Chapter One
A Suspended Beginning
I knew something was wrong. I just knew that something bad was going to happen. Something in my gut and stomach told me that it was worse than I feared. Maybe I should calm down, or at least lay down for a while. But I didn't want to, I couldn't. Please tell me it isn't that bad.
I laid on my bed half asleep, but not at all tired. I decided to pick up a library book off my bookshelf and start reading it. It was a book of poems that teens and younger children have made-up. I stated to read a poem that was sort-of a mystery/love poem, but to me, it seemed…awkward.
He is going to someplace new,
Away from me.
He doesn't want to but chew
His lip, but just see.
Love was gone, forever,
Somewhere I couldn't find.
He was, what I thought, never
Going to get out of my mind.
I was heartbroken, alone,
Until he said the words,
"I love you" at a different tone,
Then left me with no vocal cords.
I couldn't speak, it is what it seem,
Then all of a sudden, it was just a dream.
I put the book down. I have had too many nightmares already. I didn't need any more. But I still felt that something like that poem was going to happen to me. A shiver went down my spine. What if…that poem was…true? It couldn't be…it just couldn't. Then, I heard my door bell ring, it was Edward! But I smiled joyfully at him; he gave me a solemn smile back. I just knew it…something bad was going to happen.
"Bella…" Edward sighed, "…I have to leave the Forks, and I need to live somewhere else, far away from here." Uh-oh!
"Why?" That was the only question I could get out. I shut my mouth and then thought about how the poem went.
"I have to because…" He stopped, took my hands and kissed me on my cheek. "I just have to go." Then he left me there, biting on the dust. I fell on my knees, tears flowing down. I was alone, just like in the poem.
It was five months after Edward left me and I couldn't stop thinking about him. Just like in the poem, how could he leave me? I re-read the poem many times and then realize something. Well, if this is like the poem, then he should come back and say, "I love you" to me, hopefully. But leave me stranded after that. But then I should wake up and it'll all be a dream. Just then, I thought about the dream part. It should just be a dream at the end. I kept telling myself that it was all a dream. It is only a dream. I felt something stab my heart. Maybe he loves, but just doesn't want to be near me, for his sake as a vampire. Please let this be a dream. I didn't want it to be an ending with me and Edward, but that's all I could think of. Out so many other thought I was thinking, it had to be this one. Let this be a dream. It is only a dream. Please, let it be a dream. I t just has to be.