Sam
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I look up at the night sky as the memories of today pass through my head. Carly ran up to me first thing this morning at school and told me she lost her virginity to Shane. Remember the guy Carly and I fought over. Yeah, him. I could't believe it when she told me. She knows I am a virgin but now I wonder about losing it. It was never on my mind until now. It's on every teenager's mind including mine. I don't feel full intended to losing it quickly but it's official implanted into my brain that I can't get it out. I get up from my spot on the stairs and look over the railing with my two feet planted on the ground. I take in a deep sigh.
" Sam?" I hear. I turn around and I see Freddie. Only an shooting star could bring us back together at this moment on the fire escape.
" Oh hey Freddie." I say happily hiding my emotions of today.
" I know Carly told you." He says.
" What do you mean?" I ask.
" Shane told me this morning also. About losing their virginities to each other."
" Thanks. I was trying to get that off my mind." I say sarcastically.
" So you came here?"
" No I wanted to see if the moon was made out of cheese." I say pulling a joke and he laughs with me. A silence appears.
" I come here too you know. To think. It's the most sane place in this whole building where my cares can flow away with the wind."
" That's so deep." I say giggling. He rolls his eyes and grins. I know he is enjoying my humor.
" Can I ask you a question?" I ask Freddie.
" Yeah what is it." He replies.
" Do you want to lose your virginity."
" As much as I don't want to say this but…yes. Even though I am trying to be over the influence, apparently I am going under."
" What do you mean?"
" I am saying that…..I don't want to be pressured into having sex but I sort of want to have sex at the same time. I don't want to lose it to no slut but to someone I actually care for." He says.
" So your willing to lose your virginity to someone you care for."
" Yeah." I walk around him and take a seat on the window and he takes a seat on the stairs. I start to think and my mind goes crazy. He would be willing to have sex with a person he cares for. Meaning by he would have do it with a friend. For some reason our puzzles were coming together to form a picture that I would have never seen coming in a hundred years.
" Sam," Freddie says.
" Yeah?" I say.
" Do you feel the same way I do about losing your virginity?"
" Yeah. It's like you read my mind. Apparently we're both going under the influence." We both laugh. He puts his elbows on his knees and clutches his hands into a fist looking down at the ground. I move closer to him. I take a deep breath and say the most daring words in my whole entire life.
" I will be willing, to lose my virginity to you. Freddie Benson." He looks up at me and smiles and then goes all concern like a bipolar person.
" Your gonna punch me now right?" He asks.
" No Freddie. I'm saying the right thing for once in my life. I am willing to lose my virginity to you." I say.
" Really?" He asks softly.
" Really." I say smiling and kiss his cheek.
" We should at least make this planned. Meaning by we both know we won't be walked in by parents and stuff like that. Condoms. Maybe you should go on the pill." He says rambling.
" Woah, woah, woah. Take a breath. One,I am not going on the pill. Two, I will buy the condoms." I say.
" I will get the condoms." Freddie says. Freddie is being a man and it's slightly turning me on.
" Where is this going to happen?" I ask. Freddie's face lightens up.
" My mom is leaving friday to go to Fresno for another Aggressive Parenting convention. She is leaving me alone, AND she isn't coming back until sunday.
" Sunday." I say slyly.
" It would give us enough time to do it and clean and dispose the evidence." He says.
" Okay, now it sounds like like we are attempting a murder." I jokingly.
" What's today?" Freddie asks.
" Wednesday." I answer. He looks into my eyes.
" See you in two days." He says and kisses me on the cheek and leaves. I walk over the railing and look down.
I just agreed to have sex with Freddie. Never in all of my sixteen years did I ever see this day coming.