Disclaimer: downton abbey belongs to PBS and julienne fellows if I was him I wouldn't have butchered Matthew at all
Matthew Crawley had never been this happy in his life, he might have felt more than happy but on that day, on that moment, there was only one word happy.
He became a father today.
Which was the most perfect description of a man's life , after being a husband and a son , for today his circle was complete he has a family , his very own little family which was perfect in every way , truth to be told he was quite worried , tensed and couldn't wait to get into that train and be with Mary , he was so stupid to let her go alone with Anna when he should have been there , he did not sleep a wink that night and his memory reversed back to Sybil , how she and Tom both had a very little time with each other after the baby was born and her death .
It was most painful moment Matthew has ever felt , Sybil was like a sister to him , sweet gentle Sybil died later that night , Mary was distraught so was he , Mary cried and cried and so did he , this time he was not ashamed to hide his tears .
Although his mother was posting him regular, he just couldn't wait to be with his wife, even if it meant being in other room, he wanted to see her and tell her how much he loved her.
He constantly prayed for his wife's safe delivery.
As he rushed like a mad man to his wife's labor room he was met with his son and his beaming wife
His son, his little boy, his little prince was waiting for his papa.
At that moment Matthew felt he could burst, is this happiness feels? He did felt it before when he married to Mary and when they got engaged even when they had their first kiss but this moment multiplied by hundreds thousands of moments couldn't describe what he felt.
Speechless.
His son gave a little cry in his arms, and he held his son closer to heart, he vowed from that moment and so on he would give his heart and mind, his body and soul to his children and his darling wife.
This moment was complete.
It was the most perfect moment and suddenly Matthew felt a sudden fear.
This moment was so perfect and serene , he felt some inane fear of losing them , they never had an easy road even before the wedding they got into an argument which would could have resulted in a split had tom never intervened .
He couldn't be more grateful to tom.
He tried to push his fear down and cuddled his family close; his son gave him small smile as if approving of him.
He kissed and probably said a thousand 'I love you 'but each time he had desired to say more.
But the family must be told, as it was tradition the father always tells the news of the baby, he had to go to downton and fetch others.
He really never wanted to leave his family.
After kissing them both, he headed out of hospital and reached for his car.
He was so very happy.
He began dreaming, about downton, about family, about his son, about his wife.
So much he was involved in those dreams, he did not see a truck come towards over him, he tried for the break but the for first time the breaks didn't work, he tried again but quickly lost the control of the car.
The truck hit him and sends his car flying off in the ditch.
Matthew was flung out of the car, hot pain ensued his body, and trail of blood was everywhere.
His very last thought, his only thought was Mary.
To be continued …