"I'm Moving On" by Rascal Flatts
A/N: I own nothing this was just something that came to me when I heard this song. This is post episode 9x05.
Sara had been out to sea a while since leaving Las Vegas for a second time. After the first time, she had gone to San Francisco to deal with her past, to deal with all the ghosts that had been haunting her since she was a child and she had been able to face all of them.
When Grissom had told her that 'a relationship in stasis withers' at first she was angry and then confused but she was able to make peace with herself and him as she was at sea. She had even told him in a video message that she was happy, that he didn't have to worry about her anymore and she meant it.
She had been trapped for so long by the events of her childhood but in a way she had found herself through her relationship with Grissom, through her time in San Francisco and now through her time at sea and she was moving on.
I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on
By the time she reached her breaking point she had been in Las Vegas for about eight years. Everyday she came to work and all the faces were the same. Every crime scene she went to had new bodies, different faces but the stories were all the same, they all ended in death and turmoil.
She felt like these bodies would never let her change, never let her move on and soon, this home she had made, this home with Grissom felt so different, so alien. When she left Vegas the first time she had told Grissom that she had felt at home with him but when she came back for Warrick's funeral, everything felt different. She never thought it would happen but she felt like she didn't belong in Vegas anymore; she didn't fit.
So she had moved on, left Grissom and went out to sea.
I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on
At sea it was like a shade had been lifted off of Sara's eyes, she was finally able to see that there was a life outside of Las Vegas waiting for her. There were no guarantees that this would be the right move for her but for some reason she didn't feel alone anymore.
Her mind was made up and there was no turning back, her past was behind her and she was moving forward.
I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
Sara packed everything she though she would need and sold what she didn't. She had found love with Grissom but now it was time to actually live her life free of the demons of her past.
She couldn't believe that it took losing everything to finally find out what she needed. Grissom's words had stung but maybe somewhere down the road she would be able to forgive him; maybe they would be together again but for now…Sara was moving on.
I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
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