Hi, this is a journal about our beloved Johnny Cade. He's so awesome, but I can't believe they killed him out of the book ;-; The very short lyrics at the end are to the tune of 'Come Back Home' by Suburban Legends, a really great band. Search them on Youtube..

I wrote this for a homework assignment, and now I'm starting on midterms so whatever I post will probably be crap-ola.

NOTE: Uhm.. this takes place after the book I guess. Pretend he didn't die for a sec? kthxcya!

Summary: Johnny Cade's tired of not being loved by his parents. After his birthday, he shares his feelings and starts his way to getting over the crappy parents he has.

Disclaimer: I do not own The Outsiders or Suburban Legends.

-Journal

Hi…. I guess I should start off by saying that my name is Johnny Cade. It's really Jonathan but I don't like that and who spells their name 'Jonny?' I am writing to you, journal, because Darry gave this to me for my birthday. I'll talk 'bout my gang later. Dally said I should chuck this at people to see their faces but Darry said that I can talk 'bout my feelings in this. I'm not the best speller or grammer person but whatever.

Anyways, today's my birthday and this is my present. Pony got me an art kit or something. It sounds like something a pansy would use, but it's real tuff. Soda and Steve got me a whole lotta soda. I think it's enough for a year, but I'll wanna drink it all soon. Dally got me a brand new switch blade. Real tuff. My parents… they didn't kick me out tonight as their way of 'saying sorry.' But whatever, they didn't even get me a present. Why don't my parents love me?

My parents don't love me. There, I said it. They wish I were gone since I ruined there life. I don't even know what I did but now they yell at me and whip me and even fisted me. I bet there going to try and pull a heater on me. I've tried so hard to make my parents love me but they just won't except me.

I'm so tired of not being loved. I mean, I'm not the greatest kid, hanging out with Dally, who is a real JD with a record longer than the DX line. But I'm ok! And moms and dads are supposed to love their children. I've done my best to be loved but they keep rejecting me!

I tried so hard at school, first off. I worked as much as I could, but with no one to help me, I got held back. My mom always yelled at me when I failed a test and when I got a grade like an 80, she just yelled more for not getting an A. Another thing was that I always remembered to buy things for them. I remembered to get them Christmas gifts and stuff. But they never got me anything.

I need to work on a song for school with Ponyboy. I know he will get me an A, but here's what I have so far.

Why you hate me, why you hit me, makes no sents to me. Now I know just where you should be.

Why you hate me, why you hit me, when you whip me I know that you should never come back home.

Now my life is gone, no will to go on

My life has already ended, thanks to you.

I don't even know where I went wrong. But it don't matter any more. I'm getting over it like Dally did. Darry's right. This actually does help with my feelings.

Thanks,

-J.C.

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