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The star forge destroyed, Revan traveled deep into dark space. The former Sith lords memory would not let her rest until she stopped what evil she had served. The Ebon Hawk was gone, vanished over two years ago. Revan's long black hair had grown past her shoulders since then. She kept it in a high placed pony tail. Her blue eyes radiating confidence and determination. Revan continued to wear the black robes she found in Korriban. The lightsaber was gripped firmly in her right palm. As she waited for her next target to move. Stealth was on her side for the moment. The sith lord walked past her completely unaware of Revans' presence. Quickly the Jedi moved and ignited her double bladed lightsaber and struck the Sith down. The silver lit up the night air around her and revealed a bleak unknown world shrouded in the dark side of the force. Revan was unsure of the name of this place but knew she needed to leave now that the top ranking sith lord was dead. Silently Revan returned to her small star ship. She punched the hyper space coordinates into the navicomputer. Returning to the cold space above. The Jedi wondered where should she go next. The Republic was still in danger of the Sith but Revan desperately wanted to see Carth Onasi. The man she had fallen in love with 7 years ago.
Sighing heavily Revan entered the coordinates to Telos. Carth Onasi's home world. From there she would find some way to contact to him. To let him know that she still loved him and still thought of him. Hoping he could somehow forgive her for leaving him and the others behind. The stars glowed brightly as they whizzed by, such was entrance to hyperspace. Revan remembered why she left and why she left her closet friends behind. The day was seven years ago. But she could remember like it was yesterday.
After the defeat of Darth Malak and the destruction of the Star Forge the Republic had a heroes welcome for the crew of the Ebon Hawk. The former sith lord felt out of place and guilty. She was the cause of Malaks' fall to the dark side after all. Everyone else however had stood so proudly. Mission jumped for joy and Zaalbar grumbled his approval. Bastilla was still recovering from her own fall to the dark side but still held her head high for appearances sake. Jolee could care less, he might as well have been in the middle of the firaxin infested waters. Juhani stood proudly, the Cathar felt her redemption course through her veins. HK-47 stood awaiting orders, wishing to have something else to shoot. T3-M4 hummed quietly. The one that stood out the most however was Carth Onasi. He stood tall, glancing at Revan. Smiling sweetly at her. His eyes glowed with a loving warmth and always wearing that orange jacket which always bothered her. But at the same time he did look quite handsome in it. The republic soldiers cheered as Admiral Dadonna spoke words of praise and Master Vandaar spoke of Revans' redemption, of her redemption. But after the ceremony when she was alone with the Jedi masters, they warned Revan of the dangers of being in love and at the same time warned of the future. The future Revan kept dreaming of in her sleep. Master Vandaar warned of her memories, how they might drive her to do something she might regret. Warned of another possible fall to the dark side. Revan listened closely but in the end she did not head their words completely. How could she not love Carth? He helped her stay on the righteous path after all. In the end when darkness was threatening to overcome her, Carth pushed it all aside and allowed the light to shine through.
Shoving the past aside Revan returned to future. Telos appeared before her as the small fighter exited hyperspace. The planet was still recovering from Malaks' attack. But thanks to the Ithorians it was nearing restoration. The citadel accepted her docking codes. Leaving the docking bay she found the metal walls and floors echoed with her foot steps. Her black robes moved ever so slightly as she made her way to the head office. Even the citadel had recent improvements since the attack by Nihlus 2 years ago. "I wish to speak to who's in charge."
"And just who are you?" the man asked.
"Revan." she answered, smiling slightly.
"What did you say?" The man was alarmed. "Did you say your name is Revan?"
"Yes. I need to speak with Carth Onasi. Do you know where he is?" Revan shifted her body and the man flinched expecting a possible attack. "Go ahead call him. Tell him Revan waits for him on Telos." with that said Revan walked away heading to the cantina she passed on her way to this office. The man she left trembling with unknown fear. He quickly did as Revan told however. Simply because one of his orders was to report to Admiral Onasi concerning anyone or any ship that used the name Revan.
"Are you sure? This woman claims to be Revan?" Carth was in shock. He had heard nothing of Revan. Rumors yes and 5 years ago the Ebon Hawk reappeared but without Revan. Only an exiled Jedi with a different crew for the former smuggling vessel.
"Carth? Carth? I don't feel her presence through the force but Revan severed our ties years ago. There is a possibility that it could truly be her." Bastilla offered. "What do you want to do Carth?"
"I'm going to Telos." Carth's mind raged war within itself barely daring to let hope rise.
"Then I am going with you." Bastilla leaned against the wall. Setting up for the argument to come.
"No. If it's trap I don't want you there." Carth left no room to argue. Bastilla was vital to the Republic since so many Jedi had disappeared. So he walked to the hangar by himself. Made sure the star fighter had plenty of fuel. All the while thinking of how he should greet his love. If it truly was Revan. Anger, worry, fear and his love for her clashed. During his flight through space memories of her perfume that he had bought her lingered in his mind. Wanting nothing more than to wrap her up in his arms. To kiss her gently once more. Perhaps ask her to become his wife. Sighing he remembered back about 7 years ago when only 4 months had passed since the destruction of the Star Forge.
Revan stood in the hallway of the republic freighter that was returning them to Coursant, to the Jedi temple. She still wore the brown robes of Ulic Qel Droma, her black hair still braided neatly with a few stray hairs sticking out. Carth could think of nothing else but her beauty and how the war was finally over with the Sith. Or so he thought. "Ogling again are you?" Revan teased.
"But of course. I can't help myself. The savior of the galaxy just so happens to be the most gorgeous woman in the room." He smiled flirting with her again.
"I'm the only woman in the room." bluntly pointed out and looking not amused.
"Alright you got me there. I'm just glad the war is over." he sighed with relief.
"It's not over. The sith are still out there." Revan seemed more distant than usual to him at that time he didn't realize it but she was planning on leaving soon.
"Right now, I just want to think about my future with you." He pulled her close to him, gave her a kiss and held her tight in his embrace. Her body felt tense, like a spring ready to snap from tension at a moments notice. That night she had awoken screaming and drenched with sweat. "What's wrong? Are you ok?" Carth woke startled and surprised to see Revan looking so scared. "Nothing. Just a bad dream is all." her smile faltered but Carth wouldn't push the issue. He knew Revan was having memories of her past and several had sent her into fits of tears. Every time he asked about them, she would push him away. To ashamed of what she had done. He was trying so hard to be patient with her but it was becoming more and more difficult. 3 more months would pass before Revan vanished. Only a holo recording asking him not to follow and not to hate her remained. No explanation, no good bye. Just don't follow me she, was all she left him to think on for seven years. Now she was back. "Hell this could still be trap." Carth told himself for 18th time. There was the Citadel. He would find out for sure once he docked with the space station.
She felt him arrive and knew in time he would find her at the cantina. Revan was having a drink when the Bothian began to argue with a Twi'lek over a game of paazak. Revan sighed not wanting to have to interfere but the way the aliens were yelling in their native tongues told her she was about to.
Carth made his way to the republic embassy and found the lieutent in charge. "The woman calling herself Revan is in the cantina. I've had her under surveillance since she claimed to be Revan. I alerted you immediately sir."
"Thank you. I want you on stand by in case this is a trap." Carth saluted his fellow soldier and headed for the cantina. He opened the doors to a full out bar fight. Revan in the middle of it. She was not using her light saber but her fists to fight. Carth walked over to the bartender and inquired as to what happened. "The Twi'lek and Bothian got into over cards and that woman tried to talk them down. Well obviously it didn't work. So when she kicked those two on their asses, their buddies decided to pitch in. Carth shook his head. He still wasn't completely convince it was her.
"You nerf herder!" The woman yelled and punched the man square in the jaw. She grabbed her drink and took a long swig, daring anyone else to try something.
"Revan?" Carth was only a few feet from her but she looked so different than before. The black robes made her skin look so pale in contrast. Her black hair didn't help. She looked so ghostly to him. But there was no doubt it was her. Those deep blue eyes gave her away. "Carth. How have you been?" she asked quietly, almost as if she were afraid to speak.
"Where in siths blood have you been!" he nearly yelled it at her but he couldn't control his emotions anymore. The flood gates opened and his words poured out. "I've been worried about you for the last 7 years! You show up on Telos and the only thing you have to say to me is how are you doing? I've been alone wondering and hoping I would get to see you again but right now I'm beyond pissed off! Walking in on you in the middle of a cantina fight, not to mention the dark Jedi robes! Or did you think I wouldn't notice!" He was livid and fuming. Revan flinched at his angry words. Staying silent for as long as she dared. Hell sith lords were not this scary to her. "I had no choice!" tears began to fall and finally her legs gave out and she was on her knees. Seeing her so broken nearly ripped his heart out. He was able to calm himself down and he picked her up. Cradled her in his arms and walked out of the cantina. He took her to his apartment, set her on the bed and held her close, saying not a word. In between her sobs she asked if he could forgive her.
"Yes. But if you leave without me again the answers no."
Revan clung to his side inhaling his scent and relishing his warmth. Something she had missed dearly. "Please will you tell me what you were doing out there Rev?"
"Where to begin Carth. So much has happened. I've traveled so far and I'm just," she hesitated, "I'm just not the same as I was before."
"What do you mean?" concern was written all over his face. Of course her mind wondered onto the stubble on his chin and around his mouth. She traced his jaw line and sighed. "I have remembered everything about my past. I remembered sith lords that could come and destroy the republic. So I assassinated them all. All of them that I could remember. Less servants for the emperor."
He looked at her confused. "Emperor?"
"The one who turned me completely to the dark side. Malak and I found him when we chased after the remaining Mandolorians. He was my master. What ever he wanted I did. Until we found the star forge and I got further and further away from his presence. His hold on me was slipping. Malak was so foolish because he never knew he what power he holds. Only I did. So when he betrayed me the day Bastilla's strike team came to capture me. He set in motion events for the Emperor to come and regain control. But the Jedi let me loose back into the galaxy with an erased mind. So the emperor waited to see what would take place. I killed Malak for him and then when he realized that I was a Jedi once more. He set upon the galaxy the Sith I trained to hunt force users. Nearly wiping out the rest of the Jedi completely. So there it is. The threat remaining to the Republic, no the entire galaxy. I have to stop him. Carth, I have to."
He listened to her words intently and hearing the silent plea for help, his anger resolved. Revan is more like me than I could have imagined. I used that same argument with Morgana to stay in the war. "Rev I will help you anyway I can you know this right?"
Revan nodded. Happy to back in his arms again. To fee the warmth that is only his.
"Thank you. Thoughts of you have kept me going Carth. Through all of it. The pain, my memories and keeping the dark side at bay."
"Gorgeous we need to make up for lost time. What would you say to dinner?"
"I love to, flyboy."
As for now Revan would tell Carth tales of battle, struggle and past memories during many months together. Revan will relive a difficult memory but will it pull her back into darkness? Find out next time!