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This is gonna be a sad story, maybe funny (if you catch it) maybe yaoi...

Dear Naruto,

I...I don't know how to say this but I hope you get the point. I didn't mean to hurt you. Or Sakura (even if I think she should go and die in a hole someplace horrible...I guess that wouldn't be a hole would it...anyways) I have three very important things to tell you. And somewhere in here I will tell them to you. I don't think I can yet. So I will stall. Wow, even writing to you I feel stupider. I mean I used to always say that standing around you I felt stupider 'cus of all your stupid bursting out of you. But I think I fell stupid writing this to you. Just joking. Don't get so upset. I know you're upset, I know you. Step away from the fire place and finish my letter. I don't really think you give off stupid vibrations, oh on the contrary, I think your very bright. I think that the way you have spent your time around me has done this to me. I'm blinded by my love for you...Yes, you read that right. I can't stand the way I'm so far away from you right now. And the way I treated you before I left. I can't stand the thought of you being mad, or upset, or sad for the fact I left. I did this for you. I did this to prove to myself that I love you enough to take the next step to killing my brother to protect you. I have to kill him. If you don't understand the first reason (the fact he killed my whole clan) then my second would be to keep him away from you. I needed to keep as far away from you, to keep you being you. So those of that damn group the Akatski from you. To do this I needed to kill my brother to show them I had enough power to fight all those damn bastards away from you. All of this, because I love you. Stop fucking crying. I know you are. You always do, every night. I can see you in the crystal ball I stole from the Hokage's room before I left. I watch you while you sleep. It keeps me alive, its keeps me sane and on track. I watch as you pull out the Kunai every night and try to cut your wrists. But when they heal almost three minutes later you get madder and throw it at you wall. Unable to stop the pain I caused you from leaving you. Unable to kill yourself for my sake. I watch you scream at the top of your lungs at something, the only thing I don't know is what you yell. What you scream for into the night sky.

I want to help you, to hold you. Keep you safe from all harm. I want to be there for you and tell you everything will be okay. Tell you why I left in person. And for this I will tell you my second important thing. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I hurt you. I left you when we were so close to happiness. We needed to be together, but I ruined it and left. I fought you till the death and you lost, I don't even want to tell you that I gave everything in that battle. I would of given my life for you, and I did. In the land of Waves I gave my life so you could live. I told you that my body did it on its own accord but know you know the truth. When I saw you down I felt it burn deep inside me. The burn of true love. I couldn't help you heal, but I did help you like. I gave my life, and from what I heard, you did too. The Kyuubi came out to fight alongside you even. All for me. All for my stupid life. Did you even hear me say that I HATED you? I HATED, meaning it changed. Did you catch that? Didn't think so. It was my way of saying I love you at that time. My third thing I wanted to say is, I need you and it will not be long before I come back. Four years until 'You-know-who' will need my body. Then when I have learnt all his tricks I will defeat my brother and the Akatski, then I shall turn my back and kill that damned snake bastard that took me away from you. I wish I could see your face right now. It's probably steaming mad that I did this all to protect you. Not to mention your big Dobe mouth is wide open saying things like "I will not lose to that Teme." And "I don't need anyone to protect me, I never asked you to protect me." And the classic "Teme, I told you never to save me without me asking you to. I will become the best hokage! Believe it!"

Memories come back, alive and happy as I write to you. The only thing I fear is that I should die before I see you again. Or if you should die. Part of me wants to run back to you right now and kiss those tears away. Then after all the sentimental bullshit is over, fuck you into the ground so that the next day you would be helplessly stuck in the wooden floor of my old bedroom. I remember the way your eyes would flare up when you would catch me looking at you. As if you wanted it. As if you needed it. If you thought I did not notice then you are sadly mistaken. I noticed everything about you. I noticed that your hair was always the most golden in the winter and that when Sakura turned you down you secretly were relieved. I mean common, that look in your eyes that you give me is passion, what you give her is disgust. But apparently she doesn't know the difference considering I give her the same eyes and she's still convinced I'm in love with her. I also noticed that the only true smile you gave was the ones you gave me. the very rare, vary small smiles. All the other were a cover up. A mask. When I come home will you put that mask down? Will you let me see the true you for a whole day? Will you let me know the full extent of what I have fallen in love with? I didn't fall in love with your overbearing grin or even your boisterous pout. (Even if it was what makes your face so sweet and delectable) I fell in love the first time you gave me a true smile when we finally finished learning how to climb that damned tree with chakra. You know there is only a small line between love and hate. I always thought that I was on that line with you. On minute I loved you for being so caring and deep in your own way. Your eyes sparkling with emotion, then I would hate you for being such a idiot and getting me into all sorts of trouble. Well I have realized that, the line I always thought I was on never existed. At least not under me. You see, when we first joined onto team seven I had crossed that line. All the way over and joined the side of love.

There is something I must tell you. To become the ultimate ninja to insure your safety as well as everyone else's I must throw every emotion away. Everything I have every felt will be gone by next month. Every feeling that will ever be felt we never, ever show. I will not show emotions to the extent that I will have no emotions. I will not love, hate, or have any type of feeling towards you or anyone else. Just remember that this is all for you and my love for you. That one day so long ago and by the time you get this I will not feel this because of it. I love you and I hope you know it. I love you. I love you. I...Love...You...

Uchiha Sasuke

The older raven haired teen sighed as he folded the letter he had written years ago. He had to get all his feeling out to fully get rid of them. He would of succeded years ago if he had not of fallen in love with the blond wounder. Taking out the stolen globe form the third Hokage he summoned up the sight of his beloved Naruto. Currently he was on a mission, but even so he was sneaking away from Sakura to get some private time to himself. Sasuke knew what was to come. Naruto ran into the wooded area, far from where the other nin's were sound asleep in a dingy shack. Once there he pulled off his pack and rummaged through it for his 'special' Kunai. After retreiving it his lips moved in a slow way as if talking to an invisible person. Tears dripped down the front of his tan face. past the whisker marks that outlined his jawline. Sasuke watched as the already bloody kunai slid across the tan flesh on Naruto's wrists. Dripping down to the grassy area underneath him and accedentaly onto his pack. Without noticing this he flung his head back as he did this four more times. Lips moving fast as confessing somehting he's kept pent up. Wrists were visibly getting better by the second. Noticing this he threw it at a nearby tree. Standing and drawing enough chakra to create a perfect resangran and pushing it into the ground letting himself to be full exerted. His anger being taken out on the defenceless forest. Suddenly some men surrounded the blonfd in his furry. Wait. Sasuke knew those people. they worked for Orochimaru. They were there to kill...or capture. Either way, it wan't good. The raven couldn't take it anymore and looked away, willing the scene away. Standing up and moving over to the door of his small room, he quietly talked to who he wish was there.

"Naruto. Please forgive me. Please. I need you to live until I finish my mission. I need this to end." Dropping to the floor onto his hands and knee's. Silent tears carresed his face, when his arms and legs gave out he staid on the floor until Kabuto had re-entered the room.

"Sasuke-kun, Orochimaru-sama would like to see you know. He sayed he has a surprise for you." Unwillingly Sasuke stood and joined Kabuto to the snake nin's room. Thsi was it. He would take over his body now. It would all be over, he had to get the letter out. Staying hidden under his pillow for the longest time.

"Sasuke-kun. I ahve a new jutsu for you." The pale man said in a happy voice with a slight ku ku ku after. 'Oh thank god...'

I can still tell you Naruto. I can still save you.

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