Summary: The first step is to admit you have a problem.

Criminal Minds doesn't belong to me.

Beta reader: sakuramail (or, my sister Karen s2)

The first step

The first step is to admit you have a problem. It's not always easy and David Rossi, old and narcissist, is the kind of person who takes a lot of time to admit to himself that he is not perfect and he has a failure that must be corrected.

So, he drinks.

But no, this is not his problem. Sure, he has an unconditional and unhealthy love for the alcohol, but it's not his problem yet. Not yet.

His problem is with a promise.

(He still remembers the kids, still remembers their sad eyes, still remembers them asking him why God took our mommy and daddy away from us? and who did this? and, the worst, will you catch him?

and he said I don't know and we'll figured it out and Yes, I will. I promise you that I will)

His problem is with a promise that he didn't fulfill yet.

And it hurts to think this way. But it wasn't his complete fault, was it? There were no more evidences, no more clues, nothing for the past 20 years. It wasn't his fault.

But fault and clues and evidences and years don't change the fact that he didn't fulfill with his word. There were three orphans without answers – his answers. And that's what they need, what they always needed. They never wanted the phone calls in the Christmas; they never wanted an old man losing his mind and his wives to find a killer that was out there, even after 20 years.

They never wanted to be the victims. And David Rossi, one of the most finest profilers that exists in this world, one of the most intelligent men that they would ever met, one of the most cursed and guilty man they would ever create, couldn't do what they want.

But life moves on and people moves on along and he became a writer. And they grew up. And he married three times. And they start college. And he retired. And they married too. And he hunted. And they cried. And he called them. And they got tired.

(And he can't do it alone and he knows and he refuses and he stops sleeping to analyze that case over and over and over again until the answer pops up from the files: he's old and out of practice)

And then, he decides. Not for him, or for the money, or for more ideas for books, or for some shitty excuse. He decides – for them.

The first step is to admit you have a problem.

So David Rossi picks up his phone and dials a number he knows too well. And when Erin Strauss picks up, he says, immediately and with his most confident voice:

"I accept".

And he knows that she has no clue about what he's talking about, but he always has been a dramatic guy who likes to say dramatic things. So, when he starts to explain what he accepts, he ignores Strauss' comments because it's worth.

(for three little kids that he couldn't help)

Yes, David Rossi has a problem. And he's working on it.

N/A.: I always thought I would debut with Morgan/Reid, but I think that I love Rossi too much to forget him. And this part of his life simply deserves attention~ I don't quite remember the episode, but I really liked the way how I put it. So, if it's out of canon in some point, please forgive!

Well, I really hope you guys liked! My english it's not the best, but I'm trying. So, if there are any mistakes, please let me know - I'll correct immediately.

Reviews are extremely appreciated! x3