I remember the day Carslie changed me. Every single detail is so vivid. Especialy the pain that I felt. The thirst that had crept up in my throat would never stop burning. Every single second I begged him to take it back, I never wanted this. It was like cult that you where born into. Don't get me wrong, being an imortal does have it's advantages. Such being absolutley stunning without even trying, and the strength is like nothing I've ever incountered before. But I was alone, no one to share my emotions with. There was this one boy Carslie had introduced me to, his name was Edward. He was very reserved, old fashioned if you may. He had tosseled bronze hair with golden eyes that saw through your soul, if I still had one. He had a extrodinary gift to read minds, so I always kept my thoughts calm around him. I was confused at first because Carlise said he inteanded for me to be Edward's mate. But he never showed any interest, absolutley none at all. It was as if I was simply air to him. It aggrovated me, I would often look in the mirorr and see my flawless reflection
and say "Why am I not good enough? I am beautiful and yet you don't even acknoledge my existence!".
When you grew up with people admiring your beauty it often goes to your head. I was vein, I wasen't
used to not so much being rejected persae more as never looked apon. I later found out that Edward was
just as miserable with this life as I was. He later started talking to me as he read my thoughts, and
heard that I could relate to him. He told me his story, and I suddenly didn't feel so alone. He expressed
how he didn't have a choice either. He is the only person I've ever let my guard down for, I trust him.
And I slowley accepted that we would be no more than brother and sister you could say. And I was fine with
that, because I could share my emotions with him. He some how understood me in a way that no one else could. Well I must stop writing Carslie has requested that we all come down stairs, he says he has someone new
for us to welcome into our family. I am both happy and sad, happy because I can have one more person to
get close to. But sad because it was another person who didn't have a choice. ~ Rosalie Cullen~