It's a song. It's a story. Put two and two together you get a song-fic. Which I don't own anything connected to
them.
"If I lost My
Way"
Written by: Neil Diamond and Gary Burr
If I lost my way
Would you stand with me
Would you love me still
And care for what I need
If I lost my way
I do think that I made a horrible mistake. I took the cowards approach to life and ran.
Sure I called it a change of
environment, but the truth was I was running away. But from what? I had it
all, a loving parent, and a great brother who I consider my best friend. There wasn't any unspoken abuse or skeletons
in the closet. Still I need an escape
so I used Annie is an excuse to get the ticket out of here. Now that some time has past and try in get
comfortable in this new world. I can't
though. Because the one person I never
knew I loved so much until he wasn't there every moment I needed him was
missing from my life.
If I lost my faith
To face up to the test
Would I let you down
Would you love me less
If I lost my way
I wrote letters, emails so many I can't even count. Filled with all my thoughts, fears, dreams,
and just simply the way I view this world.
Never to be send, never to be read by him. Still I feel as if he all ready knows the secret of my
heart. Just I want him back, to fell
him close by. But it's gone and I'm
afraid he will never return. I'm so
sorry, I hope he understands that.
Tell me I'm afraid without good reasons
Say that I'm a fool to feel this way
Could it be the me that you believed in
Is all you really need to make you stay
If I lost my way
If I lost my way
I dream of him, always the same three dreams played like in a
loop. One night it's this one and the
next it's the other. It's the only way
I can see him and pretend all is well.
And for those few hours it is and we are all happy. The morning comes; I hate the sun and takes
him away. All day I try call up his
image in my head but it never comes.
Does he realize that I did try?
That I do try? Just I'm walking
in circles that's getting smaller and smaller, trapping me here.
If I lost my dreams
Could I keep your trust
Promise that our love
Would not turn to dust
If I lost my way
The image of his face in a photograph doesn't help me. It's just not same, it never was. I failed, let him down. I smile to those who care about me, while
crying alone. Everything I thought was
is now missing. So in turn it's like I
am no longer completely alive.
Tell me I'm afraid without good reasons
Say that I'm a fool to feel this way
Could it be the me that you believed in
Is all you really need to make you stay
If I lost my way
Would you stand with me
Would you love me still
And care for what I need
If I lost my way
Even if I returned home to mom and Jack, along with everyone else it
won't change anything. I'll still be
reaching, grabbing for him to return to me.
Whisper in my ear like a passing wind, giving me the strength to be who
I am. It's lost. Completely gone. And I don't know how to live without it.
If I lost my way
If I lost my way
If I lost my way
I am so sorry. So terribly
sorry. Please forgive me daddy.
