Chapter One
Author's note: Hi fangirls and fanboys of the world! This is my second fanfic ever so please keep the that in mind whilst reading! Please review it means the world to me! I hope you guys enjoy! I made a mistake with tonks house originally, but I wanted to say that even though she is not a gryfindor I made it so the students still have there career chats with mconagall, just wanted to update
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Tonks' POV
I fiddled with my hair (a long and straight deep plum that day) as I waited for my name to be called. Today was the day Mcgonagall was having her little career chit chat with us. God I was dreading it. Why did I have to think about my "future" now? I was only 17, and bloody hell to be quite honest I had no flipping clue what I wanted to be, and personally didn't care. I had everything I needed right now. All set. All good. yep.
"Nymphadora Tonks", said Professor Mcgonagall and I slowly stood up, and slouched my way over. My clanky army boots dragging on the floor, my plum hair pulled up into a floppy bun. I came into her office and clunked into the maroon arm chair.
Me and the professor had an interesting relationship, sure I did my work I got fine grades but besides that I didn't listen to a thing she said. No sitting on the owelry roof (I did it almost everyday), no wandering into the dark forest at 3am (yep, done that), no jinxing the 1st years behind their backs (oh every year, especially on halloween). I had successfully done the opposite of almost everything she had ever said to me, she always had a close eye on me (even though I got away with almost everything). I took pleasure in seeing her exasperated with me.
She took a seat across the desk from me gave me a puzzled look. Like she just had no clue what do with me.
"Nymphadora, what do you express interest in for a career choice", she said in her classic irish accent.
"Its Tonks", I said with huff, she would refuse to call me by my nickname, I hated my real name, I don't know what my mum was thinking,
"Fine then", she said giving a frustrated sigh "What do you want to do, tonks", she said with pursed lips.
"I dunno", I said with a sly smirk, knowing just how to piss her off
"Really now? well you're going to be quite confused after Hogwarts ", she said dryly, with a frustrated look on her face.
"Professor, can I be quite frank with you?", I said slouching back farther into the armchair I was sitting in.
"Yes Nymphadora", she said with a tired sigh.
"To be quite honest, professor, I don't really care right now", I said staring at her just waiting to see her reaction, my hair had now slowly turned to a flaming red, even I knew I was asking for it. Mcgonagall's face turned beet red as she stormed out of her seat and slammed open the door-
" NYMPHADORA TONKS, I AM DONE, I THOUGHT I COULD HELP BUT APPARENTLY NOT, OUT! NOW!", She yelled, and even though I was quite happy for pushing her buttons I still i still was a bit surprised by how angry she had gotten. Maybe I should be worrying about what happens after hogwarts? And why was I letting this crap into my head? I walked quickly and quietly away from the rest of the student waiting for there chat. As I passed I saw my friend olive, she sat with her long dark blackish brown hair to her chest, and bright green eyes staring down at her feet, she was wearing her usual dark purple jumper. When she saw me, she quickly whispered as I walked by.
"You alright t?", she said her brows furrowed in worry at me, I must have had a weird look on my face, or maybe she had her mcgonagall's shouts. I probably did look a little tense.
"ya, ya i'm just peachy", I said with a sarcastic tone and walked off. I immediately felt bad, Olive was my closest friend at hogwarts, and she was only trying to see if I was ok. Oh well I would take care of that later.
All my friends were still having their chats so I wandered to the owlery. The air was a cool spring breeze, and it blew my still flaming bright red hair in the wind. I walked up threw the owlery stairs and climbed up the pipes and onto the roof. I often came here when i was bored, it was a nice place to think and usually no one noticed I was there. It was quiet, besides from the coos of the owls beneath me and the rustle of the leaves in the breeze.
I though about the remaining weeks left of school, and how I really had never thought of anything past my life at hogwarts. The only thing I had set up was a small flat I was going to be renting. And even that my mom had planned out for me. It was a strange feeling. It was all finally ending. I had always found ways to bend the rules and do my own thing but, but after this was over, there would be no rules to bend, no professor to defy. I sat there in shock, how could this be the first time i had ever thought of this? I felt the tears well up in my eyes and slowly fall, and my shoulders begin to shake. Just moments before I had been satisfied with myself and content and now I was sobbing. My eyes were so full of tears that I could barely see what was around me. Why was I thinking like this? This isn't what I do? This isn't me! I sat up suddenly mad at myself, why the hell was I doing this to myself?! I swiped the bloody tears away from my eyes, and mopped my cheeks with the sleeve of my back jumper. I hoped that my eyes weren't to red and puffy, and I stood up.
Shit, my eyes were probably red and puffy, I stood up on the roof. I suddenly had a sudden desire to scream and yell and cry and i had no idea why I just really wanted to. I just had to, Now it wasn't a want it was a need, so I did. I just screamed,and screamed for a good minute, or just until my throat hurt. Time passed and sometime before dinner I got down and, and walked back to the main hall for dinner. I had decided to push all thought from today out of my head and forget all the crap that went through my mind today, and just forget.
Forget.
Really working on forgetting.
Yep, forgotten.
Forget.
Right now my future wasn't really a big deal at all, I don't know why I was worrying so much. I walked back into the building, ignoring all stares I got for my puffy eyes and blotchy face, I wasn't really known as a teary type of person, or really had any worries big enough to make me cry at all. I walked back into the dining hall and sat down with my friends for dinner.I sat down next to olive.
"Hey ollie, i'm sorry, I was such an ass earlier", I said and I truly did feel bad this time.
" oh it's fine, don't worry so much", she said giving me a smile. After dinner we headed up to the dorms got ready for bed. It was a pretty warm night so I just changed into a maroon knit tank, and my comfy trousers, as I was pulling my now ivory white hair into a bun, olive leaped over to my bed and belly flopped onto the duvet with a bounce.
" Damn I smacked my knee on the way down", she said with a laugh while rubbing her soon to be bruised knee.
"olive that was maybe the most graceful thing i've ever seen", i said i said with mock sincerity, as i was laughing olive pulled a small bottle from beneath her robe, giving me a mischievous grin. Firewhiskey.
"Maybe sometimes I like breaking the rules t", she said with a sneaky grin, and pulled me out into the common room and the onto the ladder that led to the top of tower. I had discovered the secret place in my 4th year. Olive lead me over to a place to sit. The cool stone felt good on my bare feet. She cracked open the firewhiskey. Maybe I really did need something to take my mind off the day. Olive to a small sip and shivered as it went down her throat. I took the small bottle and took a swig myself, it felt it burn as it went down my throat, and it made my cheeks feel warm and relaxed.
"I wonder what going to happen after we leave?', i said
"ya, I really wonder how France is gonna be, and the new job", Olive said between a sip from the bottle. Oh ya , she was leaving, I had been trying not to think about that, after school was done was she going to live in france with her cousins for a few years. I started to tear up again at the thought, but quickly pushed more of the drink down my throat. We sat quietly looking at the stars for a little while. When we finished up, we climbed down the ladder precariously, we were in fact a bit woozy from the drink, olive stumbled into bed and within minutes i heard her snore, but i lay in bed quietly looking out the window for a while. I saw all the stars, i really tried to not think about, Olive leaving, Mcgonagall's chat, or anything about after Hogwarts. I was still staring at the stars as I felt my eyes go heavy and I drifted off to sleep.
to be continued next chapter…
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