Title: Dear Darien
Author: Sailor Usako
Genre: Romance/Alternate Reality
Disclaimer: I do NOT own Sailor Moon
or any of it's characters!
Rating: PG-13
Note: Hey everyone! Ok this is my
SECOND attempt at writing a fic
and it's a very short, sad one!
So it shouldn't be too hard to
bear. Please take into
consideration that this is only
my second fic but, I love
hearing suggestions on how to
make it better!!! Thanks. (Also
remember that this IS PG-13 so
be careful when reading it)
Dear Darien,
I must confess to you my feelings about
our whole situation. I think I may be
going crazy, or close to it. I know
you're gone and after nearly three years
of counseling I've accepted this fact,
but you're still someone I can turn to
when there are no others. I know as Queen
I'm expected to keep my composure in
front of the world, but in front of the
mirror I fall to pieces. I feel that
my life no longer has meaning into...that
all I can do is wear a forever pasted
smile upon my face. To tell you the truth
the only thing that has kept me alive at
all is Rini, our wonderful daughter who
bounces with happiness in each of her
steps. I watch in awe as she grows into
a wonderful young lady of twelve. But
yes, she is the only reason why I am
here. To hell with dignity and royal
obligations and damn life! But Rini...I
can't send or shut her away like I
do the rest of the world, and so I
stay here..alone..without you. It's
unbearable at times...Darien...I haven't
even been able to cry for you..it's
so weird..My body seems to be so dead
that I can't even shed a tear. But,
back to why I'm crazy. Why AM I crazy
you ask? Because I see you, feel you,
and hear you. Everyday as I move around
the palace I can feel your warm breath
on my kneck, or while I'm sleeping I can
feel you next to me. Even when I'm
alone I can see you're hands around my
waist and feel your body against my
back. I can feel your chin rest on my
shoulder and can hear you whisper my
name softly saying how much you love
me. I always sigh deeply and lean
into your strong embrace replying softly
with whatever comes to mind. You kiss
my cheek so tenderly and just talk as I
close my eyes just so I can drink in your
musky scent and record your husky voice
into my memory. And then I turn around
everynight always sure that your standing
there right next to me, and as I open
my eyes to stare into your own I realize
that I can no longer hear your breathing,
or feel your arms about me. And then for
that horrific instant as I'm opening my
eyes I realize that your know longer there!
When my eyes clear and I can see straight
my theory is confirmed; you are gone. This
is where my fantasy ends and the mist
upon my brain slowly clears. But, why
Darien? Why are you taunting me so?
Please, Darien, answer me tonight...in
our fantasy.
Love Always,
Serena
Serena stood at the edge of a cliff
her hair sweeping out behind her along
with her dress. She set her crown down
beside her softly before picking up the
letter. She looked at it sorrowfully,
lonliness in her eyes before picking up
a bottle as well. She looked down at the
clear bottle in her hands and sighed
heavily before throwing it into the ocean
below where Darien's body now rested.
"The boat accident may have killed you
Darien..." she whispered softly into the
wind. "But It won't kill me." She stared
after the floating bottle her heart
melting slowly as it went. She picked
her crown up off the floor and looked
down at the bobbing bottle once more.
She shed her first tear since his
death before silenty walking away.
"Goodbye..."