Song to the siren : Chapter one
warnings: drug use,slash,mentions of suicide(in later chapters).
"Here I am. Here I am,
waiting to hold you."
His body felt numb now,it didn't matter,to him nothing else mattered,because he was gone, he had given up.
"Stay with me,you promised me you wouldn't leave."
His vision was blurred now feeling the icy feel of water hit his cheeks,moaning echoing his ears.
"SHIT...DON'T YOU DARE LEAVE ME YOU SON OF A BITCH,COWARD...WAKE UP...CASTIEL WAKE UP."
Dean Winchester pulled his teenage lover into the bathtub turning on the shower letting the water drench the two of them,he slapped his cheek gently trying to force him to wake up,he wouldn't let him take the easy way out.
Him and Castiel were childhood sweethearts,they were in college,in their second year and hopelessly devoted to each other.
"Cas?"
Getting no response,he panicked.
Turning the water off he reached for his mobile in his jacket pocket which was hanging over the toilet bowl holding Castiel in his arms calling 911 "I need help my boyfriend,he's...he's overdosed,please he won't wake up" his whole body was shaking feeling sick,Cas meant everything to him,he wouldn't know what to do with himself if he was no longer around.
Giving them the address,he hung up hugging Cas,rocking him in his arms.
"Please,don't leave me"he whispered into his ear,sobbing quietly thinking the worst.
The Ambulance had arrived pretty promptly, the paramedics escorting the teen to the vehicle as fast as they could getting all the information needed from the other teen quick enough to help.
"Please don't let him die...please."he pleaded with them.
"He won't...look we're on our way to the hospital now,if you're coming you better hurry up."
Climbing into the back of the ambulance he took Castiels hand grasping it tightly in his own.
"you stupid boy,why did you have to do it?"he muttered quietly to him.
Dean knew Cas was troubled,he had been through alot of shit,alot of which he knew nothing about,but he didn't realise just how bad things really were.
"You're going to be okay,okay,you can't leave me,you promised me."
The paramedics pushed him away when they arrived at E.R.
"Male,19 years old overdosed on heroin-"
Dean pulled himself out of the ambulance his mind wandering off as the doctors appeared to assist,he stood there frozen on the spot looking up at the illumated flourescent lighting reading Emergency,feeling like he could lose him.
Hurrying after him,he was told to wait in the waiting area,that was the worst not being able to be close to him,not knowing his fate,it sent a sickening feeling in his gut. He ran his fingers through his hair slipping down the wall letting tears flow freely down his face.
An hour later a doctor came through "You came with Mr Novak am I correct?"
Dean pulled himself up having downed his 5th coffee now and nodded "Is he okay?"he asked worried,his voice broken.
The doctor let out a relucant sigh "he's stable,he's in recovery now so you can go see him."he kept it short and sweet.
Dean made no hesistations to go and see his boyfriend only so he could kick his ass for scaring him like that.
"May I advise your friend to get some help,theres plenty of rehabilitation centres out there willing to help...something to think about" with that he walked off to find his next patient.
Dean frowned watching as the doctor left,he shook it off,there was no way in hell that he was going to let Castiel out of his sight again,especially after this.
Approaching his room,he nervously walked through the open door and gulped finding his friend, his companion, his lover resting.
"Cas?"
Castiel turned his head slowly pulling a weak smile hearing Deans familar roughened up voice "hey beautiful."
Dean slipped his hands into his jean pockets,his clammy hands seeping through the denim "Don't you dare do that to me again,I can't lose you."
Castiel smiled,closing his eyes "shush...it's okay...everything is going to be okay" he mused,in a dream like state.
Dean stared back at him frozen on the spot uncontrollable tears rolling down his face,maybe now wasn't the best time to lecture him,once he's drug free then the lecture begins.
" I just wanted to check up on you,Just..get some rest,i'll come back tomorrow morning okay once you're feeling better."
Castiel turned over onto his side ,letting out a soft moan, "hmm feel better soon-"his eyes remained closed, he pulled the sheet over him hugging the corner of it letting out a soft giggle then breathed deeply "I love you."
Dean turned his back to him about to head out the door,letting out a sad sigh "I love you too."he wiped a tear away leaving the room.
Dean sat in his dorm room which he shared with Castiel he sat on the bed with his laptop open trying his best to finish off an essay that was due in a few days,becoming easily distracted,puzzled by Castiel and his actions why he would feel the need to overdose on that stuff in the first place,he was under the impression they were happy,he was top of the class with a bright future ahead of him,so why throw it all away?
Trying to shake it off he continued to type away,again stopping. He pulled himelf up moviing over towards his room mates side of the room hunting for any clues,easily finding his stash, he shook his head closing the drawer. His eyes widened disapproving of the analgesic at first,but soon became curious. Knowing what it did to Cas it still didnt stop him from wanting to feel that rush.
What the fuck are you doing,don't even think about it,his subconcious screaming at the back of him mind.
Carrying on with his essay he put it at the back of his mind trying his upmost hardest not to think about the lethal drug that stood only a few feet away,he contemplated binning it,but that would only cause him more grief,when Cas got better he would want that,and he would need to evidence to confront him.
Hours had passed and he had barely written a sentence on his essay,slamming the lid shut he put his laptop aside,trying to get some sleep.
Castiel was released from the hospital the very next day,being greeted by his beloved Dean, he threw his arms around him,passionately kissing him.
"Can we go now?" he asked innocently,with a hint of cheekiness.
Dean nodded "only if you promise me you'll never pull anything like this again."
"Scouts honour"he smirked.
Dean smiled weakly putting his arms round his waist walking him out of the hopsital "good luck trying to explain this to the dean,you've missed several lectuers already."
"Hey I'm pretty good at weaseling my way out of stuff,will be a walk in the park,don't you worry about me Dean-o."
Dean rolled his eyes,clearly he wasn't taking this seriously,it could mean the end of everything,expulsion,kicked off the course for good,whatever the outcome he feared it wouldn't end well.
"I'm being serious Cas,you could get into deep trouble for this,and don't think i'm letting you off the hook for this,we're having a talk about this tonight weather you like it or not."
Castiel rolled his eyes at him "quit being a buzzkill will you,it was just a bit of fun,got a bit out of hand."
"Out of hand,Cas you freaking OD'ed, you could've died, I've never been so afraid in all my life."
They stepped out of the hospital heading towards the taxi rank.
Castiel smiled sadly rubbing his tired eyes "I'm sorry,I promise you Dean,I won't do it again."
The couple took a seat by the taxi rank waiting on one pulling up.
"Damn right you won't" Dean grinned looking up into Castiels piercing blue eyes, placing a hand on his lap rubbing his hand against it almost reaching towards his crotch.
Castiel smiled mimicing Deans expressions feeling incredibly lucky to have a man like Dean in his life,things had been pretty rough for him these last couple of years,and escaping to college,to have a fresh start he couldn't believe it was real,there was not a chance in hell that he was going to throw this away.
But then nothing was ever that simple,this was just beginning,and the path of self destruction had only just begun to take its hold on Castiel.
hmm okay so thoughts? Please review and let me know if I should continue,I have a stroyline in my head but i'm unsure if it's worth carrying this on :) thanks