A/N: This really happened/is happening to me. I am Sakura's character, and I really can't name the others. However, Rin is Ebil Chameleon and Sasuke is the boy I've been crushing on since…well, you'll figure it out. :D Uhm, I'm hoping this will turn out to be a SasuSaku, but it all depends on the boy, ne? Slight NaruIno and NaruSaku. And TemSasu. Don't ask, it's just what fit. At the end, I might reveal who is what is who and yeah.

Disc: I own the events, Rin (she's mah bitch, yooo!) and the hair brush that is situated uncomfortably under my thigh.

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C H A P T E R.O N E:
C O N F E S S I O N

By: you.broke.a.promise

Yeah.

I know what you're thinking. You're sitting there reading this wondering why the hell you opened it in the first place cause it's probably just another annoying high school story. Well believe what you want- because to me, this one's unlike the others. This is my story.

So sit back, settle down and grab a drink cause I'm about to tell it.

My name is Haruno Sakura. I'm a sophomore and Konoha High School.

It all started in eighth grade, the year before my actual high school experience. My best friend Ino was dating Naruto at the time, and I fell into their group albeit slowly. Its when I first began to notice him- Uchiha Sasuke. He had gotten really hot over the summer. His hair was longer, almost like a rocker's, and it framed his pretty face. He was gorgeous, and I wanted him.

Really badly.

So of course, I moved in for the kill. We became friends, I his best female friend, and Uzumaki Naruto his best male friend. The thing was, he made it clear over and over again that I wasn't his type. Still, I kept trying. Each of his girlfriends were eventually kicked to the curb, and the ones that lasted more than two weeks became my friends.

It was unfortunate, but I wasn't going to shove people away just because they were dating the man of my dreams… Uh, yeah.

Freshman year passed quickly, our friendship was strong and my friends usually got mad at the way I forgave him for being such an asshole so easily. He was number on my list, always. During that year, Sasuke was dating another girl, this one he'd already dated twice but it didn't seem to matter. I tried to push myself away from him and think of other people but it barely worked.

I was friends with his latest conquest, and we were all at her house for her regular Christmas party. It was that night I found myself sprawled out under Naruto, him panting above me. We had been playing football in the yard. The boys had teamed up on us and blitzed, we were trying to turn the game around but I had been tackled.

It was that night that I went with the flow. I ended up dating Naruto for two long months, in which I tried and tried to convince myself that I was in love with him. I wasn't. I still loved Sasuke with everything in me and in the end, he noticed this and almost cheated on me with my friend Hinata's little sister Hanabi.

That night online, I was getting ready to IM my 'boyfriend' and tell him that it needed to end, but Sasuke IMed me first. We started to talk, and half way through our conversation, Sasuke slipped it in. Naruto wanted to break up, and he was too afraid to tell me himself.

KuraFlower328: He what?

DarkEyes723: He…wants to break up.

KuraFlower328: What? Oh thank Kami.

DarkEyes723: Wut?

KuraFlower328: Yeah, I was gonna do that.

DarkEyes723: Oh.

KuraFlower328: Wait. Did he ask you to do it for him? He's online.

DarkEyes723: Yea. He didn't want to.

KuraFlower328: Wow. What a fucking chicken!

DarkEyes723: …He wants to know if he can date Hanabi.

KuraFlower723: Ugh.

Naruto and I didn't talk for awhile after that; just conversed through Sasuke. He ended up dating Hanabi- and then after her several others. He became more and more like Sasuke- dating and dating but not falling in love.

Sasuke was still playing with my heart the beginning of sophomore year, sliding in and out of my grasp faster than I could handle. One second he was holding my hand, the next he was making out with another girl behind a truck.

I wondered when it would end.

It ended finally about six months ago. He met Temari, a junior. She expressed her fondness for him, and he obviously liked her. She began sitting with us at lunch much to my chagrin, and they began holding hands under the table.

It was the start of hell, little did I know.

Temari and I slowly became friends. Acquaintances at first, and then slowly friends, right up until she was the first person on my MySpace top friends. She still is, by the way, and only because I don't know what else to do.

I began to let Sasuke go- thinking that because I was such good friends with Temari now, that it would be for my own sake, and hers if I just admired him in a friendly way. It was just the beginning of this month that everything fell apart.

Sasuke and Naruto are stoners. Sasuke more than Naruto, but Naruto's the one that got him into it in the first place. And they got me into it. Sasuke is more of a stoner, while Naruto's skanky girlfriend takes up most of his time. I'm a drifter. I'll smoke with Sasuke and his crowd, or I'll hang out with the girls. Temari hates it when Sasuke smokes, and that would be because in his world, weed is first. It's wrong, and terribly sad, but its true. I know him down to his core, and I know that it will only change if he falls in love.

I guess I should be happy that even though he tells Temari he loves her- he doesn't, or he'd give up the Mary Jane. But he hasn't, and he continues to date her. Last month while sitting at Kiba's house after partaking in our usual activities.(Kiba would be the stoner that has their house near our school. When we smoke, we smoke at Kiba's. His house is well known.)

Sasuke had been acting strange about Temari and I was itching for the chance to talk to him about it. I had been gluing their relationship together for the last few weeks, trying to prove to myself that I no longer loved the dark-haired hottie.

That day changed everything.

The guys (I was the only girl!) had gone off to play hackey sack in the near-by parking lot. I was wearing sandals, so I couldn't play, not that I'm good at it anyway. Though there were other spots to sit on the porch, he chose to sit really close to me. I played with his hair like I usually do- just a friendly guesture. This time though, I noticed him leaning into my touch.

"What's going on with you?" I asked cautiously, continuing to rake my fingernails across his scalp.

He was silent for awhile, and I finally drew my hand away. "I don't think I want to be with Temari anymore," He told me quietly. I was shocked into silence. "But if I do break up with her, I think there's someone I would wanna date."

I stared at him, curious. "Who?"

He smirked at me, "Figure it out."

I frowned, "Is it that freshman? Uh, Desuka Nikara?"

The girl was obsessed with him. It was a little weird.

"No."

"Then who?"

"Guess."

"Is she in our grade?"

"Yes."

"Do I know her?"

"I think so."

I paused, "You think so?"

"Yeah."

I continued to guess everyone I knew. "Does she sit with us at lunch?"

"Hai."

"Is she single?"

"Mhm."

"Uh." There were only two single girls that sat at our table. And he had already said no to one of them. The other, was me. "No, that can't be right."

"What can't?"

"Nothing?"

"Did you figure it out?"

"Nahh."

"Well when you realize it, it's just gonna like, hit you in the face."

"…"

"You know, don't you?"

"No."

"Tell me."

"It's not right."

"Who do you think it is?"

"I don't know!" I shouted at him, "You tell me."

"No, you tell me."

"Sasuke. There are only two girls at our lunch table that are in our grade and are single. One of them you already said no to. That leaves one."

"Aa."

We talked about it for a few more minutes, getting off the porch and wandering over to the parking lot, past the guys. They waved to us as we walked off, over to where Sasuke was going to be picked up.

"How long has…this….been going on?" I asked.

"I don't know. A while."

"Oh." I bit my lip. "You suck, you know that?"

He looked at me funny, "You…suck…more."

"…Was that an innuendo?" Yes, I won the idiot award for that one.

"…I don't think so…"

"Agh."

"Well, I don't know what's going to happen, but you seem to be taking this pretty well. I don't think it's a good idea to tell Temari. So…just, don't tell her."

"…I wouldn't do that."

He nodded and his ride pulled up. He yanked me into a hug, knocking the breath out of me before he got into the car. "I'll see you at school tomorrow."

I nodded, speechless.

That was exactly twenty-one days ago. The same night, Temari called me crying.

"Sakura! He...he doesn't know if he wants…to be with me anymore!"

"What?" I stared at my phone. I hadn't read the caller I.D, and I didn't know who was blabbering on the other end.

"Sasuke!"

"Temari?"

"He said he doesn't know if he wants to be with me!"

It was an interesting conversation to say the least. The girl sounded as if she was completely in love and losing her world, yet she was always texting this other boy. She always said she only liked him, but would never break up with Sasuke for him. I thought it was wrong to even bother with another boy, especially when you say you love someone. I was confused and worried, I didn't want Temari finding out that I was to blame, and I also felt guilty.

My world was falling apart along with hers.

I tried to coax her back into being calm and rational, and soon her phone beeped, signaling Sasuke and I was left with a worried emptiness. Sasuke was talking to her at that very moment and I was shaking. I called my friend Rin to give me advice and she only reminded me of his past treatment. She begged me to say I didn't like him anymore, and I said it quietly. I knew she believed me about as much as I believed myself. As much as I love her, I needed some help, and she wasn't giving me much of that.

The next day was no different. We kept glancing nervously at each other every time she'd come near. She didn't seem to notice, only clung to his arm, hoping to defer him from his current doubts about their relationship. I felt so bad. That weekend was prom, something Temari had been talking about for the last…forever. She'd been looking forward to it. Sasuke was having a terrible day, he kept shrugging her off, leaving me to choose between them. It was hell.

I caught him after lunch at his locker, which was right next to mine.

"Hey."

"Are you okay?" I asked, watching him wearily.

"No. It's like all day the shit has been hitting the fan, and its just smacking me in the face. I feel like crap."

"Oh. Well, we can hit Kiba's later--"

"That's just it," He growled angrily, slamming his locker shut, "I have to go get my stupid fucking tux for prom."

"…Oh..."

He explained to me that he really didn't want to go, but they had already paid and he had promised Temari that even if they broke up he'd go with her as a friend. Later that day, as I was walking the track with Tenten, I saw them. Sasuke had math this period and Temari had jazz band, so I wondered vaguely why they were outside. It was my gym class. The gym class I used to rant and rave and whine. And there they were.

As I explained the situation to Tenten, the girl looked on awkwardly. She'd coo here and there to show me she was still listening, but she didn't have much to say. I have bad eyesight, so when I saw them up against the wall I broke out in a smile, "Are they kissing? Are they making up!?"

"I think she's crying," Tenten told me dully.

And when I looked up as we got closer, sure enough, tears were spiraling down Temari's cheeks as Sasuke talked to her quietly by the back building. "Damn it!" I screeched, biting my lip. "I really hate my life."

I went to Kiba's anyway. My health teacher tells me that marijuana doesn't relieve stress, but I don't care. It feels like it to me, and I really wanted the distinct feeling of being high to drift through my veins. I wanted to think about something other than how everything was falling apart.

It only took Temari and hour to call me after school had ended, begging to know what Sasuke and I had talked about after lunch. Apparently she had seen us. She wanted to tell me what they had talked about during ninth period. Worse, she lived almost directly across from Kiba's. She wanted me to meet her outside, and I had no excuse.

As I told the guys that I'd be right back, I had a bitter taste in my mouth that I later realized was betrayal. I was practically betraying her, keeping this secret. But she opened her mouth first, allowing me to swallow the horrid words I was about to say.

"He likes another girl!" She blurted angrily, her eyes full of fire.

I raised an eyebrow. He had told her? "Who is it?" I asked timidly.

"I don't know. He wouldn't tell me. He just said he likes another girl. When I find out who that skanky slutty whoreish bitch is, I'm going to kick her ass! That'll show Sasuke how much I want to be with him!"

I swallowed subtley. It would be an equal fight if Temari and I ended up in a catfight, but I really didn't want that to happen. She was one of my good friends. I didn't want to fight with her.

But no matter how wrong I knew it was to want Sasuke, I couldn't stop myself. I wanted the boy even though he wasn't mine, but my friend's. I couldn't tell her this though, even as she looked at me with her shining brown eyes. Everything was cracking, and I was afraid that underneath the glass, it wouldn't be as pretty.

Yeah.

I hate the world. Lol.

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