Life sucks and then you die
DPOV
My brother and i, we are since he was born, i loved him and now i hate him; you could say, that i've always had feelings for him, good or bad. Yeah…I know…he is the good one, he is the saint; everybody loves him, whereas they hate me, but who cares? Let them have saint Stefan, so I can live my life however I please.
Not even my father accepted me. He told me always the same thing: 'Stefan that or Stefan that', Why can't you be like your brother?', 'Damon you are a disgrace to our family and name.'
I know that Stefan is my little brother, and I should love and protect him like everyone else, like I did until some point. Now because of him, I've became a plague for my family.
My exile began when I refused to enroll the army. My father was furious because of my 'outrageous behavior', or so he called it, but it isn't my fault that I couldn't stand to see people dying for the benefit of others. That was a total bullshit, but everyone considered that to be moral, and what a young gentleman, belonging to a noble family in that century would do, but of course I was the rebel and I couldn't be like the others.
Another hit for him, was when I quit college. That was a below hit for him, and that last thing he allowed me to do. He took it all as a form of disrespect towards him, I, on the other hand, I perceived everything as a loss of time, because I didn't want to be like those boys, that had a huge lack of personality, and did everything they were told to. They were like puppies held on a leash, without a life of their own.
I wanted to be different, I wanted to be free to choose my own job, wife, future, as I did, well except the wife part; That will come someday too.
Exactly opposite from me, there was Stefan, the first from college, the brave one that fought four our country. That is why I began to hate him. It is like he did every thing on purpose to put me in a bad light in front of everyone. That was one of my motifs, the other one was Katherine.
She was a sweet, pretty girl with a dark secret, but I didn't care because she loved me the way I was and I loved her. Everything was good, until my brother began to seduce her.
One day, he even forced her to choose between us, but she was egoist and choose us both, and that lead to a fight between Stefan and me. She killed herself to stop the hate between us brothers. That didn't do the job, though, We just ended up killing each other, but we didn't actually die; we just turned into what Katherine was, and into what she made us: vampires.
Since then I'm always on my brother's trace to make his life a true hell. I will never forgive him, and I will make sure he will always have his soul full of guilt and sorrow. Mostly, he doesn't even know that I'm the one behind his trouble, but someday I will stand in front of him and I'll tell him everything laughing in his face.
I wonder what Stefan will say… I think he would tell me that he holds me no grudges, and he deserves it… Hell yes, he deserves it. Even in afterlife he is still the innocent one. He only preys on animals instead of humans, and again is making me look like the one with no will.
I have will, but I don't want that kind of life… Mine is MUCH better. At least I have fun, while Stefan is always mopping around.
Soon brother, soon we will be face to face again, and then we will see if you would survive me.
SPOV
Again I'm sitting alone, here in the woods, because every time I try to blend with humans, something bad happens and someone gets killed, and I end up being the suspect.
I am alone since Katherine died and my brother Damon blames me for her death. I know he is right. If I hadn't made her choose, she will still be alive, and I dead like I should be. But what's done it's done, and I can't turn back the time, even if I wanted to.
I only hope that someday, Damon will forgive me. He isn't right in one problem, though. Katherine loved me first. We fell in love when Damon was still at college. After that he came home and fell in love with Katherine too; I think she loved him like she loved me. That was her mistake. She is the reason why, me and Damon are enemies now, but she was to sweet to blame her now. Katherine is the only one I loved and the only one I will ever love. No one could ever change my feelings.
All I can do now, is to sit here in the dark, and wait for the day, when I would meet my brother again. Sometimes I feel like he is close by, that he is watching my every step, but I can't be sure. Maybe is just my imagination. I'm not strong enough to know that. Animal blood is just a way to sustain my life, but is not sufficient. I crave for human blood, but I know that I can't feed on humans, I can't even imagine that. I don't want to be a monster. I just want to be normal… Oh why did this happened to me? I've always been a good son, a good person. I didn't even kill anybody, well…except Katherine and Damon, and I will always punish myself for that.
My soul will always be tormented by that unhappy day, that changed everyone's life.
Oh brother, please come to me, please forgive me or end my suffering. That is all I want from you in order to die happily.
A scream woke me from my reverie. Someone was in trouble… a girl maybe.. Should I go and see what was happening or should I mind my own business? The scream came again this time even more desperate…
MPOV
What a wonderful day! It's a perfect day for hiking. Me and my friends are going into the woods to enjoy the good weather and the beauty of the nature. We were a bunch of crazy teenagers that loved to wander around.
The others are coming for me. I don't know why, but I have a feeling that this day will be special, unforgettable.
"-Mel, could you please hurry up once in your life?" one friend of mine shouted from the car impatient.
"-Ok…ok…I'm coming." I said a little annoyed. Gees can't a girl have a little time to make herself beautiful? Boys…what can you want from them.
"-Mel, we are going into the woods, not to a party, you know…You don't need to get so beautiful for the wild animals…but for me , is another story." Mike said when I got in the car, and wrapped his arm around my shoulders.
Ugh, how I hated when he did that. Didn't he get once and for all that he isn't my type? That night I was a little drunk, and doesn't count, and, anyway there were just a few kisses and nothing more.
"-Buzz off Mike! And keep your hands to yourself, if you don't want to eat with your feet!"
"-Oh…she wants to play the angry kitten…"
"-Guys cut it off! We want to get there before nightfall!" Thanks God , Allie spoke and Mike returned back to his driving.
Allie was kind of my best friend, she and I were like two sisters. For now thanks to her, in escaped Mike, but I have to do something about him because he is getting on my nerves.
We should had been there for hours by now , but Mike's driving, on purpose we ended up in the woods at dust.
"-Nice job Mike! My grandma drives better than you." The others from the group told him when he stop, but Mike just stood there laughing. The prick.
"-Hmmm…guys…I don't know about you, but I surely don't want to get back in that car tonight. God knows where we will end up with this cunt driving. I think we should stay here and start a fire so we won't freeze, and leave in the morning. What do you say?"
"- I think Allie is right! Let's everybody go and look for something to start the fire." I told them too. I didn't want to go back in that car either. At least not yet. On the other hand, I think it will be nice and fun to spend the night around a camp fire, just like when we were kids.
Everyone agreed quickly with our idea and we set off looking for dry wood. I wanted to be alone, to calm down, because I couldn't stand mike with his stupid smile anymore, so I set off on my own, to have a moment of tranquility.
After a few minutes, I doubted that this was a good idea. The darkness crept on everything very soon and the forest looked so creepy, but that wasn't why I felt so panicked. I had the strange feeling that someone was following me. I tried to quicken my pace and turn back, but then someone caught my hand. I was ready to scream, but then I noticed it was just Mike.
"-Why the hell did you sneak on me like that? I could've had a hard attack."
"-Mel, I just thought I shouldn't be alone, I never meant to frighten you." He said
But his look told me something else. His eyes seemed hooded, probably he drank too much, and it really was frighten me despite his assuring.
"-Ok…if you say so… now let's go back to the others, maybe they have already started the fire." I told him and started towards where I came from.
"-I think not!" He said grabbing my arm again.
"-Mike what are you doing? Have you gone crazy?"
"-No sweetie… I just want to have fun."
"-Let me go, or you'll be in big trouble." I said struggling to get free from his hold.
"-Who will get me in trouble? You? Don't make me laugh." He said throwing me to the ground.
"-I'll scream and the others will come." I said starting to get nervous. I didn't knew how to escape from him…if a miracle doesn't happen I'm screwed.
"-scream all you want. It will be no good…nobody will hear you." He said starting to kiss me forcefully.
I began hitting him with my fists and screaming from the top of my lungs. Please God let someone hear me!
Mike got angry because of my struggling band hit me back, and started to rip off my shirt. But exactly in that moment someone came and took Mike of me.
"-What the fuck man? Who are you what the fuck you want? Can't you see I'm busy?" he started saying getting more angry with every word.
I sat up quickly and I hid behind a tree trying to keep my shirt together. The boy that came to my rescue looked like he came from a movie or better said he looked like a Greek god. He was extremely beautiful with his brown-blond hair and green like emerald eyes. His pose reminded me of the men from two centuries ago: elegant, full of confidence but also threatening. He looked like an angel, a furious angel more exactly. I just hope Mike doesn't hurt him.
"-The lady here, told you to let her go. Are you deaf?" he told Mike with a threatening voice but sweet and velvet at the same time.
"-That is none of your business! Go back from where you came!" shouted Mike and tried to hit him, but he caught is fist in the air and threw Mike into a tree nearby. Wow, he was strong…
Mike looked up to him like a scared puppy, and ran off into the woods, finally leaving me alone, I hope. Such a coward. He is brave only with girls. It suits him right.
The boy remained there still looking after Mike. I wanted to thank him, but I couldn't appear in front of him with my clothes torn, so I started speaking from behind the tree.
"-Ummm…thank you very much for rescuing me. I don't know what would've happened if you didn't came. I will be forever thankful to you. If you need my help someday I will gladly give it to you. By the way, my name is Melinda." I added with my voice trembling. It seemed like my voice woken him from a reverie.
"-You're welcome. It was nothing. I couldn't stand there seeing what I saw and doing nothing." He looked shortly at me, then took of his leather jacket, coming towards me. "here… you need this." He came, putting around me saying. " let me help you." And he put it on me and zipped it up.
"-Thank you again." I said blushing.
"-It's nothing." He said smiling. "where are your other friends, I suppose you have come with someone else here? I think I should come with you until you find them, just in case he decides to come back."
"-That will be a good idea, but I still don't know how will I get home, because he is the one with the car." I said smiling vaguely.
"-hmmm… I have a car, but it is a little bit far from here, and I don't know if you would like me to take you home…"
"-Hmm… if I have to choose between going home with him or with you, I think I'll go with you. I trust you more than him."
"-You truly shouldn't…you don't know me." He said, his smile fading.
"-I will get to know you walking towards your car. We can start by telling me your name… I already told you mine." I smiled.
"-ok Melinda. I think I'll let you take the risk. My car is in that direction, and we should start going because we have a long walk. Oh… and my name is Stefan." He smiled back at me, and started to lead the way.
This boy was fabulous. I could stare at him all day and couldn't get enough of it. My rescuer, I think, has stolen my heart… I think I'm in love with this mysterious stranger. He was right, I didn't knew anything about him, but here I am, walking with him through the dark woods to somewhere I didn't know. After a while, I felt the need to hear him talking. I couldn't stand the silence in this creepy wood, so I asked him.
"-What were you doing at this hour, all by yourself in the woods?" It seemed like my question confused him, because it took him a while to answer.
"-umm, I was just enjoying the nature. At night there is more peace here, so you can meditate without anyone disturbing you, or at least almost peaceful." He said purposefully reminding me about the earlier incident.
"-Hey, it wasn't my fault that, that prick decided to ambush me. It isn't like I asked for it."
"-Sorry, I didn't want to make it sound like it was your fault, but you had to admit that you are very beautiful and anyone could attack you, even me." He finished winking.
"-You won't hurt me. I trust you." I said grabbing his arm holding it for support.
"- see?... that is why you get involved in incidents like that… you trust everyone…even a stranger that you meet in the woods."
"-A stranger that happened to save me." I added.
"-You are utterly naïve…"
"-Change of subject, please… Now tell me, where do you live? I Suppose you are new in town."
"-Yeah, I'm new, just passing by. I just got here and I didn't find yet a place to live. I'm not intending to stay too much around here." His answer made me sad. He was going away. My savior was leaving me unprotected. Why was life being so unfair…? An idea came to my mind.
"-Tonight you don't have where to stay… I was wondering if you wouldn't want to stay at my place… is at least I can do after you have saved me."
"-I don't think that will be a good idea… what will your parents say if you would appear with me on their front porch?"
"-I'll tell the truth about what happened, and they will agree with me. Don't worry."
"-I'm not sure…" he started to say again.
"-Please say yes, otherwise you will hurt my feelings…"
"-Ok, but only for tonight, because tomorrow I'm leaving town." So soon… I felt another blow to my heart. "Look there is my car, now I can take you home."
I felt my mouth fell wide open in amazement. There , hidden in the trees was a Porsche 911 Turbo Black. I've never seen one like this around here. He must be coming from very far away.
When we got to the car, he held the door open for me. A true gentleman. How can I stop falling in love with him, when hen was treating me like that, I told him the address, and wondered what will my parents say, when they will see him, although I'm confident they will let him spend the night there. His voice took me out of my reverie again.
"-Don't worry, you will be home in no time, and safe and sound…I promise!"
"- I wasn't worrying about that."\
"-Then what are you worried about?" he asked confused.
"-I'm worried because you are leaving so soon, and there will be no one to protect me from Mike, because surely he will want revenge."
"-you have your other friends…"
"- I had them tonight but none showed up to help me. Only you did…"
"-I can't stay forever to protect you…" he frowned.
"-I know… but if you stay at least a few weeks, I think Mike will let me alone, and don't worry about a place to stay…you can stay at my place."
"-Melinda, I can't , I have to leave… I'm sorry." He said smiling apologetically.
"-Please, at least just for one week. Please Stefan…" I pleaded.
"-It's not fair, what are you doing to me. You are blackmailing me."
"-No I'm not." I said like a spoiled child.
"- Yes you are. You are putting me to choose between what I want and what I should do, and lucky for you my protective instincts are more powerful."
"-That means that you'll stay?" I chimed.
"-I don't have another choice. But only for one week, not an hour more."
"oh thank you! You know…you are an angel." He began to laugh when I said this.
"-I'm hardly an angel. I told you… you don't know me."
"-What I know is enough!" I said full of admiration and love.
"-you're home and like I said: safe and sound." He said stopping the car right in front of my house. All the lights were out, but it was normal because it was 12 o'clock at night. Again he held the door open for me to get out of the car.
"-Come!" I told him, and took his hand automatically, leading him to the door. He cringed away a little at my touch, but he didn't retreat his hand. I took the key from under the porch, and opened the door. I entered pulling Stefan after me.
"-Mom! Can you come downstairs a little!" I said letting go of Stefan's hand. After a minute my mom came downstairs all sleepy, but when she saw how I looked, she panicked.
"-OMG Melinda! What happened to you?"
"-Mom relax. Now I'm ok. That stupid of Mike attacked me."
"-What? How that happened? Are you alright?"
"-Yeah mom, I'm fine thanks to Stefan here, that happened to be nearby and heard my screams and rescued me."
Until then my mom didn't even noticed Stefan sitting behind me.
"- Stefan Salvatore…nice to meet you madam." he said taking a bow like he was in eighteen century.
"-Oh thank you for saving my daughter." My mom said taking both of his hands in hers.
"-mom…you see …Stefan is new in town, and doesn't have where to stay. I offered him to stay here…is there a problem?"
"-of course not dear. He can stay for as long as he wishes."
"-Thank you madam, but I don't want to abuse of your hospitality. I'm only staying here for a week."
"- I told you can stay how long you will please." She smiled at him, then turned to me. "Oh dear, you can't go all by yourself at school, and you can't even go out on the streets…someone will have to accompany you everywhere until me make sure Mike will leave you alone, but I don't know who, because me and your father have to go to work…"
"-I already asked Stefan to be sort of my bodyguard this week…I know I shouldn't abuse of his kindness, but Mike is really afraid of him…and Stefan already said yes…"
"-Thank you again dear boy. You are an angel." My mother told him and I turned to smile at him. Looks like everyone thought the same as me.
"-No need to thank me. It is my pleasure to help Melinda."
"-Mom I think we should go to bed. We are tired. I'm going to show Stefan his room. See you tomorrow."
"-Ok honey. Sleep well." she said and then went back to her bedroom.
"-ok Stefan, please follow me…your room is next to mine. I think you'll like it."
"- don't worry, I'm not wimpy. Your mother is a nice person." he added smiling.
"-Yeah she is… I think I got lucky when parents were shared. Look , here it is. In the closet you will find towels, blankets and all you need, oh and this room and mine have a common bathroom but don't worry I'm always quick, so I think there will be no problems. Now that you are all set, I'll leave to my crib. Good night and thanks again for all."
"-It was my pleasure to help such a beautiful girl, and I have to thank you for letting me stay here. Sweet dreams and I'll see you tomorrow."
I turned and closed the door behind me, going into my room. I couldn't stop sighing. Stefan was so sweet, so handsome, so perfect, and he was sleeping just a few meters from me. This is such a torture… thankfully he will be my protector for a week so I can stay calm, because I know that how long Stefan is around me, nothing bad will happen to me…
That night I went to sleep with an angel in my dreams. Indeed sweet dreams like he wished me…
SPOV
What was I thinking? Why did I came here? I must be out of my mind.
Of course Melinda is a sweet girl, but I shouldn't have let her convince me to stay an entire week here. It is a stupid idea just staying for the night…god knows what will happen in a week.
I don't even know why I want to protect her…she is nothing to me, just another teenage girl that has some problems. I shouldn't care…I mustn't care.
Tomorrow morning I'm going to excuse myself, tell her that some problem appeared and I have to leave immediately. I don't belong in their world, and I shouldn't interfere in her life. I can't be friends with her because of who I am. If I stay she will only be in danger. I don't think that boy can do her more harm than me. That is why I'm leaving.
Now she sleeps peaceful in her room not knowing what monster she brought in her house. She is trustful in strangers. It makes me smile when I remember how she clinged to my arm in the woods for safety and support. She believes in me, in the fact that I'm a good guy… 'an angel' she told me…unfortunately I'm more like a demon.
Remembering everything again I felt a sudden urge to make sure she is ok, to watch her sleeping. I crossed the common bathroom and went into her room, beside her bed.
She looked so serene sleeping. The moonlight that touched her face made her look pale, unusually pale in contrast with her black hair. She was extremely beautiful, even more beautiful than Katherine…if that could be possible. I touched her face with the back of my hand… her skin felt so soft, so warm, it made me want to kiss her… NO, that is a stupid idea. I returned quickly in the other room. Now I truly had to go away from her. I couldn't allow myself to fall in love with her. It's too dangerous to grow more attached to her than I already was. It's already settled tomorrow morning I'm leaving, or better said in about 2 hours I'll be far away from here, from her.
I sat in the bed trying hardly not to hear her sleeping in the other room waiting for the sun to rise, ignoring her heartbeat and breathing.
Even though I tried to ignore her, I couldn't ignore her completely. Finally she was getting up. She went into the bathroom, and I heard the water running… she was probably taking shower. Ok.. as soon as she is out, I'm telling her that I'm going to leave, but this time I will be unmovable in front of her pleadings. It's too dangerous for everyone if I remain here, in this town. I'll go back to my place, into the shelter of the woods, in the darkness, a suitable place for a monster like me
DPOV
I took a little vacation in order to let my brother mop in peace. I bet that he is sitting somewhere in the dark woods, of some town, drowning in his sorrow.
He is such a pitiful person…Stefan avoids humans like plague, although he should seek and use them, like what they are, our prey, but he cherishes their life too much.
I think I'll leave him alone 2 more days, and after that I'll pay him a visit, to see how much he missed me. Maybe I'll give him some tips on how to adapt to this kind of life, or maybe not. Probably I'll just get on his nerves to see if he snaps. Oh boy, that would be nice to watch especially if there are people around. It will be wonderful… for me of course. Maybe he will join me after that…NOT.
From my part he will only receive hate and perhaps a stake thorough his heart, why not? So look out my little brother here I come for you.