I look into his eyes. Through them into his very soul. And I feel hollow. I am looking into the eyes of the one person I have ever loved. I am a prince. I could have whomever I please. Yet my heart will not allow me to love another. And it pains me so, because I know that he will never truly care for me in such a way.
Then I am angry. It is a strange feeling. Elves do not normally suffer from the emotion, but I find myself now trembling with anger. Not at him, but at myself. However, under his gaze it soon fades.
"Legolas," Aragorn again says, "what's wrong?" I struggle to smile. He pushes my hair from my face and smiles at me. He stares at me with a smile that doesn't extend to his eyes. His eyes are filled with concern for me. "Legolas, you know you can talk to me." I pull him to me and kiss him. At first he is shocked. I use it to my advantage and pull closer and wrap my arms around him. Then I back away. It was a stupid move of me. I never should have done it. He will never love me in the way I so dearly love him. Tears run down my face. "I'm sorry" I breath. I turn and run. "Legolas!" he calls after me. But I do not turn. I run around the corner and out of his sight and to the stables, where I sit and weep.
Part 2: Aragorn POV
The battle of Minis Tirith is a wonderful success! It is miraculous. I am in the city, celebrating with the soldiers. Then I catch sight of Legolas. He looks troubled. I go to him.
His eyes. There is something in his eyes that has never been there before. Or perhaps it has and he has just never allowed me to see it. "Legolas," I start. We have been friends for a long time. I am very concerned about him.
"Legolas, what's wrong?" I ask as I push his hair from his eyes. I try and comfort him with a smile. "You know you can talk to me."
Suddenly our lips are touching. There is a fierce need in his kiss. I am shocked. A million emotions I never knew I was capable of rush though me at once. Before I realize it his arms are around me. Before I can stop myself I surrender to the kiss. And before I know it he is pulling away.
Tears stream down his cheek. "I'm sorry" he whispers. Suddenly he turns and runs. I don't know what to do. "Legolas!" I shout after him, but he doesn't turn to me. I don't know what I would do if he did come back. So much emotion. So much its almost painful.
Part 3: Legolas POV
I can't believe myself. How could I let myself kiss him? It was so stupid of me. Nothing will ever be the same between us ever again. I am filled with sorrow. I could have ruined everything. Our friendship will never be the same.
On the other hand, I thought I felt him kissing me back for a minute. No, I cant think like that. I dare not get any of my hopes up. It will never happen. I know that as well as I know my name.
Yet still I cant help but hope. Without hope life is worthless. I think for a moment of the possibilities of dieing from a broken heart. But I don't believe I am at risk yet. Yet. I still don't know how he truly feels. Of course I soon will, because now he knows how I feel.
I cant believe I let this happen. A horse neighs. I get up from the hay I was sitting on and walk over to him, petting his nose. I wish I could know what Aragorn was thinking right now.
Aragorn. The only one I love. The one that I have always loved. The one who loves another.
Part 4: Aragorn POV
Inside the castle. Into the room I am to sleep in. Onto the bed. Thoughts. Bad thoughts. Good thoughts. Thoughts I didn't know I was capable of. Thoughts of Legolas. Thoughts of Arwen. Thoughts about my future. Thoughts about love.
Legolas kissed me. What am I supposed to do about that? I'm so confused. I was happy. Happy with Arwen. Not knowing anything else. Not considering another. Living happily in ignorance. Happy ignorance.
So confused. Legolas? How didn't I know about this sooner? How could it have just come from no where? There must have been signs before this. Think back. He was upset when I cut short our conversation to go to Arwen back in Elrods Council, so many months ago. I thought that was just because we hadn't talked in a long time. Surely there have been other signs since then. Possible even before then. How long has he…has he… had feelings for me? Does he even have feelings for me? Could the kiss have possibly just been a spur of the moment, got caught up in battle, happy to be alive thing?
No. There was too much emotion, too much need. And he wouldn't have run away like that if that was all it was. And he wouldn't cry for sure. No, its something more. Much more.
Legolas. Could I love him? I never really considered it an option. But now that I am here, and it happened, I find myself wondering. I don't think it would be hard to love him. But Arwen. I do love her. Im so confused.