'You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go' Kelly Clarkson
Based on the song 'Already Gone' by Kelly Clarkson. Very angsty, don't hate me.
Disclaimer: Pfft, I wish I owned them, but I have full trust in AM and co.
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Something was off with Kate Beckett, this was the first time she hadn't said goodbye before going to work, the first time her lips hadn't softly kissed him goodbye. Instead, she had snuck out before he woke up, a feeling of sadness and dread in the pit of her gut.
She sat at her desk, pondering this new feeling and came to a decision. They needed to talk.
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Rick Castle woke to the loud ringing of his cellphone, scrubbing a hand over his face he slowly opened his eyes. His brow furrowed at the sight of an empty bed, but he grabbed his phone before it could go to voicemail.
"We need to talk." Came Kate's familiar voice, but it didn't hold the usual playful tone. No, her tone was serious, with a hint of regret, sadness almost.
"Did you call to bug me about getting your coffee?" Castle asked, trying to lighten the mood, still not sure what was going on.
"I'm serious, Castle," her voice was harsh, making him wince, "Meet me at the 12th."
"Okay." Castle said, unable to keep the nervousness out of his voice.
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Kate put down her cellphone, hoping she hadn't made the wrong decision. A tear fell down her cheek, but she reminded herself that she had to do this. They couldn't go on like this, she would keep hurting him, she didn't deserve him.
She looked up at the ding of the elevator and met Castle's intense blue eyes, filled with concern. She walked over to him, taking long strides, and led him to the break room, closing the door and blinds.
"What's up?" He asked, eyes boring into her, seeming to read her thoughts.
"This, us, isn't going to work. We can't go on like this, we're done." She choked out the last word, a stray tear tumbling down her cheek before she masked her features.
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Castle stood there in shock, opening his mouth and then closing it. Finally, the words started to tumble from his mouth, "Was it something I did? Is there someone else?"
"You were perfect, there's no one else, there never has been." Kate said softly.
"Then why are you doing this? If I did something I can fix it, just tell me what this is about."
"You couldn't have loved me better, but I don't deserve you." Kate sighed, knowing that he would try to fight for her, for them.
"Don't-Kate if anyone is unworthy here it's me. You are perfect, you make me a better man. You've changed me, don't do this, not now." Rick pleaded, his voice cracking.
"I keep hurting you, and I love you so much, I love you enough to let you go and hope that someday you'll find someone else. Someone who doesn't keep breaking your heart, someone who deserves you."
"No, Kate, you don't get to do this, not after everything we've been through." Rick all but shouted, tears flowing from his eyes.
"I never wanted to hurt you, Rick, and now I can't stop."
"That's exactly what you will do if you give up on us, you are the love of my life and if you walk away from this I will never recover. If you walk away I will never be the same, I'll never be happy again." Rick's voice shook, his cheeks stained with tears.
"It will hurt at first, but you'll move on. I love you Rick." Kate said, pressing a kiss to his lips, saying 'goodbye' and 'I'm sorry' in one kiss. Then, she turned away and ran out of the break room and out of his life.
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Thoughts? I might continue this if you guys like it.