A/N: This story is dedicated to one of my favorite people TurnMeOn. Here's you much belated birthday present haha see I told you'd I'd get it done eventually.

Okay so not my best writing here and I know there's been stories similar but this has been building in my brain for awhile and I needed to get it out. I was originally going to just do it all in diary format but didn't like how it would end so this is what you get instead. Enjoy!

Lilly Truscott walked into her single dorm, placing the books she was carrying and her backpack down neatly on the desk. Sitting down on her bed, she turned to fluff her pillow up some and then reclined back and opened the novel she was supposed to be reading for a paper that was due soon.

After re-reading the same page three times she threw the book down, knowing it was no use. There was too much on her mind, or rather to much of a certain someone on her mind.

She needed to talk to someone about it, but really there wasn't anyone that would understand. Looking straight ahead, her eyes focused on her laptop and suddenly she had an idea.

Sitting up and then standing, she walked over to her desk and started up her computer. Once everything was loaded she pulled up a blank Word page and began typing.

March 5, 2012

Dear Diary,

I know I have a book sitting around here somewhere to write stuff like this in, but I just can't seem to make myself do it. Writing it down on paper just seems so permanent. You however a pretty page in a program sitting on my computer that can easily be erased if I'm afraid it will fall into the wrong hands. I have to get this out once and for all though so this is my story.

See here's the thing Diary, I thought I had my whole life planned out. I mean it was so simple, I was going to go to college then get married, have a couple kids and live happily ever after. Life it seems has a funny sense of humor however.

I always knew there was something different about me. I mean most of the girls I knew were into nail polish and lip gloss. They spent all their time dressing up for the guys that might give them the time of day. They weren't at the skate park or on the beach. And they certainly weren't checking out the other girls in swimsuits.

Don't me wrong I was still attracted to guys…A LOT… but I knew I was attracted to girls too. Although it was almost a year of debating with myself before I finally accepted it. I just left it at that within my mind.

I've known Oliver practically my whole life, since preschool anyway. We've been best friends from the day we met. Everyone always said we'd end up married someday, even our parents believed it would happen. I just laughed it off.

He was the only person I ever told about being bisexual. He accepted it easily and I knew his opinion of me never faltered.

Shortly after that he finally had the courage to tell me how he felt about me and we dated on and off all through high school.

I went off to college pretty much having the rest of my life planned out. After college Oliver and I would get married and have a few kids and I'd have the family I've always wanted. I always knew I didn't love him the way he loved me. Just knowing that he loved me for who I was and knowing he'd never hurt me on purpose was enough for me.

In the back of my head I wondered if I was just too big of a chicken to tell my family the truth. Marry Oliver would certainly make my life easier. It would be my secret to keep, and I planned to take it to the grave.

Or so I believe, that is until I met her. I just started my freshman year of college and I met her on the first day of classes more than six months ago. After noticing her in three of my classes I decided maybe I should just introduce myself. Her name is Miley and the word stunning didn't even begin to describe how beautiful she is.

We hit it off instantly. I was a little disappointed to hear she had a boyfriend that she had been dating for years but shrugged it off not willing to let it damper this new friendship we were building.

Besides I was taken right?

Okay that's it for now Catch ya later!

Closing the lid of her lap top, Lilly felt totally exhausted. Looking at the clock she realized why. She had been at the computer for a lot longer than she believed. Getting ready for bed, she crawled in hoping she would, or maybe that she wouldn't dream of Miley tonight.

May 15, 2012

Dear Diary,

Well I'm back for another session of bearing my soul. I think I've fallen in love with her. I can't explain it any other way. Everything about her just makes me notice her more. That sexy walk she does when she's happy, the way she flips her hair and runs her hands through it while she talks. When she smiles I can't help but smile with her, I love seeing her smile. It's my favorite part of her.

The more time I spent with her the more I know that Jake "the jerk" Ryan isn't right for her. She has cried on my shoulders more times than I can count over him. At the same time she seemed reluctant to break up with him. I haven't out right said she should leave him, but I think she knows how I feel about him and she never tries to change my opinion of him so a part of her must know it's the truth.

Instead I sit and listen to her talk about him and my heart fills with jealousy that while he's a lousy boyfriend he gets to claim her as his own. I wish I could do that. Anything is worth the risk if it means that I'll finally have her love me the way I love her.

Oliver knows it too. He could see it on my face when I went home for Spring Break. I could tell in the way he acted that he knew something had changed with me. I know he secretly just hoped it was nothing, that I was just going through something.

I knew in the end I had to be honest with him though. It wasn't fair to either of us. We had a long talk the night before I left. I know I hurt him deeply but he said he understood and just wanted me to be happy. I told him he'd find someone who loved him the way he deserved. We joked about that for a few before giving each other a hug and going our separate ways. Our friendship would be okay I was sure of that.

Oh hold on Diary she's IMing me now…

Switching over to her Windows Live, Lilly quickly reads the message waiting there for her.

"Hey Lil, I'm having some trouble with this essay I'm supposed to be writing. I was hoping you could help me with it?"

She couldn't help the smile that appeared on her face at the thought of spending some time with Miley. Lilly quickly started to respond, "Sure come on over."

"Thanks Lil, I'll be right there."

Switching back to her document she ended her entry with one last thought.

Miley's on her way over here, maybe today will be the day I finally have the guts to tell her how I feel.

Catch ya later.

Shutting her computer down, she began twirling around in her desk chair waiting for the other girl to arrive. As soon as she heard the knock on the door she was out of the chair with a smile on her face.

Miley and Lilly spent the next hour working on her paper. After they finished Miley said she wasn't ready to leave just yet so Lilly suggest the two of them just watch a movie and hang out for a bit. Since there wasn't a lot of place to sit in the small dorm room, they both crowded together on Lilly's full size bed. It wasn't long before Miley's head found Lilly's shoulder and her heart started to soar.

A little while later Lilly felt a wet spot starting to form on her shirt and realized Miley was crying. "Hey what's wrong?"

"It's just…" Miley paused not knowing how to continue. "Jake and I broke up last night."

"Oh sweetie I'm so sorry." Lilly wanted to comfort her, she was just hoping she'd be able to say the right thing. "He wasn't right for you though. He's crazy for breaking up with you."

Finally looking up at Lilly, "No you don't understand, he didn't break up with me. I broke up with him."

Lilly was speechless. Inside she was screaming "YES!" but she didn't want to say that out loud so she just waited for Miley to tell her the rest. She wasn't disappointed.

"I've known for awhile it wasn't going to last I just didn't want to accept it. But I also didn't want to accept what else I was feeling, for who I was having feelings for. I ah…" Miley stopped not knowing if she could really go on.

"What is it Miles? You can tell me." Lilly was afraid of what Miley would have to say next but secretly she hoped she knew what it was.

When Miley still didn't say anything she began to get nervous so it was really surprising when she just started kissing the smaller girl. Miley pulled back before Lilly's brain had time to process it and react.

"I'm sorry Lil, it's just I couldn't help myself any longer. I'll go now."

Miley started to get up but didn't get far before she felt a hand on her arm turning her back around. Faster than she could have thought possible she felt the younger girls lips now on her own kissing her this time. The two continued to make out until they pulled apart to take a breath.

"It's okay Miles, cause I've been in love with you from the day I met you," Lilly finally told her breathlessly.

"I love you to Lils, have from the very beginning."