Trigger Warning: If you have been sexually assaulted or are uncomfortable with this dark subject matter, I'd understand if you decided to skip this story. I try my best to write this as maturely as possible but I know I'm still immature as a writer. I know it's kinda hypocritical since I write things like this all the time, but as a writer, I always try to challenge myself to see if I have the chops. This is no different. If the trigger warnings don't apply, please enjoy this dark look into the way women are treated in Japan. Also if you've been sexually assaulted, please call the Rape Hotline at 1-800-656-4673. I've always hated fics that don't take this subject seriously and I'm not going to make the same mistake.- Aj
Ran ran. Or at least she tried.
Her legs felt like they were made out of jelly. It was a miracle she could make a staggering walk, her trembling calves almost tumbling like a doe that just learning how to walk. She felt sick and dazed, like how she imagined her dad felt when he was drinking… But she never did and would never drink… Would she?
She could barely make out the colors around her around her, let alone the finer details of her surroundings. But that didn't matter as she suddenly felt so tired, very tired, so sleepy…
She tumbled onto her left knee barely catching herself with her palms. It was if all her strength had been sapped out of her, like a Vampire was sucking her blood while she slept.
The last bit of awareness she had, was reaching for her phone in her pocket, to call Shinichi, Sonoko, her dad, anybody.
But she reached out for it, she realized her shorts were gone and that the only thing covering her most private area was her white panties.
As her entire body slackened, all she heard was laughter.
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Currently Ran's consciousness were inebriated. All she felt was certain stimuli.
One of them was pain and touch.
She vaguely felt something slimey go into into her mouth gagging her, almost causing her to vomit, She felt intense pain on her chest, legs, and in between them…
And she could hear, though she might not have understood exactly what they meant.
"Ah look she's moaning, she must really like it! Maybe I can make her call out my name..."
Strangely, she called out for her dad, as if she was a little girl again… She vaguely remembered him giving her charms and some contraction called "monster spray." But it disappeared like a ship in the night, and was replaced by a memory of Shinichi.
She opened her eyes and saw monsters, shadowpeople. She tried to struggle but her arms were held down as they weakly tried pushing the monsters away, once again a little girl having a nightmare.
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"Ah shit, she just pissed all over me!" The younger of the three begun to violently punch her, until stopped by the leader when he started striking her face.
Clutching the arm, he gave the newbie a threatening look that could cut through steel. "Don't hit her face! She wont be pretty elsewise." That was a lie. From hair to feet the girl's body was perfect but he wanted to recognize her when he did her. Though his turn was over, he still derived sick pleasure at the Kanto champ writhing in pain. Judging from the way she bled, she had been a virgin.
That gave him sick satisfaction, knowing that Shinichi Kudo would have sloppy seconds.
"But it disgusting down there…" The newbie complained, making the leader roll his eyes. They were in a disgusting back alley and this is what the newbie complained about? The idiot was already wondering why that they didn't fuck her at the house. What if someone came across them while they were doing her?
Besides the bitch was so naive, she deserved this.
The elder frowned, annoyed and at his wits end. "Turn her over and do her in the back then… Hey wait a minute… Shouldn't she be breathing?"
That snapped out of his rage. When newbie hit her, she hadn't reacted in the slightest. The leader didn't expect for her to come rising like a zombie but surely even dough has more of a reaction then that.
Dread coursing through his icy veins, he checked her pulse and felt nothing.
"Shit."
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Kogoro rushed to the hospital, surprisingly sober despite having slept off a drink just a few minutes ago.
A call this late? All his frayed nerves could tell was that it was in the middle of the night, as the sky hadn't gone from indigo to cerulean yet.
The sleuth had fallen asleep on the floor, a common sight in the Mouri Household. If you wanted bonus points, count the number of beer bottles and cans and see how much money he could have made from recycling alone.
Crumbs caressed his chin. Kogoro tried to ignore the landline but no matter how much he covered his ears, it kept ringing and ringing, a awful clamor like the gods were whistling in his head. Realizing that the kid would wake up if he didn't something immediately Kogoro was two seconds from hanging it up when he managed to register that Ran was in the hospital.
Had he been even slightly more drunk, it was likely that he would missed the call entirely.
His parental instincts made him too panicked to think about the implications or any other more pertinent questions. In a blur of confusion, he had arrived at Beika Hospital. Screaming he pushed his way to the front desk, pelting a old lady to the linoleum floor.
"Where's my daughter!" He nearly slipped off of the counter but held on just in time. The young nurse at the front desk had the countenance of fright but he was too pissed and afraid to be sympathetic.
"Sir, please, wait in line-"
He slammed his fist on the desk, causing the nurse to walk backward in fear. "Dammit, I just got a call saying my little girl is in the hospital! If you don't tell me where she is, I'll rip you and this fucking place apart until I find her!" In frustration, he picked up a chair and threw at her, causing the nurse to duck and huddle in the corner in terror.
Falling back frightened, the poor nurse screamed, "SECURITY!", like a loud hissing Parrot.
Then they came upon him, restraining him as he struggled to get out of their grasp. Kogoro may still have been physically fit but the alcohol and the fright had weakened his nerves.
"Stop, STOP!" A doctor came out, screaming, covered in surgical clothing. Mouri's eyes widened and he fell down, suddenly infirm and weak, stooped over his knees.
"Mouri san… I need you to calm down. Here, I'll get you some coffee or would you prefer tea-"
Kogoro weakly lashed out as the doctor tried to grab him by the shoulder. It was as if he had been severely maimed and any dexterous use of his fingers were impossible. Then, any form of masculinity be damned, he begun to bawl on the floor, completely consumed by a dozen emotions happening at once.
"They wont tell me… Why wont they tell me what happened to Ran? I'm her father for gods sake!" Kogoro screamed in utter anguish, too confused and upset to act like he should.
Millions of thoughts pulsed through him at once not a single one of them better then the other. Car crashes, beatings, muggings, all for revenge on the sleeping sleuth. Oddly enough the one fear every parent had didn't cross his mind.
A couple people rolled their eyes at this seemingly overacted display of emotion, but the doctor acted otherwise.
Next thing he knew, Kogoro was sitting down on a bench, holding a mug of coffee, seizing uncontrollably. Whether it was from sobriety or something more primal, the Sleeping Sleuth did not know. Everything had seemed to go so fast before but know his life finally appeared to stop fastforwarding, meaning the tape had gotten back to where it needed to be.
Kogoro could hear a clock ticking, making his skull throb. He briefly put down the mug to rub the hangover from his eyes. Slanting slightly, they noticed then he was in the child's waiting room.
Usually disinclined, he listened. He didn't want to but acting like a child A.K.A how he desperately wanted to react, wasn't going to cut it this time. For once, he had to be an adult.
The doctor explained it as much as he could, but Kogoro was preoccupied with thoughts of his own failings. At one point he told him that Ran's heart had be restarted and Kogoro immediately smashed the mug, horrified that he had lost his daughter.
But the doctor reassured him that she was alive, though he winced in a way that Kogoro immediately picked up on.
It was a small city after all and she was the daughter to a national celebrity. Waves were bound to be made sooner or later and Ran was always friendly to everyone she met.
Then he cleared his throat and Kogoro realized that all the body signals were pointing that he had been reluctantly leading to this. Kogoro couldn't take the suspense…
"Mouri-san… I can't imagine how hard this will be for you to hear but we need your permission…" He left to sit there, suddenly stopping, which disturbed Kogoro too much for words.
But Kogoro was confused. "What do you mean my permission? Permission for what?" Already thoughts of comas and organ donations permeated his mind, but somehow he didn't think it that was what he was talking about.
"Mouri-san… We need your permission to do a rape kit."
And so, without encore and applause, his entire world collapsed in on itself. He felt like he was imprisoned in a black hole. The new world that was now apparating into existence consisted of only the doctor and the soon to be grieving father. They were the only occupants in this abyss they shared together. Struggling to escape, he did what he did best. Kogoro chose denial.
"I'm sorry I couldn't hear exactly what you said, can you repeat what you said?" But a part of him didn't want to repeat it, his mind was shouting at him to call him a liar. Already the tears were falling ceaseless like a waterfall, and Kogoro was the crippled Koi fish, falling in his futile attempts to become a Dragon.
The doctor had a look of absolute regret but suddenly Kogoro exploded.
"No, no, no! You're lying! That didn't happen, not to Ran, never to…" Suddenly acceptance reared its ugly head and his heartbeat made a louder din then anything else.
Kogoro's worse fear, a horror no father ever wanted to comprehend, had come true.
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The next thing she knew Ran woke up in the hospital with no memory of the day before. She felt sore all over, as if she had been beaten while sparring.
She smacked her lips, eager to get the strange taste out of her mouth. She could hear the beeping of a heart monitor and feel the pinch were the IV were inserted into her vein. Stunned, when she open her eyes all they could do was spin as the white light blinded her.
But her eyes adjusted, and she could finally see around her.
At first she thought she was alone. But then she saw her father looking down at her.
He gave a pained smile. "Hey, kiddo."
Ran made a feeble attempt to sit up but she suddenly felt a sharp pain all over. A look of panic emerged on his face, causing Ran to pause.
"Otou-san… W-where am I-I?" She suddenly felt super cold, causing her teeth to clatter. Her dad quickly provided her his jacket. She clutched it to her body like a teddy bear.
"Your in the hospital. Do you remember why?" Dad stuttered and glanced toward the door, as if far away.
Ran briefly remembered Sonoko taking her to an event somewhere. Or maybe it was party…
Dad stuttered, before settling on a sigh. "Honey, I don't want to say it… But… But…" Kogoro suddenly smiled. "You were robbed."
Ran couldn't believe what she was hearing. Suddenly, just like that she was back to normal. "EH? What do you mean I was robbed!"
Kogoro gave her a penisive look before rubbing the back of his neck. "Well, my guess is that you were drugged and they robbed you blind." Ran was shocked, realizing that her phone was gone with all her pictures and contacts.
Kogoro laughed, with Ran not noticing the lack of mirth. "Well usually I'd yell at you for doing things like that. But I guess since you are a lightweight unlike your old ma-
Ran immediately through her pillow at him. "I am not! I probably- I- mistook a drink or something for soda! They are made to look appetizing even for little kids like Conan…" Ran slowly turned her head away and blushed, completely embarrassed, promising to kill Sonoko if she had anything to do with this.
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Kogoro glanced at the door. "If it makes it feel any better this is the longest time I've been sober in a while…
Ran was too astonished to notice how suspicious her dad was acting. "Really? Does that mean you're giving it up?" Ran's eyes were full of hope and Kogoro couldn't deny her any more happiness.
"Maybe… I'll try harder this time." The answer wasn't a commitment but Ran took it at face value, obviously imagining him and Eri getting back together. Kogoro just couldn't do this to her, it was better if she didn't remember… It would be the first time he had made a hard decision for his child.
But a part of him screamed, you weren't a father to begin with, why start now?
Kogoro left, promising to bring the brat here, since he probably had figured out something was amiss. It was truly best this way, Conan wouldn't understand, all he would know what that his nee-san was hurt, so it was truly best this way…
He had taken out of school for the day, claiming he was sick. It was best if he just lied to everyone. After all Ran couldn't press charges and go through a nasty trial where she'd be humiliated if she didn't know.
It had taken a lot of begging and the remnants of the wiles he had forgotten as a detective but he had managed to convince the staff that he was going to tell her eventually. After he was a former cop so why wouldn't he want a private investigation from some of his friends?
He had refused the rape kit despite the objections of her physician, with all the bastards DNA being lost when they cleaned her up. He would later have to go to a pharmacy and get her a Morning After Pill. The things I do for love. Kogoro clenched his fists in rage. He know understood the rage he had once judged murderers for.
All he wanted was to kill the bastards but the fear of the pain his daughter would go through stayed his hand. That was more important to him.
Kogoro had been a detective for most of his adult life. If he was telling it to anyone other then himself, he would ask them to go to the authorities despite knowing what they would do. Policemen's pride didn't extend to his family. How ironic.
When he made it outside, the sun had finally emerged. Greens leaves from Katsura's swayed in the air, followed by leaves falling onto the ground. Birds chirped happily, squirrels ran up trees and Kogoro could hear Ran as a little girl, giggling in wonder, playing with Shinichi, asking for piggyback rides, him giving her monster spray, her slowly maturing until she looked akin to her mother.
And guys staring at her lewdly, devouring his little girl with their starved hollow eyes. Maybe there were monsters after all.
Guilt had convinced her doctor to say silent but unbeknownst to Kogoro, the best laid plans of mice and men always go awry.
Even if it was a terrible plan to began with.
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Yeah I'm sorry I haven't updated, personal things have left me mentally deposed of. I'm surprise I can even reuploud this from my AO3 account.
For those wondering why Kogoro did that, it is not a Idiot Ball and keep in mind that this is Japan. Their rape laws are archaic at best and insulting at worst. Most women blame themselves because ultimately Japan has a large Shame Culture and is backwards in regards to gender equality. Hell the beginning of the manga was right before the Gender Equality Bill was promulgated.
So ultimate Kogoro is making a horrible decision out of the best intentions.
This fic came out of a desire for a type of fic. I apologize if it isn't good and because I betrayed my principles. If your depressed I suggest you call the Suicide Helpline. Your life is worth something. Don't lose your way. ):