Get Over Yourself! NEW STORY!
A: N/ Hello People this is my first Jacob Occ. Story it's pretty exciting! First thing this is not like other stories even when you swear up and down that it is! It is not… you might also get slightly offended about Jacob and Cheree because one they aren't doing anything right and two Jacob will just piss you off. Litterly… and Bella well if you haven't read my other stories you would know that I was totally anti Bella! And still am! But I have fallen back in love with some vampires but my heart goes to the pack! These are the good vamps that are the good guys now Edward{I used to hate him thought he was a manipulator he's not its Bella} Emmitt Rosalie Felix Eseme and Jasper ohh and Jane and Alec and Tanya those are the only good vamps so far… but whatever! Here is the prefix and review and tell me if it sounds good because I don't know but yea review and stuff!
DISCLAMIER I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT JUST MY OWN OCC. AND THE PLOT LINE THANK YOU!
"Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings."
― Anaïs Nin
Today I died….
Okay that was sort of clichéd it's not like I got shot or anything or mugged then rapped or stabbed in the chest 400 times nope I just have been died for the past 8 months figuratively you know like on that show I'm dead inside yea…okay but today was different because I saw them. I always knew that I would see them somewhere kissing or stuff, which we didn't even do and that killed me more than a gun shot or being stabbed that, would've token the pain away permently but this pain killed me emotionally and so I tell you dear readers it might not have physically killed me but It killed me in the inside because today is the day that changed everything and no I am not going to pull a Bella with all that zombie shit and really that girl watches too much walking dead, like watch the wizards of OZ or something God get therapy off point but okay…
Now anyone who knows me like really knows me knows that I hate fairytale endings, the prince and the princess living happily ever after the Cinderella and Prince Charming the Happily ever After's and no Prince Charming has any one heard of independent women like really I don't need one and never will prince charming can go blow himself. But no one really knows why. And I don't know why not! It's pretty simple really.
Because my fairy tale ending was stolen from me! IT WAS FUCKIN STOLEN FROM ME BY THAT FUCKIN BITCH! I DON'T KNOW WHY EVERY BODY FALLS AT THE FUCKING GROUND SHE WALKS ON! WHY, WHY ARENT I GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM! Why just answer me... Why I'm not good enough just answer that one question. That's the question I have been asking myself for the past year. Just that one simple question I asked over and over in my head.
She took him from me…maybe not consciously but she took him. And he let her… Some people don't know why I even stick around! Because he wants her the Human inside him not the wolf wants her. The wolf wants me. But If I know anything about JACOB Fucking Black is that he gets what he wants no matter what the price. Because too him the wolf was wrong its true mate was "Bella" and he didn't even get the chance like he knew it wasn't going to work out… Like the human knew what was better not the stupid wolf…
I had his heart once too you know. I had it and I cherished it. I protected it and in return he had mine or still does. But I don't have his heart anymore him or her or maybe both unconsciously ripped it away from me.
I knew from the first time he talked about her 1 year ago that he loved her. He loved her more than he loved me. I just knew like mothers integrin you could see it in his eyes that she was a goddess to him.
And IT WASN'T FAIR! HE SHOULDVE LOVED ME HE WAS DATING ME NOT THAT FUCKING H-HOE! M-ME-E N-NNOT HE-ER M-ME JUST ME! I could see it in his eyes his beautiful eyes that could make any person melt even the cold hearted.
He was like that. You just couldn't not love him any one with eyes loved him. So in a way I don't blame her. No matter how much I want too. To scream that, that is mine and not yours so get your fuckin hands off bitch. But I know if I do it would just kill him for someone to tell this to his precious "Bells" too. So I don't even though I so desperately want too. The human part just wants to give up and say adios amigo and get the fuck away from me but the imprinted side wants me to tear her limb from limb and to mark our territory and say "if you even dare touch this you better know a fucking good lawyer and doctor. Mmhmm"
None of the guys really knew why we broke up then. The day of my birthday the supposed happiest day of the year, but not this year it probably was the worst. No it was not him that did it. It was me… just me. And you want to know what he said? When I told him that It was over? You probably already have an idea don't you! Okay get ready are you ready? He said "why?'" just why nothing but why. If you said "why", I applaud you. I really do.
It hurt that he didn't even care not that I could see. He was my boyfriend he should've known better. He really should've. That I guess was another strike to our relationship…
Here's the thing Jacob Black might not have been the smartest cookie in the bunch but he had to have known! Don't you think? Or else Bella Fucking Swan was just on his mind more than I was… and I said "you know why" and I walked away and that was the end of it. He didn't even come after me he let me walk away. Because he should know why… he should've remembered. But I guess it wasn't that shocking he already forgot about our anniversary. He shouldn't have but he did. I guess that was a check against us I guess. Because we were supposed to meet up at this stupid restaurant that I can't even remember the name of. You want to know a secret though? He stood me up because, b-because Bella came calling and what Bella wants Bella gets. And he must not have cared about our relationship that much then…
And she wanted Jacob she wants him and now she has him nothing is standing in her way except a very mad demanding wolf that wants me...
My family thinks its stupid that I am still depressed about our breakup and he's just a boy there are plenty fish in the sea and my reply was not if they keep on polluting the ocean. Did you get it like the pollution is the slutts and there polluting… okay forget it.
But my daddy knows he's part of the counsel and so does my mom so all they say is that he will come around but I don't think he ever will fully not what she will do I know what she going to do I just do. But not my siblings so, so they want to beat him and Bella up bit that's not really possible since you know wolf? Yea whatever…
Anyway as I was saying I got tired of waiting. Leah says she should go beat him up for doing it too me. Even though to me it's a little hip a critical since Sam was dating her and he imprinted on her cousin. But for me for me it was the other way around. I WAS THE ONE FUCKING DATING HIM NOT N-NOT HER! NOT HER…
It's hypercritical well because our roles are just reversed. But I don't think she's that bitter anymore since she's seen what it has done to me and I don't think she wants that to happen to Emily no matter how much she hates her now…
But she took him. And he would always, always be hers not mine never mine. But she did it on purpose or in my heart she did…and he doesn't give a dam that I hurt that I want him. That HE IS MINE NOT HERS, but not to him he's her's. And nothing will change that.
He even told the secret to her before me. His own Dam imprint he couldn't even tell. She knew for 3 months before me. And you want to know what I looked like Dam foolish let me tell you! And it hurt more then you could imagine. I was very heartbroken… very, very heartbroken more like shattering.
But I guess that's what I deserve since I am not good enough for him.. she is though I used to be but not anymore. And I know what I am doing and nothing is going to stop me and I mean nothing not even him. Not this time. Because this time I'm in control. No one else just me.
And I have one confession and that is I am not Cinderella. I am not Snow White I am not in a fucking fairy tale this is my story and there may be parts that you might get defensive their might even be parts that you cry this story might just bring you hope that you can live without a guy It might even just maybe make you smile. But in the end its just my story just mine but sometimes I wish it wasn't mine at all sometimes I really wish there were kings and queens and prince charming's to come save the day so I might not have to be so brave. But you just have to know one thing about me my life isn't a fairy tale and I don't need a prince charming and if you do well good luck waiting for him because 9 out of 10 times yours and even my prince charming got mixed up with the evil step sister who pretended that her foot could fit in that glass slipper. And here's a little secret who really wants to put there foot in the glass slipper sometimes you just have to take what's yours. But the problem someone might have already had stolen him. But the question is, is he really worth the fight? And that my friend is the question I cannot answer for you. Because it's your fairy tale. And who ever said we can't make our own fairy tale and this my friends is mine. But sometimes I really wish it wasn't because what if you want to change yours? What then… that my friends is the answer you just have to come up with yourself and that might be the hardest of them all… because I don't want to change mine not just yet.
If you want to know why I don't will that my friend is only just the beginning you have to read the fairy tale to get to the happy ending but this story doesn't have a happy ending not just yet. Because my story has just begun… My name is Cheree Shyanne Lokel and I have just one thing to say Live to your fullest die laughing fall into likeness with someone, get into fights swear up and down say no and DO the impossible but never fall in love because love, love destroys you and my love destroyed me no worse mine killed me.. and remember that the fairy tales will never have a happy ending no matter how hard you try because no matter what some time or another love always dies and that's just the fucking truth…
It took me by surprise
When I saw you standin' there
Close enough to touch
Breathin' the same air
You asked me how I'd been
I guess that's when I smiled and said just fine
Oh, but baby I was lyin'
What I really meant to say
Is I'm dyin' here inside
And I miss you more each day
There's not a night I haven't cried
And baby, here's the truth
I'm still in love with you
(And, that's what I really meant to say)
And as you walked away
The echo of my words
Cut just like a knife
Cut so deep it hurt
I held back the tears
Held on to my pride and watched you go
I wonder if you'll ever know
What I really meant to say
Is I'm dyin' here inside
And I miss you more each day
There's not a night I haven't cried
And baby, here's the truth
I'm still in love with you
(And, that's what I really meant to say)
What I really meant to say
Is I'm really not that strong
No matter how I try
I'm still holdin' on
And here's the honest truth
I'm still in love with you
And, that's what I really meant to say
That's what I really meant to say
That's what I really meant to say
A: N/ so how was it? Was it good bad terrible didn't make any sense tell me I want to know! If you thought it was sad I thought it was! Very much so review and tell me if you liked it! And go read my other stories! And I have the pics of Cheree and her family up on my profile so go check that out! Thank you for reading and I hope you will enjoy this story!
Peace,
PhysoPenguan64