you to listen to me till I say everything I need to say... Cause honestly this is eating me up Rach and I need to let it out, I need..." Rachel was in front of her again she was cleaning the tears on her cheeks.
"I'll listen" she says and Quinn half smiles.
"I-I... Fuck Rach... I don't even know where to start this... I- I didn't know at first what this meant you know I thought... For years I thought that I hated you cause I felt... I feel something so strong, so undeniable toward you, I... I never knew how to deal with it, so I tortured you cause for a long time I was confused, and I think... You Rach you should hate me... But you don't which make you... shit, I'm sorry" Rachel smiled as the blonde's body and brain was a mess.
"Don't be" Rachel whispered, Quinn closed her eyes and a few moments later she continued.
"Rach... I'm... I am so, so fucking in love with you it's surreal and I've been since the first time I laid eyes on you... Fuck at first I didn't..." she cleared her throat "I clearly didn't know how to deal with it, I kind of hated you for making me feel all of those things, then... Then I... I realized, no, more like I accepted that I was... am in love with you, but... but being in love with you doesn't justify the way I treated you or how I always tried to keep boys and... Everybody away from you... Being in love doesn't justify me being a bitch and hurting you for all that time... I wanted..."
"Quinn..." Rachel whispered, Quinn shook her head and cleaned her face.
"Please... Please just let me finish... I came here... fuck..." she looks down and takes a deep breath " I'm here to tell you that most of all I'm so, so, so fucking sorry... As I said feeling something so impossibly strong toward you doesn't give me the right to choose who you are with or anything like that, I want you to know that I respect your decision... That... That the only thing that I want is for you to be happy and if Finn" she clears her throat " If Finn is your happiness then... That's great" she fakes smile "I truly wish the best for both of you, I just... I couldn't live thinking that you might hate me, and don't get me wrong if you did I'd totally understand it but... I wanted you to know the other part of the story... So..." she bites her bottom lip and looks at Rachel directly into her eyes "I'm sorry, and I wish you the very best, I hope the both of you make each other impossibly happy and that all of your dreams come true, I love you and you have no idea how relieved I am to say that... You can always count on me but as I think you'd understand me being at your wedding would be suicide so I won't attend... But I wish you the best..." she starts to walk down the street she looks back and sees Rachel crying, she walks toward her again, takes her left hand and kisses her knuckles "Promise me you will be happy Rach" she says, Rachel sobs.
"Quinn I... I didn't..." "shh" says Quinn "just say you promise", Rachel nods, Quinn kisses her forehead, mutters a silent I love you and runs as fast and as far away as she can...
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