My Hands In Your Red Blood
Hands dripping in Red blood
Eyes swollen from tears
There was no other way
I had to kill you!
I didn't want to,I really didn't
But there was no other choice
If it were up to me,
I would have died in your place
But once a shinigami becomes a hollow
He is no longer who he was
I knew that and yet it didn't matter
It didn't make,
My feelings of guilt ease
My blade threw you,
Staining my hands in your red blood
My tears that I shed invain
Ohh God what have I done?
I had killed the only person,
who didn't care that I was a Kuchiki
The person whose bright smiles and aura
could even make this world seem alright
The person who knew me
Like the back of his own hand
No one ever said anything about it
No one judged me for killing you
But it is wrong!
My blade threw you,
Your blood staining my hands
My tears shed all in vain
I'm so sorry everyone,
I have always been running away
I'm so sorry Kaien,
I will always blame myself for you death
Your blood on my hands a curse
for me to forever bear
My tears I will bury deep within me
and become a shinigami worthy of the Kuchiki name
But before that happens, let me shed a few more tears
as I tell you the secret I've always kept
The feelings I hold hidden deep inside
The truth is that I have fallen in love with you, Kaien
and that is why your blood on my hands will forever hunt me
and my tears will forever run in my heart
And if somehow, somewhere
By the cruel strings of fate
we were to meet again,
then I sear to you Kaien-dono
That I'll not hesitate to lower my head
and let you kill me with my own blade
torture me for what I have done
If that is what you would really want...