Summary: Set after "Bridesmaids Revisited". Lorelai decides to make one last effort to repair her relationship with Luke but could end up losing everything.

Disclaimer: Lorelai, Luke and their entire relationship do not belong to me, in fact nothing pertaining to Gilmore Girls belongs to me.

Notes: This doesn't actually relate at all to the last episode, not really surprising because there was only one scene with Luke and Lorelai in it. I got this idea from the last scene where Lorelai was in bed alone, again. Personally, I don't get why that was, because seriously I thought Luke moved in back when L&L were renovating the house. Anyways, this is possibly a one-shot, I'm not sure, mostly because I'm not sure I can leave it ending where it is, it didn't end where I planned but I went with it. But be sure to review and tell me what you think! And for all my readers of When Hearts Collide, I took a short break but I'm back and look for Lorelai to question her actions and her engagement more than ever. On to this story…

Her Biggest Mistake

That night after making love, Lorelai finds herself curled up against Luke with her head on his shoulder. He still has an arm wrapped around her as he closes his eyes, drifting towards sleep. But Lorelai is wide awake. She methodically traces patterns over Luke's stomach with her finger as she thinks. "Lorelai, if you don't quit that I'm going to sleep downstairs," Luke warns in his half-awake state. Lorelai draws her hand back quickly, loving the feeling of being with him in bed as he hadn't slept over in a few days. She glances up at his face, as if she wants to say something.

"Luke?" she says, just seeing if he's listening to her. She feels his thumb run over her hip, letting her know he is conscious enough to listen. "Luke, I have something to tell you." He grunts, settling himself further into the pillow he's lying on. Lorelai bites her lower lip, nervous about what he'll say. "Luke, I stopped taking my birth control." Luke's eyes fly open and Lorelai feels his thumb pause its movement on her side. "Say something."

"How long?" he manages.

"What?"

"When did you stop?"

"Oh, uh, just after we got back from the Vineyard I guess," Lorelai tells him, her voice a little timid, as if she's really afraid of what he's going to say.

"Are you telling me you're pregnant?" Luke demands, still in the same position. Lorelai traces a heart on Luke's chest.

"No. Well, I guess I don't know, I mean it hasn't been two weeks yet, and we just had sex again a few minutes ago," Lorelai quietly reminds him. Luke sits up, removing his arm from around her. Lorelai stays lying down but stares at him, watching him mull this over.

"Do you get pregnant easily?" Lorelai gives him a strange look.

"Well, I've only been pregnant once." Luke throws her a look.

"Lorelai…" Lorelai looks down at her hands, almost ashamed.

"Yes, I do," she admits. Luke nods. He begins to play with his fingers as he considers what he should do. Lorelai finally looks up at him timidly.

"Why did you do it?" Luke asks, almost harshly. Lorelai's stunned. This is not the response she was expecting. Luke shakes his head as he stands, pulling on his sweatpants, not really giving her a chance to respond. After he gets them on, Luke stares at her waiting for an answer, his hands on his hips. Lorelai shrugs.

"I – I don't know," Lorelai tells him. She sighs. "I guess in some part of my mind, I figured that a baby would be nice, we talked about it once, and we agreed on that much. We've been going through a lot lately. I've felt you pulling away, and you can say it's not true all you want, but it is." Luke's face is frozen in anger.

"And you thought if you got pregnant, you could ensure that we would stay together?" Luke asks coldly. Lorelai sits up, letting the covers fall off her shoulders, leaving her shivering in her nightie.

"Maybe."

"And you don't think that's a little hypocritical?" Lorelai runs her tongue over her teeth, considering this, remembering that she had been in a similar situation with Christopher when pregnant with Rory.

"It is," Lorelai admits, looking away, knowing he's right. Looking back at him, she says, "But don't you want to have a baby with me?" Luke runs a hand through his hair.

"Yeah, I do. I said before that I do, but not right now." Lorelai snorts.

"Well I'm not getting any younger, Ponce never found that fountain of youth," Lorelai responds. Luke sighs, sitting down on the edge of the bed, not facing her. Lorelai reaches over and rubs his back. "I know that right now it seems like a lot, but we'll work through it." Luke glances over his shoulder at her, seeing her hopeful expression. He shifts a little so he's sitting sideways on the bed and reaches out and takes her hand between his, rubbing it thoughtfully.

"Lorelai, I know what you're feeling, I promise I'm hearing you, but you have to understand, I'm not a complicated man," Luke says, looking down at their hands.

"Yeah, you've said that before," Lorelai recalls. He glances over at her, seeing a hint of a smile on her lips.

"What I mean is that I'm not good with dealing with things, a lot of things, at once. When my dad was sick, I had all these things to do. I had to take care of the store. I had to watch over my dad. I had to finish school myself. And I had to take care of Liz." Luke sighs, still feeling the burden of being in charge. He drops her hand back on the bed and walks over to the window, his hands on his hips. "And I didn't do it, I couldn't. I spent so much time with the store that I had to quit school myself. I barely had time to spend with my dad and you know what happened with Liz." He glances back over at her and tries not to react to the ache in his gut when he sees her watery eyes. Lorelai just sits there, not knowing what to say, not knowing the right thing to say, not knowing how to tell him that she did it because she loves him. "Lorelai, there's so much going on right now. April. Us. Just a lot of things. I just couldn't add a baby into that mess. Can you understand?" Lorelai shakes her head pressing her lips together.

"No, Luke I can't understand. Us being together shouldn't have to be stressing you out and it is lately and I don't know why. Us having a child shouldn't have to stress you out either. It should just be natural," Lorelai insists. Luke rubs his forehead.

"Sure, natural, but we should have discussed it." Lorelai nods, conceding a bit. "I just – I think this is too much for me," Luke says reluctantly. Lorelai gives him a questioning look.

"What are you saying?"

"I – I think I need to deal with one thing at a time." He looks down at the ground, mulling this all over. Then he looks up with her, having made his decision. "You're right, this shouldn't have to be that complicated, but it is, and it's too much for me, and I don't want to lose what I have with April. And you trying to push me into this by getting pregnant, is incredibly unfair."

"I wasn't doing that!" Lorelai exclaims.

"Yes, you were!" Luke retorts. They stare at each other for a moment, each waiting for the other to react. Both not knowing how to communicate their internal thoughts to the other. Luke rubs his forehead, knowing he was a little more harsh than intended. "I love you Lorelai, but maybe that isn't enough. I can't have all this on my plate right now so I have to make a decision and I think you want too much from me."

"Too much? I thought you were all in?" Lorelai whispers, her voice shaking.

"I was," he responds, with a shake of his head. "But I can't be anymore. It's too much." Luke looks down at the ground, not wanting to see the pain in her eyes, and walks out, closing the door behind him.

Lorelai just watches him go, choking back a sob. She looks around the room, just seeing the emptiness, her lips trembling and tears forming in her eyes as she finally understands the consequences of her actions. Suddenly she rips the ring off her finger, throwing it against the door Luke has closed behind him, shrieking, "No!" and falling over on the bed sobbing.