Afraid to Love

This was just some random thoughts on Squall and Rinoa which I threw together into a one shot. It's for all the dedicated Squinoa fans out there! It's a bit rough round the edges because I typed it in one go. Please R&R, I wanna know what you guys think!

Squall looked down on her sleeping form. She was so beautiful, and he couldn't stop staring at her.

Every time she breathed, a small strand of hair near her face rose and then fell again. If someone had told Squall that he would have fallen in love like this before, he would have never believed them. Him-the eternal loner-falling in love? It had seemed impossible then.

She turned in her sleep, and her head rolled onto Squall's arm. He placed his arm delicately around her sleeping form and gently cradled her head. She snuggled closer to him, and he could feel her silky skin against him. Her breathing was still gentle and quiet, and her hair was now completely covering her face. Squall leant down and gently brushed it away, so he could see her properly. He couldn't stop looking at her. Admiring her.

He did this a lot recently. He always slept badly. Before, he was likely to grab some clothes and his gunblade, and spend some time fighting monsters in the training centre, but since Rinoa had come along, he had felt no need to fight monsters to battle his insomnia. Just watching her sleep calmed him, and he couldn't help missing her, although she was right there, beside him.

What would he do without her?

He loved her more than he would have ever thought possible. Her smile, her touch, the way she laughed, and tilted her head to one side and even cried. He needed her to breathe.

For a split second, a small nagging thought chewed away at the back of his mind. The part of his mind which was still controlled by the 'old' Squall. The part that always started to hurt whenever he thought of Rinoa, which was practically all the time. What if he had let her in to far? What if she broke his heart? Should he really trust her?

Squall closed his eyes in pain, tears stinging as they rolled down his face. The mere thought of losing her was more than he could bear. He opened his eyes and saw Rinoa again, and all other thought were cast away completely.

He loved Rinoa, and she loved him. No matter what happened, he would always love her. Was it unwise to leave himself so vulnerable? Yes. But at that precise moment he did not care. He had her, and she had him. He would always be there for her, no matter what happened. Their love was not to be tainted by Squall's old self. He loved her, and that was what mattered.

Glancing once more at Rinoa's sleeping form, Squall lay his head back down and closed his eyes, a smile on his face as he realised that he needed her, and he wasn't afraid to love her anymore.

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