Diclaimer: I don't own Smallville or Three Day's Grace's song "Over and Over"

A/n: I posted this on K-site and everyone liked it so I thought I'd post it here too

Chloe's journal

I feel it everyday it's all the same
It brings me down, but I'm the one to blame

Why do I keep doing this? I keep doing this to myself. I keep setting myself up to get crushed. And everytime it happens I promise I won't do it again. Yet I always do. I keep thinking that this time around it won't hurt as bad as the last, but it hurt's as bad as the first time. What's so great about Clark Kent anyways?

I've tried everything to get away
So here I go, Chasing you down again,
Why do I do this?

You think I would have been smarter than this. I try to just walk away, to just shut him out. It's too hard, he's got the world on his sholders, I couldn't do that to him because of my feelings. He needs me.

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you,
Over and over, over and over
I try not to

For me it's literly impossible to not fall for him. It's like just taking one bite of chocolate or putting down a good book.

It feels like everyday stays the same,
It's dragging me down and I can't pull away

And the sad thing is, it's noticeable to everyone, except appartantly him. I can't keep a relationship going for anything, once the guy see's that I'd do anything for Clark. We'll again I can't exactly explain why I cover for him so much now can I?

So here I go again, Chasing you down again,
Why do I do this?
Over and over, over and over,
I fall for you,
Over and over, over and over,
I try not to,
Over and over, over and over,
You make me fall for you,
Over and over, over and over,
You don't even try to

And the really sad thing is, he had no idea what he does to me. Everytime he smiles, I want to melt, he laughs and it makes me happy no matter what mood I'm in. I see him sad and it makes my heart break.

So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head,
I try to live without you, everytime I do I feel dead,
I know what's best for me, But I want you instead,
I'll keep wasting all my time

URG! I hate this. I hate the fact that I can't live without him! Like I said before...he needs me. The truth is, I need him just as much if not more. It's bad enough that I feel like this, but he never leaves my head. It's like he popped into my head freshman year and never left. I know I should try to do somthing more, I know that this...obsession...isn't good for me, but he's addicting. I'd wait forever for him.

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you,
Over and over, over and over,
I try not to,
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you,
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try to

He'll never know. This will be my secret...the thing I have to bear. Because I can't live without him, and I can't seem to let him go. So I suppose I'm stuck in the middle. 'I'm in love with my best friend' how chiche! HA! Well if this was a fairytale Clark would come and magically sweep me off my feet. But this is real life so I guess I'll just have to deal with it huh?

Clark smiled as he closed the book. He shook his head as he set it back down. He had no idea that he did this before. He guessed he really was the 'Big Dumb Alien' as Chloe has so colorfully put it once. He heard a door shut in the other room and realized that Chloe was back. His smile grew as he rushed out to great her. Little did she know, her 'real life' was about to get a little more fairytale added to it.