It Was Me

I was there that night,
you know.
I watched as he destroyed
your life.
That one out in the night?
It was me.

Peter came first, unbelieving and
guilt-stricken.
I played my part, and told him what
he wanted to hear.
"Sirius was the secret-keeper. He
betrayed them."
I sent him away to frame his friend.
It was me.

Next came Sirius, sobbing and
broken.
I re-confirmed what he was sure was
true.
"Peter was the secret-keeper, wasn't he?"
I whispered.
Sirius nodded, and left, swearing
vengeance.
But the one to betray them?
It was me.

It was all in the paper the
next morning.
My friends, my brothers, oh God,
what have I done?
Dead and betrayed and hating and
alone.
It was me.

The one to convince James to again change
Secret-keeper.
It was me.
The one to pry Harry from Lily's dead
arms.
It was me.
The one who killed, framed, lied, and
deceived them all.
It was me.

It is still me.
Still, I betray them and you. Oh God,
What have I done?
I, the one always needing help, am now
powerful.
It was me.

Now sweet silver knife, glinting with
the silvery moonlight,
be my last friend and
save me.

Save me from myself, my deeds, and my
once-loved victims.
For, oh God, what have I done?!
It was me.

Forgive me, Harry, but
It was me.

The Boy-Who-Lived lowered his as good as godfather's suicide note, tears running down his face. "Why Remus?" Harry whispered. "Why?"

A/N: o.o -cough- Um...another VERY angsty poem. I tried to write fluffy, I REALLY, REALLY did...but it pretty much sucked. Really. It did. As Bluecrest, I think she's still scarred.

If you couldn't tell, this is Remus looking back to his dark past in a suicide letter he's written to Harry. ((SUICIDE IS WRONG! IT'S A PERMENENT SOLUTION TO A TEMPORARY PROBLEM! DON'T DO IT!))

Ok. This was Beta'd by myself and my computer. -bows- hold your applause, please, but not your reviews. I could be persuaded to maybe make this more than a one-shot if people ask...anyhoo, ANYONE CAN REVIEW! EVEN ANYONOMUS! Please do! It makes me happy and keeps me posting. Even just a 'good job' or, ((hopefully not)) 'it sucked' I'm desperate!!!