I ran as fast I could in the cold of night, screaming out his name. He wasn't at school. He didn't even text me. No one knows who he was anymore. Nagato and Asahina don't know me. Koizumi is gone too. Damn it, Haruki! What have you done?

My body felt cold despite the big jacket I had on. Snow fell from the sky. My legs failed me finally after running around the city for about an hour. I fell to the floor. Looking at my surroundings, I knew I was in the park. No one seemed to notice me. There were all too busy being with their boyfriends and girlfriends. Trying to get up, I noticed I had scraped my hands a bit. I knew I should have worn gloves. I looked at my hand. It was bleeding just a bit. It hurt.

"Get up, Kyon! You're a member of the SOS brigade. Show some backbone!"

That's what Haruki would have told me if he saw me like this. My hand then clenched into a fist at the thought of that. I was angry at myself. I had always wished that Haruki and his annoying personality would just disappear and give me some peace. Now that it has finally come, I don't want it. Something felt missing without him. Why should I be so upset that he's gone? Why have I been desperately searching for him?

I then realized why. It was because I wanted to see Haruki again.

He's such a pain. He's annoying. He's obnoxious. He's impossible to please.

But I don't think I hate those things about him. In fact, when he acts like that, I feel relieved. That is the Haruki I know.

I've questioned why I was the one he chose before. Maybe it was because I was the first person who could get a half decent conversation with him. Maybe because he was tired of blocking everyone off. Maybe he thought I was cute. The last one is probably the least likely of all those options.

Still, the brigade kept reminding me that I was the one he chose. If he really gave up on this world, why didn't he bring me with him? He did that last time. He always takes me with him when he can. Did I say something that made Haruki mad? No. The first time that happened, he still took me even though he thought I was flirting with Asahina (which I may have been).

Does he hate me? Am I boring him now?

"Kyon! I have an idea!"

"Put this on! That's an order."

"Have I met you before? A long time ago?"

"This room is now our club room!"

"Don't you think it's amazing? One really came!"

"That's impossible. This matter needs investigation."

"Weren't you fed up with that boring world? It was just an ordinary world where nothing special ever happened. Didn't you want something more interesting to happen?"

"Are you an idiot?!"

"KYON! PENALTY!"

His words. They are still so loud and clear in my head. Was this the only thing I had left onto of him? My memories? When I age, these memories will fade. I don't want to lose Haruki.

I finally decided: no matter how hard it'll be, I will find Haruki Suzumiya. I will return to our old world.

A/N: Just a small thing I wrote. It's based off the Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya. I have read that volume (but that was a year ago). Some quotes there are exactly what's written in the first volume, which I bought. I love Disappearance. I'm excited it's going to be animated. I haven't found any short pieces of Gender Bended Disappearance or much fanart so I decided to write this for fun. I'm still rain storming ideas for my next Namixas story.