Aware of My Life - 6996
I know that he's lying. Everything that comes out of his lips is just words, laced together with honey that's too sweet. But I yearn for him, for his voice, his touch, his mismatched eyes staring into my violet one. A small gesture here and there, brushing a strand of my hair away or smiling when I tell him a story, would be enough to make me blush. To make me happy.
Even if it's all make-belief.
My saviour, my angel. He's everything that I had hoped for and more. Just a few sentences of encouragement would be enough to get me back on my feet, to make me stand strong and brave. Everyone knows that he's not really there for me, that he'll go the moment he's free but they won't tell me. I already know that he doesn't love me the way I love him but they all think I'm too weak but I have strength. If they believe in me, if he believes in me, I can fight and I will fight until my last breath.
I've accepted it all, been through it all but I am still so foolish and naive. I'm being left behind again and again. I thought I was part of their family that I would play a role in their future but I guess I'll be thrown aside since I have no use to anyone. I'm nothing without Mukuro-sama. He made me Chrome, he made me strong and brave and determined and... And... And...
Alive...
When he is free from the chains that shackle him, I'll be waiting with bated breath. Even if I am tossed aside like an old ragged doll, I'll come back. Because that's what Chrome does. That's what I do. I will live in my illusions and create worlds where there is no suffering or pain, just love.
But Nagi is still here, deep inside. She tells me to stop and be quiet and that I'll just get hurt in I continue. Maybe I should listen to her. She's the one who got Mukuro-sama's attention. Not Chrome, not me.
It's never ignorant, naive little Chrome.