I told the guys that the only reason that I went after Haley was to get at Lucas. I know that lying was a sin. Well that is ok. I just want all of this attention. I want him to look at me even if it is just hate. That way I know that he won't forget about me.

I know that it is stupid and that he is my older brother, half-brother. I get even hotter for the fact he is already half mine. I know that he will never except that he is blood related to me. The fact that my blood created something that was that hot and smexy is mind blowing.

The shower is one place that is to get rid of hard-ons but damn I am getting one. I can just imagine him in here calling me dirty names and laughing at me, but I would not care because he would have to stand there and see me, watch me.

I can just see his sleepy blue eyes staring at me as I got myself off. "Ah….ah... Lucas..."

The next thing I do know is that the blue eyes switch to brown. "Nate…Did you just…I going to leave now…" and out goes Haley.

'Dang that is not good. If she knows, she'll tell Lucas and I'll never see him again because he'll kill me.' Grabbing a towel and covering my now soft rod, I run after her.

She is sitting, fidgeting, on the couch that I have in my apartment. She looks up at me when I walk in to the room. She has the ability that makes me feel that I should not be in my house at this moment in time.

"Haley, listen, it was not as it seemed…" I tried.

"So you weren't…doing that thing….to the thought of Lucas?" She countered.

I look at her and decide that I need to tell her the truth because she is the only one on my team at this point in time. "Yes I was jerking off to the thought of Lucas. I am sorry Haley."

I watch as her face darkens and the water works happen. I walk up to her and hug her. She did not even push me away. As she continued to cry, I thought of a plan to keep her here in my corner. She might no longer be my girlfriend but she is now important to me.

I felt her stop shivering and I pull away, figuring that she now does not want anything from me. I look down as she looked up.

"Hey." I whispered.

"You were using me to get to him just in different way. Nate you're an ass, but you must really like him if you are willing to do this."

"So you don't hate me?"

"No, not really but you need to understand that it is going to take a while for me to trust you completely again. I do trust you for the fact that you told the truth but it will take time….That explains a lot."

"What you mean?"

"The way you tried to overdo yourself when it came to me and then you stopped. Some would say that you did it because of me but you were relieved that I want no sex. Ahh Nate that sweet. Now I wish I was Lucas."

"You can't tell him. He must not know."

"He must not know what?"….