Disclaimer: I do not own Fairy Tail or any of its characters; they belong to the one and only Hiro Mashima.
I do not own the song that served to inspire this story.
I do own the idea for the fic though.
And I can only think of loving you.
(A I.-.-.I Kuroyagi I.-.-.I original fan-fiction story.)
Dedicated to all the NaZa writers of FF.
So pure the life and you…
So full of peace…
And I can only think of loving you…
XOXOXOXOXOX
It has been a month already. He was released and ordered to join Fairy Tail while the Council decided what to do with him.
It was something that deserved some class of celebration from the members of the guild.
Everyone prepared for the faithful day, she in special, much to his bother.
When he arrived, everyone went static, jumping and celebrating his arrival that was well planned thanks to her efforts in convincing them.
He, on the otherside, was at the sidelines.
Not wanting to join the celebration or avoid it.
He had stronger motives for being there in the first place.
She was all the reason he needed.
XOXOXOXOXOX
You fill my life of light…
You fill the sky, the earth and the sea…
And I can only think of loving you…
XOXOXOXOXOX
Watching her smile when he arrived was all he needed.
Even if the smiles were not meant for him out of everyone.
He felt fulfill.
And couldn't think of anything else but how cheerful and happy she was.
Even if it was not because of him; but because of that guy, because of his presence she was happy.
Her happiness powered his resolve.
And that was all that mattered for him.
XOXOXOXOXOX
There's no heart that can resist it…
Because if you cry I want my eyes…
To follow every tear of yours…
Until I lose sight of it….
XOXOXOXOXOX
He thought back of the moments in which such smile was meant for him.
And how those smiles were now meant for the one that made her cry.
That made her miserable for oh so many years.
In those years when he watched each and every one of those tears run down her pretty face.
All the way down until they fell to the ground in a sorrowful end.
All the way down until he lost sight of them and focused in her joyless eyes.
XOXOXOXOXOX
I look at her and I look at you…
Using my soul like a kite…
And I cannot wait…
Of finding a way…
Of showing you my soul…
And I can only think of loving you…
XOXOXOXOXOX
But that didn't mattered; he pretended to be okay when that guy approached him with her on toe.
Shared days and nights with them, watching them talk about banalities.
Feeling how his soul was dying for each second that passed.
Waiting for a moment to say something to them, to her in special.
Waiting for a moment that would never come.
Waiting for a moment to show her his true feelings.
A moment to tell her how much he loved her.
XOXOXOXOXOX
How could that be?
If even when the moon rises…
and hits my window…
I cannot stop wanting…
We laughed and cried all three…
I want to give you my joy…
my guitar and my poems…
And I can only think of loving you…
XOXOXOXOXOX
But why would he do that?
She was happy now, right?
Even if the nights were endless.
Even if he stood awake all night wondering what it could happen…
…If he decided to finally tell her his feelings.
It would be all the same.
The moon would rise in the afternoon.
It would shine down on his bed at midnight.
He would stare at it while in thinking.
He would wonder the possibilities.
He would remember the smile she had when spending time with that guy.
And he would frown at the thought.
Remembering that he would be never able...
…of giving her his life…
…to share his eternal love and care…
…to share laughs and tears…
…to share passions and sorrows…
…to share his unconditional love.
XOXOXOXOXOX
So pure the life and you…
So full of peace and light…
And I can only think of loving you…
XOXOXOXOXOX
But then again, the day would restart.
He would meet them again and face the cruel truth.
Telling her his truth would only hurt her.
XOXOXOXOXOX
You fill my life with light…
Filling the sky, the earth and my sea…
And I can only think of loving you…
XOXOXOXOXOX
All the things from her that made her worth dying for…
…would disappear and would not fulfill him as before.
And he would regret ever telling her anything…
…ever meeting her in the first place.
XOXOXOXOXOX
I look at her and I look at you…
Using my soul like a kite…
And I cannot stop wanting…
Of finding a way…
Of showing you my soul…
And I can only think of loving you…
XOXOXOXOXOX
So now he looked at both and smiled…
…giving his unconditional help to him…
...lying to her when she asked his condition...
…helping him when the moment presented itself…
…stabbing his own heart with each word that escaped his mouth that was directed to her…
…and was not the truth…
…was not what he truly meant to say…
…was not what his soul truly felt for her…
…was not what his mind constantly thought.
XOXOXOXOXOX
How could that be?
If even when the moon rises…
And hits my window…
I cannot stop wanting…
We laughed and cried all three…
I want to give you my joy…
I want to give something important…
And I can only think of loving you…
XOXOXOXOXOX
And when he doubted, he remembered…
…it was for her…
…for her happiness…
…for her smile…
…not for that guy or himself.
Staring at the shinning moon…
…he would remember.
It was for her, not for him.
Not for the possibilities.
Not for his own selfish thoughts.
Not for pity for that guy.
But for her sake…
…for her smile…
…for her happiness…
…for the moments he shared with her before he arrived…
…for the moments in which they were just the two of them…
…and no one else but them.
The end
Hope you enjoyed it. I felt like crying after reading it when finished... T_T
So sad, so out of charachter for the way in which I write my stories... but sooner or later I would have written a drama fic, right?
Again, hope you enjoyed it. I did. T_T
Inspired by a song of the hispanic singer Ale Sanz... Y solo se me ocurre amarte... T_T
R&R!
Saludos!