Hi guys! First of all, you should know that I was having a hard time when I was writing this story. Well, I want it to become a story. Please leave review, it's all I need to continue because if it's a bad or good, it would be cool to know and also I really care about your thoughts.
Blonde Redhead's song gave me the idea of title. It's a very sad song anyway.
Thanks for reading, I really hope you'll like it :)
After all the time, she felt responsible for all that happened. She couldn't blame someone else. There was no one else to. She wanted to scream, scream to ease her pain. He was gone. GONE screamed her mind. Now she was without him. She was miserable but why? Wasn't it all she wanted after all she pushed him away with her own hands.
"I don't want to be yours. I don't even want to be a friend of yours. I don't want to be anything of yours." was her last words to him.
"I don't believe in that! Please look me in the eye and..and…" she thought he was just struggling with words. That was all. But this thought changed when she saw him lying on the ground. He was pale white.
She called 911 but when they got hospital it was too late. He was gone. The doctors said his heart stopped and couldn't figure out how, how could such a thing happen.
She cried, her tears couldn't get him back, she was guilty. But when she's the one who's guilty, why was she still breathing and he was…dead. Each day it was harder than before. She couldn't just live when he wasn't. She lied to him that day and her lie killed him. She was going to end her life but after all, she had to do something first she owned him. She had to do that for him and for herself.
She took a paper and started writing.
Dear Edward,
Hello love. Love, yes that's what you are. You deserved anything Edward, anything better than me. But I betrayed you, I lied to you and it killed you. It killed you, I killed you.
I'm so sorry Edward, I know these are just words but…what else can I do? I loved you, every single time, every single day. I love you Edward. You belong to Heaven. But me, I'm just too dirty. I have so much dirt around me Edward. I have darkness around me. Everyone I love dies. And I'm so sorry Edward, I'm really sorry.
You didn't deserve to die like this but I deserve worst. So that's what I'm gonna do. Goodbye love, I will always love you even though I know I do not deserve.
Isabella
She went to his grave and putted the letter with flowers. "I'm sorry." She whispered before she was gone.
EDWARD'S POV
When I woke up, I was in a very cold place.
"How are you feeling?" a man asked. I couldn't figure out who that was or who he was asking to.
It was all still a blurry. I couldn't open my eyes fully.
Probably he understood so continued speaking. "I'm Carlisle Cullen, Edward. I know it's hard to open your eyes so don't rush it. You're in good hands, you're father took you here."
"What…what happened to me?"
"You had a panic attack Edward. But you're gonna be okay. You just need help. And that's what we gonna do. We'll take care of you."