Time had passed, a year to be exact. So much had changed and it all happened so hastily and was all so hazy, it could have been seen as a type tornado that ripped through our lives.
I dated Scott Tucker for 6 months, the longest and most serious relationship I ever had. I did love him but in the end I had to break up with him, I couldn't continue because I would have ended up breaking his heart. It took me some time to heal; my heart is still slightly fractured.
My mom found the guy that was perfect for her and got engaged. I'm glad it was Ray. He was the sweetest guy she had been with in a while, he treated her right and he respected me. But the best thing was that he made her happy, she was always smiling and laughing. I was happy for her, I really was, but I yearned for that feeling, to call it my own.
Carrie said that she needed to focus on more important things. She was too busy stepping out her future and becoming an honor student to waste time. She wanted to keep better quality company, people who would elevate her further in her already growing career.
Heather returned to her group of mindless cheerleader followers, they didn't have voice of their own and Heather liked that. She became obsessed with her cheer leading and even more absorbed in herself.
Beth got a new boyfriend. They were in that honeymoon phase and you couldn't have a conversation with Beth for more than five minutes because she would then be with Harry shoving her tongue down his throat. She barely had the time anymore, she was either getting down and dirty with Harry or protesting some ridiculous cause.
As for me, well let's just say things have gone back to the way it was. They claimed I would go down in high school history as a legend, so much for that. I faded away behind the new waves of gossip and stories that washed to the school shore every day. Not that I was complaining, the whole reason I did this in the first place was to get Carrie, Heather and Beth to be my friends and I also thought that I could prove a point. All that happened in the end is that I supposedly broke John Tucker's heart and was the flavor of the month. I don't believe that John had a heart to break in the first place. I was kind of glad I had returned to the state of anonymity, if I was being totally honest I relished being alone, for the most part, but being honest again it did get lonely.
And through all of this there was one thing that was permanently set in my mind, John Tucker. I had no idea that I had fallen for him this hard, this certainly wasn't part of the plan. But I was so flummoxed because I loved him and hated him. John and I had agreed to leave each other be but that was the last thing he did. He continued his debauched ways with even though he now promised to be 'honest' he still had a bevy of dense girls lining up to be used. But for every girl he got with he still found time to pester me beyond belief and to decrease my lifespan.
Tomorrow was the first day back at school after the summer break. It had been the best time ever because Jay, Mom and I left Portland and went away to visit family. That meant I left behind all that drama for a relaxing holiday, and the best part I didn't see John Tucker the whole time.
I had just entered into my final senior year, and whilst everyone else was feeling sorrowful I was elated that I could finally move onto the next chapter of my life. I only had to survive one more year with John Tucker, how hard could it be?