To much

A/N: ok so i dident like my other glee story so i started a new one that has way more angst and i hope you all like it. and if their is anyone who wants to beta give me a shout because i have been told i need one. so read and review =D

ChapTeR 1

Kurt

The bruise didn't look that bad without the concealer.

Ok… yeah it did but I brought it upon myself. I was such a flirt sometimes I don't know how Blaine put up with me. I dressed for attention and I got it and I made him angrier then anything.

"I love you" he said "don't you understand that I only do it to protect you?"

I nodded in silence There was no use arguing. I loved him and I didn't want him to get more angry because then he would break up with me and I would be alone again. I didn't want to be alone again. It's worth it. Being held and loved is worth whatever other issues we have.

"They all want to take advantage of you and i won't let that happen because I love you"

"I know"

And I do… he just has a bad temper and he cares about me to much to let me get used by people. That's why he dose it all… or at least that's what he leads me to believe.

"I don't want you telling anyone about this Kurt" he says "they will only over react about something that means nothing"

"Ok"

"I love you"

"I love you too"

It doesn't matter what he does. How he dose it he still loves me and I would rather cover a few bruises from someone who actually loves me then to be alone. To have no one. No one would ever understand because they are not alone. Finn has Rachel Tina has mike and even if that doesn't work out she has artie. Quinn has sam. Even Mercedes had puck once… I am the only one who had no one and now I have Blaine and I won't lose him for anything especially not a shiner and a couple of arm burses.

"Earth to Kurt"

I snapped out of my thought bubble to see Finn standing at the stairs.

"You ready to go?"

"Yeah I'm ready"

The weather is actually starting to get colder. Winter is well on its way. Finn climbs into the passenger seat and drops his bag at his feet.

"How was you're date?"

"Fine"

"How's Blaine?"

"Great"

He sighs and I roll my eyes. I know what's coming now.

"Am I going to get anything more then a one word answer out of you today?"

"Why do you care how my date went?"

"Because"

"Because why?"

"Because you're like my brother, I like knowing what's going on in you're life"

"Really Finn?" I said. I found it amusing that on most rides he sits with his earphones in ignoring my existence and today of all days he chooses to ask me about the one thing I don't want to share with anyone. "When have you ever cared?"

"I always care… sometimes I just don't show it"

"Yeah and those times are when you're reputation is on the line"

"That's not true"

"Ok so where were you everyday this week when Kerofsky threw me into a locker where was you're interest in my life then?"

"He threw you into a locker?" Finn asked unaware.

"I rest my case"

He sighed in defeat and the rest of the ride to school was silent

"Do you mind if I sit here?" Sam asked me

Blaine wouldn't like this… I nodded my approval. I used to have a crush on Sam… as if it wasn't obvious when he joined glee. But that was long forgotten. He was with Quinn and I was with Blaine. He was yet another straight crush and I no longer cared because I was not alone anymore.

"Don't you usually sit with Quinn?"

"She's out sick today" he said shrugging. Well that's explains it. I tried not to make eye contact with him because for some reason he was trying to make eye contact with me. "you're dating that Blaine guy right? The one from Dalton"

"Yeah"

I didn't understand how he knew that or why he cared at all but. His eyes told a totally different story. As if he was worried this strikes me as odd because I never really talked to Sam…ever.

"Is he nice?"

"Can I ask you where this is going?"

"I just want to get to know you I guess?"

"Really because you haven't batted an eye at me since I let you go from our duet"

He frowned. "I'm sorry about that"

"I'm not"

I got up and crossed the room to another empty chair. He looked upset but what the hell did I care about how he felt? After glee ended I left the room briefly telling Finn I would be waiting at the car. Unlike the morning prior he didn't try to talk to me about anything and just went on listening to his music. That's how it always ended up. We where both to stubborn to have it any other way. I dropped him off at the house and drove away. He asked where but he already knew.

"Took you long enough" Blaine said pulling me into his arms.

"Sorry I had glee and I had to drive Finn home"

"Kurt I don't ask for much… id like to think I am a patent and understanding person and I understand glee means a lot to you but I don't like you being around this Finn all the time"

I raised an eyebrow "I've already told you Blaine he is like my brother our parents are getting married"

"Which means he is not you're real brother" Blaine said matter of factly "which means that he doesn't really care about you"

"I think he dose and I'm not his biggest fan anyway so…"

"I just don't like you being around other guys" he snapped pushing me away. "It makes you look cheap"

This would normally be the time that I made light of the fact that he was a student at an all boy's school and that he is constantly surrounded by guys and I didn't care but that would only make him angrier with me. And I hated it when he was angry with me.

"I don't think you should drive him home anymore"

"We both live in the same house it's just easier"

"Are you saying no Kurt?" he said venomously "I never say no to you … do you not care about how I feel do you only think about you're self because i don't know if I can be with someone who only ever thinks about themselves"

I shook my head "no I love you but I…"

He furrowed his eyebrows. I wasn't sure if this was at all worth fighting about but it seemed to really upset him.

"You're right" I said frowning "I shouldn't drive him home anymore"

"I only ask because I care about you" he said "I don't want to you get hurt"

I nodded and he put his arms back around me. "Come inside the common area and have some coffee"

I followed my boyfriend in silence breathing out a sigh of relief that he was no longer mad at me. I needed him more then anything I was not willing to be alone again.