Can't Stop the Rain From Falling, a protector of the small quartet fanfic

Disclaimer: I don't own the song or the characters. The characters are owned by Tamora Pierce, and the song is owned by Cascada.

Can't Stop the Rain From Falling

How, how am I supposed to feel

When everything surrounding me

Is nothing but a fake disguise

I don't know, I don't know where I belong

It's time for me to carry on

I'll say goodbye

So, I guess this is what happens to people who don't show enough emotion. People start lying, people start wearing a disguise to match yours; the only difference is yours in for protection, theirs is for the fun of it. Cleon sure did fool me, up until the time when he told me that it had been fun and all, but we both had to grow up and go our separate ways. Of course growing up for him was marrying that rich heiress, Ermelain of Wherever. I guess I was just too caught up in being in love that I didn't notice that he only seemed to react to me when we kissed and touched. Especially that last touch. I hope that hand print on his face lasts through his wedding.

I can't stop the rain from falling

I'm drowning in these tears I cry

Since you left without a warning

I face the dawn with sleepless eyes

No I can't go on

When clouds are pushing down on me boy

I can't stop, I can't stop the rain

From falling

No matter how much I keep trying to put my Yamani mask back on, I keep crying. The water works, just won't stop. I guess this is what happens to regular, non-knight ladies; when they find out that the man (more like boy), whom you, I mean they, love, was just messing with you, them. I keep trying to sleep through it all; I was even forced to lock my door, forcing Neal to stop knocking. But I just can't stop crying, I've never been this out of control with my emotions. Even when Mother and I were introduced to the Yamani court, and the other kids made fun of me, I wasn't this torn up inside.

So tell me where I went wrong

I'm stuck inside a dream long gone

It's hard to reveal the truth

Your love

Is nothing but a bitter taste

It's better if I walk away

Away from you (better if I walk away)

I wonder what made Cleon decide to pick me, out of all the court ladies, to mess with. I guess he figured I wouldn't be as broken hearted as a court lady. Sounds considerate right? NOT. He didn't even care that I was his friend. Oh no, here come the tears again. Maybe he just knew that I liked him or something; that courting him would be a dream; my dream You know, he's due to leave in 3 days time, to meet his bride-to-be.I can just feel that bitter taste in my mouth all over again. It's time for this to end, time to walk away from all the troubles.