Hello!

I randomly threw this together because I was in a mood. (Also, this has absolutely nothing to do with my other fic, just so you know.)

Just a little one shot. Please enjoy!

I began pushing the door closed as soon as I opened it. Had I known it was him, I would not have even unbolted the lock.

Before it could fully close, Kevin pushed against it, "Please, Dee. Please." His voice was pleading, so pleading. I took a breath to force the pain from my chest before taking a step back. I just couldn't find it in myself to ignore that look on his face.

He closed the door silently behind him. I could see his hands shaking slightly.

"Dee…. Edd… I-I…"He drew in a deep breath. "I can't do this. I can't just go on and ignore everything and pretend like I'm okay with this."

"And you suppose I am content with this?"

"No! No. That's not what I meant."

I simply waited for him to continue.

"I-I'm sorry, Edd."

"So you have stated previously."

"Edd, please. Don't be like this."

"Like what, Kevin?"

"Like that! You act like you don't know anything, like you need a definition for everything. I can't always explain things like that."

My arms moved up to cross in front of me. "Yes, I know this."

"Then, please…." He took a breath. "I really am sorry, Edd."

"Simple words cannot change the past."

"Nothing can change the past!"

"Which is why it is so important that our actions reflect our feelings at all times, not merely when it is convenient!"

"I didn't mean it, Edd!"

"Then it should not have happened!"

"I didn't know it was going to turn out like that. Not everyone can see all the effects of every possibility. Not everyone is as smart as you!"

"But you are smarter than this, Kevin! You are better than this."

"Apparently, I'm not!" His voice echoed loudly throughout the room.

I lowered my voice, taking a step back. "But you are."

"Dammit, Edd." His hand shot up to his head, running through his orange hair. "I'm really trying here."

I knew he was. I could see it. The pain in his eyes, the shuddering of his breath, the clenched fists by his sides; they all showed just how much he was trying. I wanted to forgive him. I wanted to fall into those arms and hold him and kiss him. But I couldn't.

"Do not believe that I am attempting to punish you. This is more than that."

"Then, what? What the hell else is it?"

"I cannot deny that I am upset by what happened, but that is only one factor. Possibly a factor that showed me the other aspects of the situation, but still simply one factor."

"You still haven't told me what else."

"It's everything. You, me, us. You cannot tell me that you wholly believed that this could work."

"You're telling me you didn't?"

"Look at us, Kevin. There is just so much… so much that can cause problems." I paused for a moment, not yet prepared to reveal the whole truth. However, he deserved an explanation just as much as I did. "It goes beyond your actions, Kevin. I must also consider my reaction. I am not someone who can accept such a thing and retain trust anyway. I began to doubt myself. I began to doubt everything. I began to wonder why you would pick such a person as myself over anyone else. And I realized that, no matter your actions, you just didn't deserve to be retained in our relationship. Not when I could not be sure of myself, let alone us."

"Edd…"

"I do love you, Kevin, which is why I made my decision."

"Edd, please…"

"We both deserve better."