If you can look at someone, know all of their flaws, even hate some of them, but still want to stand by that person's side, then it's hard not to figure out that you're in love with them.
I didn't want to fall in love with Jiraiya- didn't plan to, because what we had was a great relationship, just the way it was. Platonic, familial, even, and that would have been, should have been enough.
But my mind wandered, my thoughts wavered, and my heart was his before I had any say in the matter. Arguments against loving him only seemed to make me love him more and the thought that all of this was wrong drew me closer to the older man.
But why should you love him? I tried to ask myself. I listed all of his flaws over and over again, and while some still remained endearing, for the most part, I could only think of things I disliked about him.
Still, I loved him. Still, I love him. And no matter how I try to stop myself, I know I always will love him.
A/N: I deleted this a while ago and I don't remember why so I'm reposting.