Fear of Falling, Chapter one-Decision. PoV- Ami.
(All characters are 16, except Ami, who is still 15.)(This is just a short intro.)
I hate my life. Nothing ever goes right. I'm just a damned screw-up, I thought. I sighed. "So then, why am I still here?" I asked myself.
"Talking to yourself again?" Takuya asked with a laugh as he and Koji walked over to Darcy and me.
"Very funny," I replied coldly.
"Ya know, talking to yourself is the first sign of insanity," Takuya joked.
"I'm not crazy," I said angrily.
He laughed. "Denial is the second."
"C'mon, leave her alone," Koji said, annoyed. He kicked Takuya in the one place guys hate being kicked. Takuya keeled over in pain.
"Thanks," I said to Koji, kissing him on the cheek.
He smiled and hugged me. "No problem," he said. "So...your sweet 16 is in two days. Any last-minute gift requests?"
I shook my head. "No, but thanks anyways." Okay, so maybe I lied. One thing in my life has gone right, I have the perfect boyfriend. Just the same, my decision is final. Tomorrow, I'm leaving this world. Forever. I can't take it anymore, there's no other way. I've tried everything else: I've kept myself so busy I wouldn't have time to think about anything; I tried to drink it all away; I even tried to bleed away the pain. But nothing worked, so what other choice do I have? Sure, I'm going to miss everyone, but they'll all be better off without me. It might be hardest on Mom, though. After all, her only son is dead, her oldest daughter is in France with her ex-husband, and now I'll be leaving soon as well. But that's just how life works.
"Ami? Ami, are you okay?"
I blinked and saw Koji looking at me, worried. He smiled, relieved. "Welcome back," he said jokingly, just before kissing me.
Oh god, I'm going to miss Koji.