What was I thinking? Bella was only using me because Edward wouldn't have sex with her. We had been at this every time Edward was away hunting. It was getting harder to not think about our sexcapades. Alice finally figured it out but had a feeling since our movie night and said it was okay cause she knew we were only fucking each other and that there was no love involved. But recently I had been feeling Bella's love and contentment with me once I jumped from her window and continued to watch her room from the wood surrounding her house. I could see now why Edward wanted someone to watch her. Her house was in a very accessible area for vampires. She still wouldn't let me stay longer than to gain my composure and put my clothes back on, It was kind of annoying that she only ever wanted one round, She had now taken to having a shower right after I left and changing her sheets. I guess Edward could smell me on her the first day; she doesn't want him to suspect anything.
Even though Alice knows, I have no idea how she has been keeping it from Edward. He has absolutely no idea. I guess he is not as attuned to her every move as he thinks. It doesn't help that she acts so innocent around him still. I have seen the real Bella and she is a tiger of sorts, ha-ha, I bet that would be her favorite if Edward ever got the balls to turn her, I'm thinking about doing it cause we've been talking and she hints that she wants to be a vampire so much. It's sad to think that Edward won't even hear her out; she has some pretty convincing tactics that she has been practicing on Alice now that she knows everything. I've almost been tempted to bring her along and have threesome, but I think that might be too weird for Bella, Alice is her best friend and all.