A/n: My second fanfic. :D It's an A/U story. So people don't get confused. It's set in modern day times. I'm going let you read it first and see if you can make sense of it. I'm trying to do something different. Enjoy.

Update: I decided to make some very important changes(Even the title of the story is different). I included some things to have the story make more sense. Hopefully my readers like it better? If you like what I had going before or you have questions just let me know.

Naruto was a really troubled child back in the day. All he knew about his parents was that they died right when he was born. No one ever told him why. Naruto was moved foster home to foster home. No one wanted him. Strange things kept happening to him. Naruto was angry at the world. For some reason, he had a strange feeling that the world was against him too. Everyone was cold to him. Even some went as far as calling him a demon child. The situation was unbearable for a child of 7 to endure. For a long time he was in a dark place.

October 16

Dear, Emi

Why? Why is everyone cold to me? No one sees me as a person but a monster. I see it in their eyes. Cold, dark, resentful eyes. What did I ever do! I do as I am asked to. I don't make trouble for others. I am a good boy.

Why? Why? Why?

God must hate me. He sent me to this world without any mommy or daddy. All the while people hate me for no reason! It's not fair. I can't help but cry most days when I'm alone. I can't make friends. I'm all alone. What, God, can I do!

What? What? What!

I deserve happiness too! My boarding house is made of 20 kids who are afraid of me and 5 adults who resent me and tell the kids to fear me. Everyone thinks I'm a curse. Sometimes when I dream at night I get nightmares that end up happening. When something bad happens I always happen to be near-by.

I currently live in a strict Christian foster home. We wake up at seven for bible study then at eight we begin school until 4. It's sad. I see classmates talk to each other and none include me. They all are orphans as well. Alone in many ways, just like me. Only they're not alone! They have each other! While I stand alone in every way! I want to be liked so much it hurts! Until then I need express my thoughts somehow… So I'm telling you, my new 'buddy'. Rin, my landlady, would never give me anything let alone a journal so I had to steal one. I'm going to call you Emi. Your name means a beautiful blessing. This is appropriate for it's a blessing to be able to write down my thoughts and feelings when I have no one to talk to. Anyways, Rin is a middle-aged nun. She has watery blue eyes and an old face with lots of wrinkles. She didn't like me most. I could see it in her eyes and hear it in the sound of her voice. She avoids me as best she can.

I decided to write to you not only because I'm lonely but also because today too many things happened and I had to tell it to someone, or in this case write. On normal days I would ignore others to avoid disappointment. Today wasn't the same. It was playtime in the area and I was sitting alone in the sandbox when a ball went straight in my direction. What luck! I thought. I made a plan right then to use the moment and show them all I'm NOT bad! I was nice! A boy named Hikaru and some others came for the ball, shaking, once they saw it was me who had it. I give them a big 100-watt smile and said,

"Hey! I got your ball. It looks like you are all having lots of fun. Can I play too? I'm really good at soccer." I exclaim.

Trying to ease them by being as cheery as possible. They stop trembling. I had hope. For 5 more seconds.

"Give us the ball quickly, monster. You are no good. Rin tells us we cannot play with bad kids." said Masaru, one of Hikaru's friends he was playing with.

He was older than us by two years. Fat and mean, he hated me. My face fell. This was to be expected. Everyone hates me. Only he was different. Not like the others, he never feared me.

"Well, I'm no bad kid. Just a regular one. I swea-" I would've gone on to say just how great I am and can play just like anyone else. I wasn't a curse.

That is until he grabbed my shirt and slammed me into the sand, face first.

"Shut-up! You are evil. Everyone thinks it! Stop trying to say you aren't. Stop trying to talk to us. Stop trying to fit in. It won't work. No one likes you. You are alone."

Everyone gasped at the sight. He continued to punch me and kick me around. Once everyone saw I wasn't fighting back, they decided to jump in as well. No one stopped them. I myself was somewhere else. Numbed by his words, unable to feel anything.

Why? Why? Why?

I wondered. I looked past the bullies, shocked to find Hikaru frozen. He looked conflicted. Almost like he wanted to help. Only he couldn't risk being turned on. We locked eyes for almost 5 seconds until he looked down. Ashamed. Serves him right! He wasn't being beaten! Once they were through, everyone went back to playing… As if I never existed and nothing ever happened. I laid there, face first in the sandbox, not thinking of anything. My numbness went away with new emotions to replace it, anger and pain. Anger and pain in my body, in my mind and even my soul. I didn't know I was crying angry, bitter tears until I felt wet sand on my face. Why am I alive? No one wants me. My own parents are gone. What's the point of living? Am I going to live the rest of my life like this? I cried out! Everyone was staring. They thought I went crazy! The strangest of things happened. Water exploded from the ground from where fountains used to be! I stood up and sand from the sandbox starting to fly around me! Wind picked up from nowhere in large gusts! Everyone saw what was happening. Kids of all ages ran in all directions. While on the brink of panic themselves, nuns ordered them to remain calm and to go inside.

I was still in my spot, not caring about what was happening. I was blinded by my emotions. I see Matsuru. I wave my arm in his direction and sent sand his way. Everything was so fast I didn't even notice what I was doing. I just wanted revenge! Sand wrapped around Matsuru! It constricted him so much that he turned blue. No one stopped me for they were too busy running the other way. Then that's when I look to my right and see a few steps from me Rin. She was as stiff and still as a doll. She just stared right at me. Her eyes were ice cold with a tinge of fear. She mouthed the words 'Monster.' I froze. Disgusted at myself. What am I? My anger disappeared. I started to shake. I was terrified. How can I move sand to my bidding? My will fell apart and I began to cry, tears of sadness this time. I saw the water recede. The sand dropped back to the ground and the wind died down as well. Matsuru fell to the ground and knocked out. I gazed at the scene in wonder. What just happened? Although I wanted to help Matsuru, I felt a wave of exhaustion hit me and I fell to my knees and collapsed as well. My energy disappeared.

Rin walked up to me, "I knew you were a demon from the moment I saw you. Go and clean yourself up. In a few days I will make sure you are far away from here. Guarded by experienced men who knows how to handle cases like you." She spat. I stared at her wide-eyed.

"What does that mean?" I asked, scared. I was tired but hearing that shocked me. Some energy made it's way back to me. She didn't answer she just walked away.

"Hey! Where are you going to take me? Please!" I shout desperately and run up to her, and tugged at her dress. Rin sharply turned to me.

"Don't you dare touch me! Don't question me and do as your told. Now go!" she ordered.

I stared at her for a few more seconds as she quickly walked away. When I turned around Matsuru was gone. I slowly trudge past the playground and to the showers to clean myself off. What is going to happen? When I got to the showers I look at myself in the mirror. It wasn't pretty. My blond hair was greasy and dirty with sand and some blood. My pale and skinny arms were covered in bruises as well as my legs. Six against me was very unfair considering my small stature. In general I was a tiny kid and one of the shortest in the class. My blue eyes were bruised as well. I had a few cuts and scrapes and my nose was bloody, but not broken. I looked pathetic. After looking at the end result I took a shower. Most of the blood and sand washed away but I was still in pretty bad shape. I decided to drop by at the infirmary. The nurse was a plain woman who didn't have much of a personality. I stay there with her often to try and escape class. When she first laid eyes on me she nearly had a panic attack

"Naruto! Oh my! What happened? You look awful," She gasped and immediately went to the cabinet for a first aid kit.

I just said how I got into a fight and not to worry too much about it. She nodded and got to work. I sat there silent. Waiting for her to finish.

When I enter my room I see two large men. They were wearing black suits with a peculiar emblem that was in the shape of a fan. The top half of the fan was red while the rest was white. They were very serious and stoic-like.

"Are you Naruto?" Said man one. I nod.

"We are to watch over you until preparations are set." Said man two

"What preparations? What are you talking about?" I asked, panicked.

"You are to transfer to an area suited for your 'kind.' An area where you can be monitored at all times. So until then we are going to watch over you." Said man two.

"No way…" I said. I wasn't sure what else I could say. After they told me the news they said how I still could do things like normal only they had to follow. This even allowed me to write to you.

I'm completely isolated from everyone now. We are all we have. It's fine. It's nothing new. We don't need others. I'm too different anyway. For example my mind is too quick for them. Half of the words I say wouldn't make sense to them. In my spare time I read books. I have lots of spare time so I read tons of books. I have a good head on my shoulders. It's impressive for a 7 year old. Maybe it has something to do with the strange things that happened to me today. Maybe they were all right and I am a monster. I feel lonelier than ever before. At least before I as able to say they are all wrong and I'm just misunderstood. Now I'm questioning myself. It's possible that I am what everyone thought I was and more. I think I might go insane from this negative environment. Even now some of my words don't make sense but one day everything will be clear. I just know it. It's time to put you away unfortunately. It's about 9 so I must go to sleep. Too bad. I have so many thoughts than I know what to do with.

Good night,

Naruto