A Little Bit Stronger
Author's Note: I'm just trying this one out…I've never written a story for the Volturi or the Guard so I will try my hand at one with Bella.
WARNING: Contains some death, rape, violence, language and lemons. Readers beware.
Plot: This is set from the Cliff Dive in New Moon on, only different. When Alice comes back and tells Bella how she was unable to save Edward, Bella goes into a deep depression. After some counseling she starts slowly becoming herself again. She goes out for a girl's night with Angela and Jessica in Seattle around the time Victoria is making her Newborns and something happens. It is an unlikely character that ultimately saves Bella, where will it go from there?
Disclaimer: I own nothing Twilight, I just like playing with the characters
Chapter 1
When I was seventeen years old I met and fell in love with a beautiful vampire named Edward Cullen. Things were great between us and his family welcomed me into their lives with open arms and open hearts, with the exception of Rosalie who I later found out envied me. I thought that we'd be together forever, Edward and I…that was until the night of my 18th birthday. The Cullens invited me over for a little party and we were exchanging gifts, me being a clumsy person I got a paper cut on the paper of one of the gifts and that sent Jasper, Edward's brother and the newest to the vegetarian lifestyle, into a frenzy. After Jasper tried to attack me, Edward threw me into a table causing me to bleed even more. Carlisle patched me up and I went home. Now don't get me wrong, I was a bit frightened by Jasper that night but I knew he wasn't intentionally trying to hurt me and I instantly forgave him for reacting on his natural instincts as a vampire. Edward, however, didn't feel the same for the next day he broke up with me in the woods by my house. I got lost trying to find him and collapsed in tears in the middle of the forest. I was later found by Sam Uley and I was a shell of my former self.
I became a zombie for months after Edward and his entire family left Forks, Edward being the only one who said goodbye. As if it would be any better either way, not only did I lose Edward that day in the woods but I lost the family that I had come to know, love and trust. Best believe one thing, IT HURT! I finally started going out again after Charlie threatened to either ship me off to live with Renee or put me in an institution until I was better. One night I went out with Jessica, a friend from school, we came upon a group of dangerous bikers who were making cat calls at us. I was going to go give them a piece of my mind when I saw Edward's perfect face telling me not to go. It was only an illusion but it was still him and I knew then how I could still have a piece of him. I found two old motorcycles the next day and headed to La Push.
My time with Jacob was great and I found that with him, my personal sun, I was starting to heal from Edward's sudden departure from my life and the loss of my second family. But like everyone else I got close to, he left as well…bluntly telling me to stay away from him. I was hurt, the hole in my heart left by Edward and the Cullens' leaving reopened even bigger than before. I decided in that moment, I needed to see Edward's face again.
I drove to the highest cliff in La Push and dove into the water like I had seen Sam Uley and his friends do one time when Jacob and I were at the beach. In that moment, as I sank down into the deep blue water, I was at peace because I saw the face of Edward as I sank deeper into the water. Of course, Victoria chose that time to make her presence known and I hit my head on a near by rock and passed out. Oh Yeah! I forgot to tell you that little detail, Victoria started hunting me after the Cullens left for Edward killing her mate James…a mate for a mate. Crazy, right? The next thing I know I was being pulled out of the water and given CPR. When I came to Jacob was hovering over me.
What happened next turned my already crazy mixed up life upside down! No, it wasn't finding out that my best friend was a werewolf, I could handle that. No, it was coming home from school to find Alice Cullen pacing back and forth in my living room. I didn't know what to think because a small part of me was happy and relieved to see her again but an even BIGGER part of me was still upset and FURIOUS that she left in the first place without even saying goodbye. My only question was, are the rest back as well? And Why?
"What are you doing here?" I asked, my voice portraying all of the emotions I was feeling and coming out a bit harsh. I needed to stay calm.
"I should ask you the same, Bella, I saw you jump off of a cliff and never come back out of the water" she said in disbelief and shock.
"I was cliff diving and Jacob pulled me out when I hit my head." I said "You never answered why you are here! You all left me here to fend for myself with Victoria sniffing around."
"What? Victoria?" Alice replied, shocked…still avoiding my question.
"Yes, she wants revenge for James' death…mate for a mate, not that any of you care!" I said bitterly.
"Bella, we cared! We still care…we should have never left but Edward insisted it was best for you." she said "He was coming back before…"
"Before what Alice?" I cut her off "Before I died? Too late! I died when he left…when you ALL left."
"Bella, let me finish." Alice said and like a bitch, I cut her off again.
"No, you listen! My father and my best friend had to watch me for MONTHS act like a freaking ZOMBIE after he left and you all followed. Charlie was going to send me to either live with Renee or WORSE have me sent to an asylum. I wanted to DIE!" I spat.
"Bella, Edward's gone!" Alice blurted out during my rant.
"Way to state the obvious, Alice. I hope he's happy wherever he's at." I said sarcastically. I really was bitter about it all to the point I was angry.
"I do too, he got himself killed when he thought you were dead." Alice said sadly and I stopped ranting and just looked at her.
"Is this some kind of sick joke?" I spat and she hung her head "How?"
"He went to Volterra and exposed himself to the humans there. Aro had Felix and Afton dispose of him." she said through unshed tears. In that moment, I couldn't breath as tears streamed down my face. "The family came back to comfort you, Bella" she added.
"I don't want or need your comfort!" I sobbed "It'll only make it hurt more!"
"Bella, we are so sorry. Edward really did love you." she said.
"Please leave." I sobbed, trying to keep my cool.
"Bella, I…" she started.
"GO!" I screamed "Don't come here anymore! If I want to talk to you, I will call! Just GO!"
Alice finally left and I sunk down to the ground in tears. I cried for hours over Edward's death. When Charlie came home, I was still in the same position at the end of the stairs.
"What's wrong, Bells?" he said sitting beside me on the floor.
"Edward's dead." I sobbed.
"What? How?" he asked.
"Alice came by, he got into some kind of accident in Italy." I lied, tears still streaming down my face."
"I'm so sorry, Bella." he said pulling me into him. We sat together and I cried like this for a while longer.
"Come on, Dad. I'll go cook to take my mind off of things." I said. I headed to the kitchen and made us both dinner. We sat together in silence as we ate and he headed to the den to watch Sports Center. I began washing the dishes and when I came across a knife I hesitated for a second before I took the knife and dug it deep into both of my wrists before slumping down to the floor in tears. I faintly heard Charlie calling out my name.
"Bella? Are you in here?" he called "OH MY GOD! What have you done? Bella! Stay with me!" he screamed frantically and everything went dark.