I tried and I did

A Derek Hale Story

I remember once she told me to stop putting up walls and pushing her away. "I can see past your bullshit Derek, and I'll climb up those walls if I have to."

So I tried and then I did. I revealed myself to her. Because she was persistent, a little headstrong, and made me feel something I never have before.

Once she told to smile more often. "What are you trying to do scare every woman, child, and animal in Beacon Hills?" She said that by frowning I was robbing the world of something beautiful and rare. A Hale smile.

So I tried and then I did. Because I finally had a reason to smile, her. And I realized my smile put one on her face too.

I remember once she told me to stop turning teenagers. I had just turned Boyd. "No more Derek. No more children. No more kids who are vulnerable and just as hurt as you were, as you are."

So I did. Boyd was my last beta.

Once she told me to do something with the loft. That it was depressing her and lacked any life. "I know you're a werewolf, but it doesn't mean your loft should look like an actually wolf den." This received uproar of laughs from the pack or as she liked to call the kids, especially Stiles. "Plus the kids should feel at home here."

So I tried and then I did. Well Lydia and Allison did they were good at that type of thing. And what better way to make the loft feel like home for the kids than including the kids.

I remember once she told me that I could express my pain; that I was allowed to feel. "You can break down if you need to. You can't hold this type of thing in Derek, it will destroy you." It was after Erica and Boyd died.

So I tried and then I did. Because she was right it was killing me and I needed to let go and the only way to really let go is to feel.

Once after a really bad run in with the alphas she told me to stop sacrificing myself. "Stop trying to punish yourself Derek. It would be different if you were just being Heroic Hale, but you're not. You're doing this because you think they should be here and you shouldn't. You can't bring them back Derek. I love you and they love you and they wouldn't want you to do this."

So I tried and I did. Because sacrificing myself would accidentally end up punishing her.

We had our final run in with the alphas. She was there with us. She shouldn't have been but she was persistent and headstrong. As she lay there with her chest ripped open and heart practically exposed she said one thing…. "Remember what I told you."

So I tried…She once told me, "Derek, if there is anything you have learned from this, you and I, us, know this; that you are allowed to have happiness. You are allowed joy. You haven't really had a life, just a constant motion of pain. But among that pain you have had this pack and you have had me. Don't stay secluded, travel; play with puppies make every day worth it. And whatever happens good or bad, you are allowed a life, so Live."

And so I did.