It was hard, walking down the halls and watching everyone holding hands with someone or kissing their significant other. I knew the laws would prevent it but I wanted him. That's all I wanted. I was startled out of my thoughts when I was shoved into the lockers by the butch football players-again. I sighed and turned in the opposite direction of where I was headed to go the auditorium. We were going to have rehearsals there but we were supposed to meet in the choir room. I headed to the auditorium. I needed time to myself.
Mr. Schue's POV
I watched as the Glee kids trickled in, all chatting excitedly about making it to Nationals. I didn't see Kurt and felt disappointed. He would be the first one in normally but it was five minutes after the last bell rang for the day and he wasn't here.
"Hey you guys hold on for a second. I'm going to go find Kurt." Everyone nodded and went back to their conversations as I left the room. I looked everywhere and couldn't find him. But as I passed the open doors of the auditorium and heard a piano playing. I slipped in, standing in the shadows as I listened to Kurt play and sing his soul out…
Kurt's POV
I sat at the piano, running my fingers over the keys lightly. I looked around and was relieved that no one was here to listen to me. I pressed the first key and started to sing.
Watched my life pass me by in the rearview mirror
Pictures frozen in time are becoming clearer
I don't want to waste another day
Stuck in the shadows of my mistakes
Yeah
I wasn't stupid. I knew Mr. Schue had come in right as I started to sing. So I sang for him, trying to tell him I loved him and he could have me if he wanted me.
Cuz I want you and I feel you
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger like a burning
To find a place I've never been
And I'm broken I'm faded
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
What's left of me
I watched him discretely as he came closer, surprise and…love (maybe?) in his eyes. I closed my eyes as I didn't want to see him when he got closer to me.
I've been dying inside little by little
Nowhere to go
Going out of my mind
An endless circle
Running from myself until
You gave me a reason for standing still
And I want you I feel you
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger like a burning
To find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken I'm faded
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
What's left of me
Fallin faster
Barely breathing
Give me something to believe in
Tell me it's not all in my head
Take what's left of this man
Make me whole once again
Cuz I want you and I feel you
Crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger like a burning
To find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken I'm faded
I'm half the man I thought I would be
You can have all that's left
What's left of me
I've been dying inside
I'm going outta my mind
I'm running in circles all the time
Will you take whats left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me
Just runnin circles in my mind
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left
Will you take what's left of me
Take what's left of me
I sat back and took a deep breath before opening my eyes and turning to Mr…Will. He was staring at me with awe in his eyes and something else that I wanted to say was love but couldn't be sure about. I looked at him for a moment before I turned away and said,
"I'm tired of people thinking that I'm a person without feelings, just because I'm gay. I have feelings too." His arm went around my shoulders and pulled me to him.
"I know Kurt. It's hard sometimes but if you just remember No Day but Today, you'll make it through. I know you will." I sighed before singing softly,
Will I lose my dignity
Will someone care
Will I wake tomorrow
From this nightmare
I felt him hugging me tightly and he whispered into my ear,
"I know you will." I pulled back slightly and looked at him. He leaned forward and kissed me softly on the lips. I didn't react and he started to pull away. That's when I smashed my lips back to his, drinking in his sinful taste.
"Kurt…" he moaned against my lips. I grinned and pulled away slightly.
"Not right now. The Gleeks will be looking for us soon." He nodded and stood, visibly gaining control of himself. Right as he looked like he wasn't just kissed, the other Glee members came in. I smiled at him before moving away from the piano. The look he gave me promised more of that kissing, more of his arms, so much more.