Chapter One: Be My Escape

I'm begging you to be my escape

Jay

"I still can't believe it," Ellie said, staring out the window of my car.

"Well, you better. He's gone," I told her.

"Shut up Jay. I just lost my boyfriend. What did you lose?" she asked me.

"Stop talking about the kid like he died Ellie. I lost my partner in crime here."

"Right, that's so painful for you. I forgot."

I saw her roll her eyes. Instead of acknowledging it, I looked in the rearview mirror at Emma.

"What did you lose Em?" I asked, in a fake-caring voice.

She didn't answer me. She simply turned and looked out the window, following Ellie's lead.

"I know what we need," I said. "A nice big party!"

"I'm up for it," Ellie said, unenthusiastic.

"Whatever," Emma added.

"Let's go then." I started the car, backed out of Ellie's driveway, and headed to the ravine.

There's always a party at the ravine, no matter what. And tonight was one of the best ones yet. A bunch of people were there, and along with them, a bunch of beer and drugs.

"You want a drink?" I asked both of the girls as I picked up a beer. Ellie nodded, but Emma just wandered off without answering me. She was curious. I watched her walk around, taking it all in. Ellie popped me on the shoulder, snapping me back to reality.

"My drink?" she asked, holding her hand out. I grabbed three more beers; two for her and another one for me. She followed me over to a few beat up lawn chairs by the fire.

"You okay?" I asked her, sipping my beer. She was staring into the fire, spacing out. "It's not the end of the world you know."

"How would you know?" she snapped. "You still have Alex."

"Actually, I don't," I told her. "She broke up with me. She blames me for the shooting even though she helped plan the whole paint thing."

"You did that?" Ellie asked, surprised.

"Who else would it have been?" I asked. "Me, Alex, and Spinner. Anyway, Alex said that I talked her into it and she never thought it would go that far. She wanted me to turn myself in to Hatzilakos. No damn way," I said confidently.

"You're such an asshole!" she yelled. No one paid any attention to her, including me. I just kept sipping my beer.

"You gonna drink that?" I asked. "Cause if you're not…"

"Yes, I am!" she said. "Leave me alone Jay."

"I'm staying right by this fire. If you want to leave, then be my guest."

I watched her get up, knocking her chair over in the process. She took her bottles of beer, walked by the cooler, and picked up two more before disappearing into the dark.

After I finished my beers, I didn't even have a buzz. I grabbed a few more and headed off to find someone good to do something with. This place gets really boring without action.

I didn't see Ellie anywhere, so I decided to check in the van. Lots of fun can be had there. I pulled the door open. There was a girl in there, lying down.

"Hello?" I called in. I climbed inside and closed the door behind me.

"Jay?" the girl asked, sitting up.

"Emma? What are you doing in here?" I asked.

"Nothing really. Just thought I'd take a look inside. It's…nice," she said, giggling profusely.

"Are you high?" I asked her.

"Maybe." More giggling. "Just a pinch!" she said loudly. She erupted into a fit of laughter as if she'd said the funniest thing in the world.

"Right," I said, looking around. This is awkward.

"What do you people do in here anyway?" she asked.

"You want to try?"

"You have to tell me what it is first!" she said, laughing again.

I leaned in and whispered in her ear. Her eyes widened and she giggled until I thought I was going to smack her.

"Sure!" she said. I put a bracelet around her wrist, for 'good luck' I told her, and she went for it.

Fifteen minutes later, Emma and I emerged from the van. She ran off somewhere, laughing the entire way.

That was definitely interesting. Not too bad…just…interesting.

I finally found Ellie. She was back by the fire, and completely wasted. Not that I wasn't on my way there. I grabbed one more beer, and sat back down next to her.

"Hey Jay!" she said. "Let's dance!" she grabbed me by my hand and pulled me up. Some weird song was playing on the radio that I brought and left here.

Ellie started grinding all over me. I'd never seen this side of her. I guess people deal with pain differently.

I danced with her and a few other people joined in. Once the song was over, Ellie pushed me into my chair and sat on my lap. Then she got all cuddly.

This is one weird night. Here I am, drinking my fifth beer, after just having some action from Emma, and Ellie is sitting in my lap, her head resting on my shoulder, and playing with my hair.

"What's with you girls tonight?" I asked out loud.

"What do you mean?" she asked, kissing me.

"Well, first Emma and now you," I said, only half explaining.

"I'm just so…drunk!" she yelled. "And horny!"

"Okay then." She kissed me again.

"What did you and Emma do?" she asked, twisting my hair once again.

I whispered in her ear and her eyes widened. Second time tonight that's happened.

"I bet I can do better!" she said, standing up and dragging me along towards the van.

"Slow down," I said, running along with her.

I never thought I'd say something like that to a girl.

The rest of the night was pretty much a blur.

A/N: So everything is going to be completely different after the shooting. Some people take different actions, others take somewhat similar ones. The beginning of this chapter obviously takes place right after Jay, Emma, and Ellie have driven back from leaving Sean in Wasaga. Yes, Ellie was completely different, and so was Emma, but they were both under the influence and that does crazy stuff to you! Review…let me know what you think. The title of this chapter and lyrics at the beginning is all from "Be My Escape" by Relient K and they own it.

Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi or any of its characters.