I Can't Forget About You
Chapter 1:
S's POV:
4 years ago today I had made the worst mistake of my life. Kissing Brittany. I had shattered Dani's heart. Caused her to leave. Not just New York. My entire life.
Kurt had told Dani what happened, and she left. Leaving a simple note reminding me that she never stays where she isn't wanted.
The past 4 years have been alright I guess. I still work at the diner but now I own it. I know, I should be happy, but ever since she left my side I feel empty. There's something missing. Her.
I was sat on my bed, in the Lopez-Fabray apartment (I'm living with my bitchy best friend because I couldn't bear Hummel-Berry) watching TV. Ever since my favourite musician left, I haven't been able to face any music. An interview had just finished "It was incredible to have a musician as talented as Demi on our show tonight, we hope you enjoyed it as much as we did - goodnight!"
"I bet she's not as talented as Dani" Santana mumbled to herself.
Just then, her phone rang. *ring* *ring* Caller ID : Mercedes Jones.
"'Cedes?!" I half questioned-half exclaimed into the phone.
"That'd be me Tana, I did call you ya know Lopez!"
"I know, I know, just saying, so, why the call Jones?"
"Can't I call my friend whenever? Anyway Tana, I was calling to ask you to get your but out of NY to join me in LA for two or three weeks with Quinn"
"First of all, you never do, second of all yes, us two bitches were looking for an excuse to escape New York for a while. We were really missing you 'Cedes! And... We need other company before we rip each other's heads off"
"Lopez. Stop lying. The world knows you and Fabray are like twin sisters. Both bitchy, snarky and will go to the end of the earth to help each other. Why d'ya think you never made a move on her? Cause she's like your twin! And secondly, YEY! I look forward to seeing you two!"
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The call ended shortly after that. Quinn came home from her office in the evening saying she needed a break so she'd booked the next three weeks off work. We decided to go for the full three weeks and surprise our friend. 'Cedes had said we could stay with her seeing as there were 4 large bedrooms in her house which she shared with her super sweet housemate. The place was literally a mansion apparently, Mercedes was now a semi-famous singer amongst youngsters as she had an incredible voice. The only voice that was better in my opinion was Dani's. Her voice was unbeatable. Her range, perfection, and her lyrics, inspiring.
Never the less, today Quinn decided, was about me. Four years ago today Dani had left me. I had cheated on her. I lost my world. Q was being the ultimate BFF letting us watch "10 Things I hate about you" over and over again even though she detested the movie. Other than Dani, Quinn was the only one who knew about my liking to 'RomComs'. We had already finished packing so we were sat pigging out on cookie dough ice-cream and sipping lemonade.
Every summer me and Quinn go back to McKinley to help out with the Cheerios meaning we therefore have a never ending supply of cheerleading kit. Most people would think it hot to be sat with your single best friend, eating ice cream from the same tub, watching a RomCom in cheerleading uniform, but not for me and Quinn. S & Q are the ultimate duo due to the fact that we're both bitches who are like twins. We don't have romantic feelings for each other, just friendly, sisterly ones.
Dani had always known this and never had a problem with my friendship. As long as I was happy she didn't care. What she did care about where cheaters. Lying, idiotic losers who would leave her to go to someone worth much less. Somehow, I became one of those people. I went back to my ex who I was sure as hell was not a saphic goddess like my D. I miss her so bad.
Not a day goes by when I don't regret cheating on her. I loved her. I really did. I still love her. Four years on when I have no idea where she is. Crazy thing is, I'm Santana Lopez. The player. Play-girl. I'm the heart breaker. Yet, since I broke Dani Lovato's heart, I can't help but feel more broken, bruised and devastated than ever. No one could control me. However, Lovato had worked magic. Turned me into a better person. For that, I am forever grateful. Without Dani, I am an ordinary person. With her, I feel like I have super powers. Why can't I turn back time? Why can't I go back to the happy days? Why can't I move on from Dani? See someone else. Find someone new. She's clearly moved on and forgotten about me. Why can't I?
If the high-school Santana *badass* Lopez saw my state right now over a girl she would laugh. Then swear at me in Spanish. Then swear at me in English. Then move on with her life. Why can't I move on now? I've been through so much, moved on, continued life. But Dani? I can't forget her. My heart's still attached to her. I can't bear to cut the strings. If I do, I can't help but feel my life will go spiralling down.
2013's December was one of the best I'll ever have. Christmas with Dani, festive activities together, celebrating the delightful season with her. We were together for the holidays. That alone beat any other holiday I'd had.
Quinn had finally fallen asleep so I carried her into her bedroom and tucked her in her bed before retreating my own room. I really miss D. As awesome as Q is, she'll can never fill the gap there for Dani.
D's POV :
4 Years. 4 fucking years since that bitch broke my heart, yanked it out, beat it with a baseball bat and then drowned it. However, 4 whole years on I find myself still attracted to Santana Lopez.
Since I left New York I've gone far. Travelled around America, spent some time in my home town Dallas, but to be honest, I'm more of a Californian girl then country. Other than that, I've finally had my big break as a pop star and become a pretty famous singer. Who should I thank for that? A certain Lopez. She gave me inspiration for all my most popular songs. I wrote some of them whilst I was with her but released them recently. For example, Neon Lights is a track I wrote whilst we were in happy places as a couple. I wrote Give Your Heart A Break when I first saw her. I wrote Skyscraper when I was broken but had hidden it away as I needed no reminder. However, after I left Santana I released it straight away as I wanted to remind people I wasn't broken and that I was going to get my strength back. Heart Attack is a song I wrote recently about the love I just couldn't express after leaving her.
We were so in love. It was crazy. Crazy good. But true love never lasts. Does it? She lied to me. Told me she was over her "Britt-Britt." Was she? No. Just after an excuse to make her high-school love jealous and then realise that she wanted her back and then "Brittana" could live happily ever after. Were we ever in love in the first place? Or was it I loved her yet I was too oblivious to the fact that she never loved me at all.
My career's going great but I really do need someone by my side. Whilst I hate that Lopez for hurting me, I can't move on. Her touch. Her scent. Her breath. Her body. Her humour. I can't forget about her.