Title: Glass
Rating: Pg -13 (let's just be on the safe side!!)
Disclaimer: I wish I did but, no I don't own any of the characters of ER you know the score!
Authors Note: Please don't let this put you off but yes this is my first fic and personally I'm pleased with it. But I just want to see what all you guys think of it! It's a little carby stand-alone that takes place after the end of 'When Night Meets Day'. I do have more stories in the pipeline but I want to see people's reactions to this one first! So enjoy, and please, PLEASE review!!! Oh and by the way the song i've used is 'Evanesance- Going under'
Abby's POV
" It's not Rio, It's not here"
That's it?! That's really it? He's gonna go and leave with things left unsaid?
I stand here frozen, and not just because of the biting wind that's forcing me to pull my jacket closer around me. I stare after his retreating figure- he's running away, this isn't right, that's my 'thing'.
I turn on my heel and head back into the the ER he wasn't gonna tell me, he wasn't gonna call me, he wasn't even gonna leave a message, he's gone, I don't understand.
"I feel Broken, like smashed glass"
Okay, maybe if all this mess wouldn't of happened with my problems with finding Eric and his with his grandmother, we'd still be talking, being normal, being 'Carter 'n' Abby'.
But I tried, I really tried, I said I'd come straight back with Eric after finding him, I was unbelievably sorry about the funeral, I was gonna stop by the house, but he pushed me away, he couldn't see how sorry I was, he pushed me as far away from him as he could, out of his life for the past week. And now he thinks going halfway across the globe, to a war torn country, is a good way to get away from me.
You know- if that's his way of doing 'this' maybe I shouldn't bother anymore, i've spent too much time, too much pain, too much of me over him. It makes me wonder, as I jam my things in my locker with such force, was this relationship doomed from the start?
"Okay Abby your thinking way too much" I say aloud to myself to no-one in particular.
This past week has been crazy, i've been leaving calls on his cell, his
home phone- no reply but stolen glances across a gurney, no words but medical instructions, but fired to eachother with such force, I should be
flat on my back.
" I'm not going to cry. I have no more tears to cry"
It seems to be a thing in my life, all I get is failed relationships, is some-one trying to tell me that there's nobody out there for me?
And for one time in my life I let him in to 'my world' I him told everything he needed to know, I showed him the 'real' Abby, I let him help me.
Mistake-
He knows my weak spots, he know where I'll fall, he can read me like a book-
This is why this hurts,
This is why I can't let him back
This is why,
I love him.
Now I'll tell you what i've done for you,
50 thousand tears i've cried,
Screaming, deceiving
And bleeding you,
And still you wont hear me
Don't want your hand this time ill save myself,
Maybe ill wake up for once,
Now tormented daily, defeated by you, just one night
I thought id reach the bottom.
Rating: Pg -13 (let's just be on the safe side!!)
Disclaimer: I wish I did but, no I don't own any of the characters of ER you know the score!
Authors Note: Please don't let this put you off but yes this is my first fic and personally I'm pleased with it. But I just want to see what all you guys think of it! It's a little carby stand-alone that takes place after the end of 'When Night Meets Day'. I do have more stories in the pipeline but I want to see people's reactions to this one first! So enjoy, and please, PLEASE review!!! Oh and by the way the song i've used is 'Evanesance- Going under'
Abby's POV
" It's not Rio, It's not here"
That's it?! That's really it? He's gonna go and leave with things left unsaid?
I stand here frozen, and not just because of the biting wind that's forcing me to pull my jacket closer around me. I stare after his retreating figure- he's running away, this isn't right, that's my 'thing'.
I turn on my heel and head back into the the ER he wasn't gonna tell me, he wasn't gonna call me, he wasn't even gonna leave a message, he's gone, I don't understand.
"I feel Broken, like smashed glass"
Okay, maybe if all this mess wouldn't of happened with my problems with finding Eric and his with his grandmother, we'd still be talking, being normal, being 'Carter 'n' Abby'.
But I tried, I really tried, I said I'd come straight back with Eric after finding him, I was unbelievably sorry about the funeral, I was gonna stop by the house, but he pushed me away, he couldn't see how sorry I was, he pushed me as far away from him as he could, out of his life for the past week. And now he thinks going halfway across the globe, to a war torn country, is a good way to get away from me.
You know- if that's his way of doing 'this' maybe I shouldn't bother anymore, i've spent too much time, too much pain, too much of me over him. It makes me wonder, as I jam my things in my locker with such force, was this relationship doomed from the start?
"Okay Abby your thinking way too much" I say aloud to myself to no-one in particular.
This past week has been crazy, i've been leaving calls on his cell, his
home phone- no reply but stolen glances across a gurney, no words but medical instructions, but fired to eachother with such force, I should be
flat on my back.
" I'm not going to cry. I have no more tears to cry"
It seems to be a thing in my life, all I get is failed relationships, is some-one trying to tell me that there's nobody out there for me?
And for one time in my life I let him in to 'my world' I him told everything he needed to know, I showed him the 'real' Abby, I let him help me.
Mistake-
He knows my weak spots, he know where I'll fall, he can read me like a book-
This is why this hurts,
This is why I can't let him back
This is why,
I love him.
Now I'll tell you what i've done for you,
50 thousand tears i've cried,
Screaming, deceiving
And bleeding you,
And still you wont hear me
Don't want your hand this time ill save myself,
Maybe ill wake up for once,
Now tormented daily, defeated by you, just one night
I thought id reach the bottom.