Author's Notes: Just a letter made by Lavi for Allen. I don't know if it really was letter [geez, what am I saying?] Anyways, just another "Thoughts of Lavi Bookman for Allen Walker" type of fic cause yeah, I really SUCK! Random words and ideas came to my mind and so, I randomly type them, yeah? Okay, that doesn't make any sense, does it? Oh geez, forget it. I think I just banged my head pretty hard, uhhhh… Enjoy reading!
Pairing: LaviAllen
Warning: Crappy or not, up to you.
Disclaimer: Don't own –man and even if I do, I'll just put some random loads of crap in it.
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Dear Allen Walker,
I was, of course, a very hateful man. I dreamed of nothing but becoming a heartless historian. I've been traveling since I was a child. Got to watch these wars that never seemed to end. I looked back at my past and noticed that nothing has been good enough for me. I've lived the worst, the very worst and yet, I still can't feel anything. I've been endangered all through my life and it was okay. I just lived, lived for history and nothing else. I did not notice the people around me, the places around me, everything. I only look at history, a paper, an ink, and a pen. They're my sanity and without them, I think, I couldn't live. I've been a good for nothing child and thought that I don't have any purpose on this world. And yeah, my entire point of view has changed. You came, you became my friend, and everything has changed. I can now smile and be happy. I can now cry and be sad. I know how to feel such emotions I'm not familiar off and express them freely as I could. I can now look at everybody and have them as a part of my life. History is just a way of living for me and nothing more than that. My entire world turned in a whole different direction and thank you for doing that.
You really are a Destroyer, a Destroyer of my hateful façade. A façade that I've put up, caging my whole heart, locking it behind. I threw the key so it wouldn't be found and yet you still manage to open it up and have my heart beating freely. Emotions overwhelmed me and for the first time in my life, I've cried like a new born child. You hugged me and I felt safe like never before. I know I acted like a child in a mother's embrace but I didn't worry over that. All I know is that at last I'm free and my agony could know be put to an end. I cried and cried till my consciousness failed me. I fell asleep in your gentle embrace and awoken to your gentle smile. You said good morning to me like there's nothing wrong. I couldn't help but smile and caress your pale cheek. I looked into your misty grey eyes and I've been engrossed to it. I said thank you and I love you, you replied with a smile and said "I love you, too!" I kissed you like there was no tomorrow, explored your whole mouth, enjoying it till we lose our breath. We broke off and smiled to each other, took each other's hand and together, we faced the world's harsh reality. Thank you for everything, Allen!
Lavi Bookman
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P.S. The title's pretty funny, ahaha. I think so O_O