Author's Note: I wrote this after I'd read a lot of angsty head canon, so I sort of... wrote my own. I'm not sure what this is, really. But it's angsty as fuck.
Rating: T (death talk, I don't know really what I'm doing when I rate my fics)
Pairing: Wolfstar (Sirius/Remus, Remus/Sirius)
Genre: Angst, romance.
Of course, I don't own the Harry Potter series or any of it's characters, that would be nothing less but incredibly silly.
Remus didn't miss Sirius.
Not very much. Not as much as he thought he would miss him, before they went off to the Ministry.
Sirius had grabbed Remus' cloak, the second before Remus was about to put it on, and Sirius had said:
"I'm not gonna tell you 'if something would happen', because we both know, something will happen. And it won't happen to you."
Those words had given Remus a choice, a last chance of telling his best friend of all time goodbye. Either could Remus choose to embrace him, and tell Sirius everything would be fine, just like anyone would expect him to.
Or, he could live the rest of his life without regret, and kiss Sirius deeply. Maybe the kiss would be suffocating them with closeness; maybe it would be passionate; or hurried. Maybe it would feel like any kiss, really, like it would've been just another good luck kiss between them.
The only thing Remus was sure of, conserning a kiss, was that Sirius would definately not push him away, or attempt to hurry off to save the world - or The Boy Who Lived, for that matter. Remus was absolutely certain, that if he'd kissed Sirius there and then, none of them would regret whatever fate had in store for them, neither would they be afraid of battle.
If Remus had just kissed Sirius, he wouldn't have been sitting in front of the unkissed man's gravestone two years later, and regret everything.
Remus even thought, that maybe, if he had kissed Sirius that night before they went to the Ministry, Sirius would have been with him now. In this battle.
No matter how it was, Remus knew that if he had kissed Sirius that night, and felt his wonderful, most precious lover kiss him back, he wouldn't have been as afraid of fighting this time.
He maybe even would've survived.