xxxSakura's POVxxxx

I ran home , a smile written on my face. i wanted him. I needed him. He would be waiting. I hoped.

I dropped off my backpack and ran threw my house smiling more happier than anything. I kept slipping and falling. hitting the walls of my house and hitting objects like my fridge the buffet and the door handles. Pain would spear threw me but I wouldn't feel it. I was one cloud nine.

It was stupid how I could like this guy so much although I knew so little about him. I knew where he came from and that he was older than me. I liked him more for his spirit then for his age or who he was in real life. I was stupid to do that but, I liked him. i liked the thought of him comforting me when I was sad and I helping him when he was angrey, in pain or even sad. I liked to take care of people but, him much more.

I would wait for the computer to warm up for five minutes and that whole time I was groaning with anticipation to talk to him. Just to hear a hi or see a hi on my screen. even that it's self was blissful.

I finally saw teh screen pop up and I littterally jumped out of my seat knowing I would talk to him. again....Again.......AGAIN!!

I wanted to know so much about him. I wanted him in my life. I wanted to see him and hug him in real life. I needed this.

I clicked repeatedly finally getting to teh page I needed and smiled. I clicked the 'game' and waited for anotehr angoizing minute waiting to talk to him.

i got on finally after signing in and shit like that.I saw he wasn't one but hey, no big deal right. i could wait. So...I waited...five minutes....ten..twenty...thirty. soemthing was wrong. He was usually on.

I couldn't help but wonder but, what could I do?

I desided to search and randomly do things on the computer for whenever how long. I just surfed not doing anything really....Then, I stumpled on my e-mail.

xxxxxxxxxx

It was over..jsut like that. A quick snap of his fingers and he wanted nothing to do with me. Didn't want to know me. Didn't want me to know anything about him either. He could get rid of me so easily and he had done that.

Anger and Sadness filled me as I continued to stare at the screen in horror. It was a lie. This was a nightmare. This wasn't really happening,was it?

He lied...He lied about everything.....I was a player in his game and he had killed me.I was a pawn and he was a king. It didn't matter if I died. i was jsut a damn fly to him anyways. I was to annoying to be true.

He lied about everything...his happiness...his will to kill himself if i died.....never being apart from me. It was all a lie.....

That word filled my head.....Lie..Lie...lie....It never stopped. It kept coming and It was tearing me limb to limb.

I got out of the chair, shaking furiously and I couldn't stop. The warmth from my body was gone.....It was over.....

I felt tears strain from my eyes as I knelt down infront of my bed and began to cry my heart out.

I didn't know you and get you didn't know me. i thought we had a special friendship. One that was happy and full of life.

His letter ran threw my mind and I cried more....It was true..It was all true but, he didn't believe in anything. He gave nothing a shot. He was being hipicritical....He hated me.

xxxxxxxxx

The days fled and I did barly anything. I couldn't stand to see outside daylight...i couldn't stand to see anything happy. I was jelious of teh happiness my friends had...I wanted to keel over...Why couldn't I!! I faked smiled and teh light in my eyes fled so quickly just like when I was actually happy. My heart was slowly turning black and I started to feel the neve to write his name.

That's what I did. In math I started writing his name out and finially wrote his name with dripping in blood. i wrote ' hate then i felt horrible and started scribbling the name and hate out. i scribbled it out. I crunched the paper and saw teh boy across from me who was kind to me stare at my paper as I wrote his name. He was curious and I saw him get paler when he noticed teh words and he moved slightly back.

I kept opening the scribbled paper and looking at it..thinking about him.

I couldn't stand it anymore and desided to fill my locker with his name.I did that. his name was written down the side of it and I could stare at it for five seconds before others would stare.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I got another e-mail from him and knew how much he hated me.

I just wanted to say i'm sorry. I didn't mean for this to happen. I wish that I was never alive for you to know me. It could have been better that way. You would be happy but, then another girl would take my place and she would be hurt....I guess it was better for me.

These days I'm cold. i have no warmth. School drags on and I feel like soeone left out.How could I let this happen.

I just wanted to say I will always think about you..even though you hate me....Please forgive me.....

...Lee...

A/N: Based on something that really happened. I know it's not that good and I'm sorry ppl but I had to get it out..... please read and review thanks! Falmes welcome!!