Alec

After the day I had all I wanted was to get in the shower, go to bed and never wake up. Jace and I had been out hunting and Jace, being the smartass he is, decided it would be smart for us to follow a demon under a bridge. Well good thing for the demon there were other demons under the stupid bridge. Bad for us because Jace was already wounded and I was not prepared for six more attackers.

Anyway, thanks to my brother I was having a pretty horrible day. I already had to draw on three iratze and that was three too many. I really didn't have the energy required to even get to my room. God was I tired.

I passed the kitchen and mutter a "g'night" to mom and izzy then tried to quickly make my escape down the passageway. As I round the next corner I find myself face to chest with someone. Max and said chest stop talking. I take a few steps back and realize it's Magnus. I look to Max who has a slight flush on his cheeks. "Sorry" I say and take a step to the right and continue down the hallway. I dont have the energy for dealing with my younger brother or the warlock right now. Besides I don't want to have to deal with what would happen if I did think about Magnus. Meeting him… he's so sexy. Granted we've never had a conversation before. Stop thinking about him Alec.

Right. Shower and bed. I've finally made it to my room and on the way to the shower I take my clothes off and grab my towel. The water felt so good and refreshing, not that it helped with the tiredness or the pain in my side. Before going to bed i add another iratze and go to sleep.

The next morning I'm at the counter in the kitchen with my laptop writing a paper on demons and which blades work better than others and drinking tea when Max comes in. Maryse and Izzy took Jace out for a haircut and dad was in the study so it was just us. He sits down on the stool next to me and slides it closer making me look up. "Yes Max?"

"Hey."

"Uh, hi." This was weird we talk but Max isn't one to come out and have a heart to heart.

"So, about yesterday and Magnus" He's blushing now and looking down like a little kid.

"Max your ten. He's like 300 years too old for you."

"What? No thats not it. I just wanted to talk to him about something."

"Okay. And what was that?"

"Alec I think I'm gay." This made me choke on my tea. "I know its wrong. But I don't know what to do."

I couldn't believe my little brother was coming out before me. This was just so backwards. "No it's not, look Max… you can talk to me about this stuff. I'm your older brother and I love you. I get what you're going through."

Max looked up at me. Suddenly angry for some reason. "No you don't you have no idea Alec! Its so fucking easy for you! Your the golden boy of the institute, you can't say you know how I feel! It feels like I'm betraying all of you by being who I am!"

I just look at him. I can't believe how fast things turned. I do know how he feels and what he's going through but I don't know how to tell him without putting it all out there. So I guess that's what I should do. "Max" I say calmly, "I know how you feel because I'm gay."

Max looks at me fairly horrified "Shit" is all he says and I realize that he isn't looking at me at all. He's looking behind me.

"What?" The voice of my father comes from the doorway. I turn to see him standing there, a horrified expression on his face. Shit. This was not the way to come out to my father. Or my brother for that matter. "Alec, what are you talking about" Well at least he didn't hear Max, who is now trying to hide behind me so that my father doesn't see him.

"Hey dad. I guess we should talk"

"Alexander. Study. Now!"

This should be fun he's already walking away. I follow him pausing at the doorway and look back to see Max looking like a lost puppy. I take a deep breath before continuing to the study.