Loveless
There was no love lost between them. There was no love to lose. She wanted to believe differently. She wanted there to be even the slightest ray of hope. That would mean admitting there were flaws. She couldn't do that. She couldn't put flaws where there were none. She couldn't tell herself there was a chance when there may not be one.
"He loves me not…" she reminded herself.
It was a habit that she had taken on over the last few days. She couldn't help herself. She wanted to be more to him. She wanted to be loved and cherished by him. The days of their shared past had taken over her dreams. His sudden and crushing confession left her with nothing. She daren't even hope anymore.
"He loves me not…" she repeated as memories resurfaced.
Her words were ineffective. The memories conjured wouldn't lie down and die. A soft cry escaped her. Her arms wrapped around her legs. She pulled them up to her chest. A soft glistening trail of tears had sprung up in her eyes. They wouldn't leave. She was tormented by her emotions, by her tears and by memories that she once treasured.
"He loves me not!" her voice rang out.
She was weak. Her voice had trembled as it travelled all throughout the room. She placed her hand to her mouth. Slowly, she began to rock back and forth. She couldn't stop herself. The pain was too much. She wanted to close her eyes and lose the past. She wanted to lose him but she couldn't. She strained to keep her eyes open for the irrational fear that her wish would come true.
How could she bear to lose him? He was the centre of her world. He was the leader of the Titans. That would never change. She always had to obey him. Her only escape would be leaving. She wouldn't quit. She couldn't bear to leave the others behind. Her memories with them were still precious.
"Why am I wrong? What did I do? I do not understand you…" she whispered. "He loves me but not truly? He loves me… He loves me not… He loves me not…"
Author's Note: A mixture of the animated series – the one which introduced me to Teen Titans – and the comic. I'd heard that they broke up. I went to investigate on wikia. This came up. That's the story of how I wrote Loveless. I'm quite happy with this. I'm back home with angst. This isn't my only one of this kind of fandom though for these… I thank you for reading my work, dearest readers! Please say that you enjoyed my tale. I urge you to accept my apology, dear readers, if you believe that I failed.
Part of the Revival Collection.